1. Belongs: The universe and characters of Detroit Become Human belong to Quantic Dreams and David Cage.
2. Rating: "T" in general, but might be "M" for cursed words, graphics contents such as violence, injuries, or sexual scenes.
3. Summary: Gavin and Nines go to the latter's place to finally take the next step together and discover themselves in another way...
(WARNING NSFW: Nudity and oral sex)
Note: Here is the famous chapter that blocked me for months! In the end, I'm sorry, I had to cut the chapter in half, so the next one will be more in-depth (literally haha). About the chapter's title, it's inspired by the song "I'm Feeling Good" but covered by Adam Lambert. Thank you all for still being here after this long absence! Your reviews made me super happy!
CHAPTER 20
"And I'm Feeling Good."
- May 12th, 2039, 6:37 pm, Nines' place -
As Nines walked over to one of the houses along the long avenue, Gavin narrowed his eyes. He knew these houses had been abandoned by their occupants over six months ago now, but he'd never really wondered where Nines could live in all this time. In a way, he was released to see he lived in a simple small villa of about fifty square meters, and not on the street or in a notorious squat.
When the android opened his front door, Gavin found an ordinary living room, untouched, with some personal belongings from the old family that lived there before the vigilante. He entered silently, trailing his gaze in the main room, intrigued and curious.
Nines closed the front door behind them and slipped silently behind the detective to gently hug him, wrapping his arms over his stomach and nestling his face in the crook of his neck. Nines wasn't used to being so close to Gavin, neither was the human, but if he didn't try anything, then they'd both just stand there without saying anything, hesitating, and wondering what they were doing, what had really happened, out there, in front of the church. But both knew too well what had happened, what it meant, and what it implied.
Gavin gently closed his eyes, letting himself into the embrace and resting his back against the wide and firm chest of the android. They had never been this close before, and despite the rain that had wet their clothes, which were now cold and sticky, Gavin could feel heat released from the body pressed against his own. And damn it felt good ..!
"I'm sorry…" Nines said in a whisper, his breath tickling Gavin's skin under his ear. "... for hiding this from you …"
Gavin turned around to face him and lifted his hands to grab his face between his fingers. He sunk his gaze into his and Nines remained silent, waiting for the rest, anguish twisting his artificial insides.
"Don't apologize, Nines…" Gavin pursed his lips, guilt gnawing at him again. "I… I don't blame you…" He smiled. "I'm the one who acted like a motherfucker ... I should apologize again …"
Nines left one of his hands on his human's lower back and lifted the other up to rest it flat against one of Gavin's, still on his face. He was still looking at him, but a slightly harsher look appeared on his face.
"You already apologized Gavin, once was enough ... No need to torture yourself further and needlessly blame yourself ... Don't fall into this vicious cycle, not with me …"
Gavin inhaled deeply, his breath hitched slightly, realizing that he was about to demean himself again, apologizing over and over again for making mistakes, failing, saying he was not good enough, that he was bad in relationships, that he-
Gavin's eyes flickered briefly as he felt the android's lips pressed against his again, and all his doubts fled away, leaving only a sweet euphoria that made him feel like having fireworks inside his body. He closed his eyes and sighed before slipping his arms around Nines' neck. He pulled him closer to him to deepen the kiss, requesting access to his mouth as he let his tongue caress the vigilante's lower lip.
Nines was already overheated, and of course, he agreed to the request, parting his lips a little more to make his tongue dance with the detective's one.
The two let out a sigh, which mingled with each other's breath, Nines sliding his hands down Gavin's lower back to pull him even closer.
Gavin reluctantly stepped back, breathless again, and stared into the android's face in front of him. The more he looked at him, the more a smile stretched his lips.
"You are… perfect, Nines…" Gavin craned his neck again to kiss him gently on the surface, closing his eyes for a few seconds to savor. Then stepped back to look at him again. "You are beautiful as you are …"
"But ... I thought that-"
"Nines," Gavin said a little louder than the whispers hitherto used. "You might share some physical traits with Connor, but… The more I look at you, and… the more I realize that I only see you…" Nines looked at him surprised, but a glimmer of uncertainty shone in his eyes. "I don't see Connor, nor Collin in you Nines… You are just… you. I only see you… " He gave him a smile. "Deep down… I already knew that, I just didn't want to see it, because… I was scared. But in the end, it doesn't matter. You are the way you are, and ... no matter how similar you look, I can assure you that you are far from being similar ... You are much better, and you are a great and a wonderful person ... "
"Gavin …"
An uproar of emotion began to take hold of the android at his human's words and his vocal cords refused to vibrate to articulate a sound. He gasped and the artificial tears silently blurred his field of view.
All these months, he'd thought Gavin would hate him because of this appearance, that nothing would be possible and conceivable between them, but Gavin had just told him otherwise. He'd become so self-conscious about his appearance that he'd been disgusted by it, but now that Gavin said he liked him, no matter how similar he was with the others RK800s, it made the android emotional.
Unable to articulate a thing, Nines leaned over slightly to seal his lips against Gavin's again, hugging him a little more powerfully against him in his arms.
Gavin sighed on his lips, letting his body relax, and responded fervently.
"May I make a suggestion ..?" Nines managed to say between kisses.
"Hm-hm ...? "
"If you keep your clothes wet, you're going to get sick."
Gavin pulled back to burst out laughing. Here was a face he'd never seen on Nines before, but which, strangely, suited him pretty well. That piercing blue gaze, almost as clear as crystal, was sunk in his, then began to slide over his body. He seemed to be undressing him already, slowly, layer by layer and the fire rose in Gavin's cheeks.
He'd never seen the lust painted on that face, and it aroused more of the human's lust, who was already lost in the android's grip, and in his burning, almost white-hot eyes.
Nines lifted his hands to gently grab the flaps of Gavin's brown jacket and slide it off his shoulders, being careful not to rush him by letting it fall down his arms. The dull thud it made as it fell to the floor didn't seem to lift them out of that intimate bubble that was starting to form around them, and Gavin let himself be sucked into another kiss, wetter and hotter.
He let out a sigh against his lips as he clenched his fists on the hem of Nines' white T-shirt. He cursed internally as he realized he hadn't bothered to see if he had turned translucent with the rain. He'd been too overwhelmed by his emotions, and the android himself, quite simply.
"Bedroom.. ?" Nines offered against his lips, and Gavin nodded with a small moan. The android mouthed his lips in a thin smile. "Follow me…"
Nines reluctantly pulled away from his human but held him by the hand to guide him to the adjacent room, which was none other than the bedroom.
Gavin followed and glanced briefly at the room as he entered. It was a rather ordinary bedroom which included a desk, a closet, shelves with various figures, posters on the walls and a few frames, and decorative objects here and there. Gavin let out a chuckle as Nines closed the door behind them, and as his gaze fell on Nightwing's life-size poster.
"Oh my God, did you find your inspiration right here?"
"Yes," Nines smiled, looking at the poster, then Gavin. "I hope to become an inspiration too. "
" What do you mean..?" Gavin asked, narrowing his eyes, suspecting that there was a hint in that sentence and that the android was up to something.
"Well…" Nines began, moving closer to him while removing his own leather jacket. He dropped it to the floor and placed his hands on the human's hips to pull him closer. "Give you some ideas ..? "
"Because you don't have any?" Gavin said, smiling more and more, knowing that they were implicitly talking about sex."You never ..? "
"Of course I already have," Nines said simply, fixing his gaze on Gavin's. "But never with a human. Not yet…"
"Hmm…" Gavin lifted a hand and rested it on his chest, watching with satisfaction the see-through aspect of the shirt that touched the android's skin. "I can show you some stuff …"
They exchanged another look before Gavin melted on the android's lips, nibbling at them while sliding his hands under Nines' shirt to remove it.
Their lips pressed together again after the cloth was removed, and Nines pushed Gavin back at the same time, hands on his hips, to the bed. With the mattress pressing lightly behind his knees, Gavin fell onto the bed, dragging the android down, the latter taking place on top of him, his body pressed against his by gravity.
Their tongues whirled feverishly together, their breaths sucked in by their increasingly fiery kisses.
Nines spread Gavin's legs with his knees, and straightened up to grab the flaps of his human's T-shirt, and took it off. He pulled him by the hips and leaned in again above him, placing his forearms on either side of his head, to kiss him again fervently. Gavin let out a moan against his lips as their torsos touched, skin to skin. He hooked one leg across the android's lower back to press himself more against him, and the two moaned mouth to mouth, at the sensation of their two members pressing through their jeans.
"Nines…"
The latter ventured into his neck to kiss it, nibble it and climb up to his earlobe, causing Gavin to let out a choked cry. Nines wanted to hear him making all the sounds he could do, and he wanted to be the one to make him moan like that.
Gavin closed his eyes to the kisses that the android smeared on his skin, and ran his fingers down Nines' sides absently, relishing Nines' sighs against his skin. He reopened one eye in his trance to see the android's synthetic skin underneath his fingers, rippling in bluish waves, like caustics, revealing his black chassis underneath.
Automatically, Gavin squeezed his fingers harder, digging them into that soft, supple part of the chassis, biting his lower lip as he felt Nines' pelvic pressing a little more against his.
Nines straightened up again to kiss his chest and slowly lowered, creating a wet furrow with his kisses, sometimes letting his tongue sliding against the human's skin, who moaned and twisted deliciously under his touch.
Gavin lifted his other hand to run it through the still wet strands of hair from the android, unconsciously guiding him onto his stomach while biting his lip under the attention Nines was giving him.
Nines let Gavin guide him, although he was very well aware of what he was doing and where he was going. He wanted the human as he'd never wanted anyone in the past, and he suspected that this feeling was certainly related to his feelings for him, unlike his old experiences which had only been purely experimental.
Nines then began to undo the belt blocking his access, then busied himself unbuttoning the jeans, bulged by the object of his desire. He squeezed his mouth through the thick fabric against the bump, scraping his teeth gently against the fibers, making Gavin gasp in surprise and letting out a moan of pleasure while tightening his fingers through his hair. The android smirked against the erection as he glanced up at his human, who'd propped up on his elbows to observe him, gasping in pleasure, cheeks pink and pupils dilated with desire.
"Y-You don't have to …"
"I know…" Nines smirked as she looked Gavin straight in the eye while placing his fingers on the rim of the jeans. "Do you want to ..? "
"You have to be a Mormon if you don't want something like this, especially with someone like you ..! "
"Someone like me?" Nines slowly crawled up to Gavin, staring at him before raising an eyebrow.
"Exactly ..." Gavin swallowed hard, fixing his lips and then his eyes. "I've never had someone so… attractive and sexy."
Nines let out a small chuckle before sucking his lips deliciously between his and slipping his tongue in between. The action had an electrifying effect on Gavin, and adrenaline rushed through him from head to toe like a whiplash, which took his breath away in the process. He readily accepted the intrusion by mingling his tongue with his, causing hot flashes throughout his body.
Still kissing him, Nines gently tugged on the jeans to pull it down, dragging his underwear in the process. Gavin suddenly felt exposed and vulnerable, but Nines' warm and firm hand wrapped around his outstretched member anchored him to the real world. He resisted from letting his head fall back, unwilling to break their kiss, and subconsciously starting to move his hips for more contact.
Nines smiled against his lips and slowly began to masturbate him, making him moan in their kisses, giving him some heart palpitations and a few more degrees to his body.
He tightened his fingers around his cock a little more as he continued his slow moves, and Gavin let his head roll back, exposing his throat and gasping in pleasure.
"N-Nines …"
The latter went down his throat, kissing his Adam's apple longingly before nibbling it gently and sliding his tongue into the hollow of his manubrium. Gavin let out a groan as the android slid lower, returning to his interest area.
As he couldn't wait more, Nines wrapped his lips around his length while pressing his tongue against the slit.
"Hhmm fu-" Gavin bit his lip as Nines took him a little deeper into his mouth. "-Hh ..! "
Nines smirked as best as he could with the cock stretching his mouth, happy to do so much to his partner with only the start of a blowjob. He was already losing his mind, and the android couldn't even imagine how Gavin could handle what was to follow if he was already so sensitive.
With the yellow LED, Nines swallow his cock deeper into his throat, analyzing every inch of skin against his tongue and every biological compound from the pre-seminal fluid that was starting to bead.
Gavin fell onto his back against the mattress when the android grunted in satisfaction around his erection, sending vibrations into the small of his back and making his cock pulsate deep in his throat.
Nines began to bob his head further and further, stimulating more and more arousal in his human, and intermittently sending tender blood strokes to his erection. He wasn't doing any better anyway. He felt awfully tight in his jeans and started to gently move his hips against the mattress to create more friction. He sighed in pleasure, Gavin's cock deep in his throat, and his eyes closed to focus on the taste, texture, and warmth of the length.
Gavin lifted his head to watch him, and he had to force himself to not come right away. Nines' LED juggled between blue and yellow, but his cheeks were blued with thirium and excitement.
His lids snapped open and his metallic blue-gray eyes pierced him in place. It wasn't a cold blue, it was white-hot metal, and Gavin felt his lower abdomen tighten.
"I-If you keep it up..." Gavin said hardly, his throat already dry and his voice hoarse.
But Nines didn't give him a chance to continue with his sentence, as he accentuated his blowjob by pressing his tongue more against his length and taking it deep in his throat. He also tightened his fingers at the base of his member with light wrist thrusts, which elicited a cry from the human, who was trembling beneath him.
Gavin desperately tried to grip his left hand through the android's hair, as the fingers of his right hand tightened on Nines' arm. Under his fingers, the synthetic skin retracted again for more contact. Unconsciously, Nines tried to connect to Gavin through an interface but had no feedback on the channel he'd just opened.
Nines opened his eyes again to observe his human and their gazes met. Gavin curled up at that right moment when he was suddenly struck by the orgasm. His voice broke into a cry as he felt all of his energy draining from his body.
He collapsed flat on his back on the bed, panting and his heart pounding in his chest, resounding in his ears like a dull, and erratic beat.
Nines swallowed his fluid, taking great care not to forget any, delicately licking the cock which was still twitching in front of him. A smile crooked his lips as he leaned back to prop his head up and watch Gavin.
"Sorry, I couldn't resist…"
"Hh… Don't apologize…" Gavin sighed before closing his eyes in an attempt to calm his heartbeats. "It was awesome…"
Nines smiled more before seeing Gavin straightening up on his elbows and placing his two fingers under his chin so Nines could pull himself up to him. Gavin sealed his lips to his, not caring about the slightly bitter and salty taste in his mouth, and mingled his tongue with his in a feverish and almost desperate kiss.
Gavin was suddenly afraid that Nines would decide to go and leave him here. He told himself he didn't deserve the chance that the android was there with him, sharing his bed, feeling so good. He feared karma would stab him in the back, take that away from him. And even worse, waking up on his damn couch at home after falling asleep, and that none of that actually happened.
Nines broke the kiss when he noticed the human's cortisol levels rising and settled down a little better so that he could hold Gavin's face in his hands.
"Hey …"
Gavin opened his eyes and concern was clearly visible in his eyes. Nines gave a tender smile before kissing him just on the lips, and again fixing his gaze on his.
"I'm not going anywhere… Not without you…" Nines said, gently stroking the human's cheeks. "Don't see everything in black…"
Gavin inhaled deeply as if anguish was pressing against his chest, then huffed softly to calm himself down a bit. He finally nodded and let himself go into the hands and the soft caresses of his android as he closed his eyes for a few seconds.
He had to learn to let go. He was no longer alone to deal with his BPD, he could count on Nines. He knew now, for those few words had been enough to calm his mind.
"If you want..." Nines began quietly, "We don't have to go further…"
"No way to stop now," Gavin said, opening his eyes again and stepping back to sink his eyes into the android's, picking up on the beast. "Lie on your back on the bed, I'm coming back."
As soon as said, Gavin got up from the bed almost in a bounce, and left the room, naked, to return to the living room and picking his soaked jacket up. He almost winced in disgust as he plunged his hand into a wet and cold pocket to get out his first aid kit: a condom and a bit of lube.
