Wherever You Will Go
Chapter 2 – Welcome to My Life
Warnings: Angst, and a few vulgarities…
Disclaimer: I do not own the song "Welcome to My Life" by Simple Plan. I also do not own "Gundam Seed", regardless of how much I want to…
Cagalli sat on the bench, shocked, plain and simple. Her mind was trying to register what had just happened. Athrun had just kissed her. Smack on the lips. Her fingers traced the area where his lips touched hers, the contact still tingling in her senses. His smell and scent still lingered in the air around her, as if he was still there.
"Athrun…" she whispered to no one in general. Her grip on the bouquet of roses he gave her earlier tightened. What did this all mean? A tear dropped on the petal of a rose.
Did he genuinely like her in that way? Another droplet followed the first.
Why did she have to move? Tears began to flow consecutively down her cheeks.
Why was this happening to her? Cagali was trembling again, and leaned down from her seat, like a hunchback shivering in the cold
Why did Dad have to be such a bitch? Her cries became louder, as the drops of tears flowed down in a more rapid motion.
Why was life just so fucked up?
The moon, the lone witness to the sad event, still shone brightly in the sky, as though mocking her existence and her troubles.
Cagalli decided that she should start leaving the park now. Things needed to be packed, good-byes needed to be said. She stifled another cry with the memory of what just happened.
She had to fill up the scholarship terms, ans well as re-read the details of everything.
Get a grip on yourself, Cagalli. She thought. You never acted this way before. Toughen up!
But then again, she never had problems like these concerning Athrun.
Athrun…
She always looked up to him for advice. Her mother was usually out of town engaging in some business or another. She never really needed to look for female friends to discuss her problems, since Athrun was always around. Now that an "Athrun" problem turned up, she didn't know who to talk to about it. One of her friends, Miriallia, was out with her longtime boyfriend Dearka. Cagalli didn't want to spoil their night out together. Her other comrades were probably out also. It was a Friday night, after all.
"At least some people are out there having fun." She muttered.
She slowly made her way back to her home, still holding on to the roses, deciding that she would put them in her room for a while. Hey, she still had a few weeks staying in that room, anyway…A few weeks spent in re-reading scholarship terms, and filling up application forms.
What a great way to spend the week, she thought with a sigh.
The wind started to pick up speed, as the once clear night sky turned cloudy, and a few rumbles of thunder was an easy indicator that rain was soon about to fall.
His mother had a concerned look on her face when she saw Athrun, but said nothing. There was nothing to say, anyway. One look at her son told her that he had girl troubles, and she knew better than to go and ask him about it. The boy needed time alone. Instead, she left a note outside his room, mentioning that his dinner would be in the oven, if he would be hungry. Inside, she knew he wouldn't be. She hoped her son would settle his problem soon.
Rain started to fall, and Athrun could see droplets of precipitation pelting against his window. Droplets that reminded him of Cagalli's tears. His heart ached at how he just left her in the park, but he couldn't bear to just stay there acting as if everything was going fine, when in fact, in his own soul, it wasn't.
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Athrun collapsed on his bed the moment he got back to his home, his eyes starting to brim with tears, because of the results of his meeting with Cagalli. That certainly didn't go as expected. His head hurt, and he could certainly use a Panadol at the moment.
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
He just didn't know what to do. In his knowledge, he didn't do anything wrong. He was just the best friend. The supporter. The one who's always in the background, but never in the spotlight. The amount of rain pouring outside could not equal to the tears he was shedding in his heart.
Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
He considered going after her, but immediately tossed that thought from his mind. He couldn't. He had so much waiting for him back home. His father had passed away a few years back, and he could not just leave his mother alone. He knew she was still traumatized after her husband had been killed in the fatal car accident. Plus, he could not afford to move to Aprillius City, without a scholarship, which was too late to get.
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
He buried his face into his pillow, screaming into it, hoping that today just didn't happen. That Cagalli wouldn't move away. That she would love him back, as he does to her. He didn't know why she hadn't informed him earlier about this scholarship thing.
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
Confusion was the only thing going through his head. Everything was just turned upside down. He had a sick feeling in his gut, even with the thought of her leaving. It was just not right.
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
Athrun didn't know why this had to happen to him, of all people. He was polite, kind, hardworking, patient, and in other words, the perfect son and friend. He tried to please and help everyone.But now, there was no one around to talk to about this.
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
It was funny, in a sad and ironic sort of way, how everything turned out. Athrun thought that after the meeting, he'd finally have his happy ending. That he'd finally have the girl of his dreams in his arms. But no…Someone up there just hated him, and out of spite, cursed him with this. Great. Just Great.
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
He had never felt this down in the dumps in his whole life. He wondered, for a while, if there was any more purpose to live, without seeing Cagalli every day, without seeing her smile, without her hugs, without her…
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
He sat up, and opened his bedside drawer. Inside was a mixture of both candid shots of Cagalli, as well as pictures he took with her. Memories began to rush back to his mind, reminding him of how much he loved her. Thunder loomed in the background.
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Cagalli looked over her scholarship terms. An allowance of $2200 per year, free room and board in a decent hostel, free meals, and a free 24/7 covered insurance. The air ticket she would need for the trip would also be free. Was this what she wanted? She forgot to mention that her mother would not be going with her on the trip, she would be staying in Aprillius on her own. Glancing at the roses lying on her bed, she decided that it was too late to tell him that now. He would eventually find out later, anyway.
TBC?
Thanks to all who reviewed!
MiyuCagalli – Don't worry, Cagalli won't be left on her own, for long… :)
Cari-Akira – Haha, I meant the story to start out angsty…Cause I'm feeling a bit angsty myself :P I wanted to portray Athrun as the gentleman type of character, and I guess I succeeded, didn't I? Thanks for the lengthy review!
Cagallifan – We'll see who has feelings for what, as the story progresses… :)
Sunflower Seeds – Hmm…She isn't leaving yet, not in this chapter anyway…
A/N
Hahaha…I'm glad some people reviewed…It makes me have the inspiration to write more! That, plus the added factor that exams just finished, for me… )
Actually writing the fic was in-the-spur-of-the-moment kind of thing. I was bored. No more exams. Yet, there is compulsory study time back where I live. So yeah, got to a computer and typed my brains out.
I'm quite aware that there are some grammatical errors that I'd make (sometimes I don't type the same thing that's in my head), so tell me if you guys spot any errors…
And yes, I noticed that I spelled "Cagalli" wrongly in the first chapter…Must change…How?
This was more of a recap chapter…yes, I know it's too early (and too short), but I need to set this in before the real thing goes into place, right? )
Review please! )
