Chapter 37:
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A/N: While I was rereading my story I realized I made some boo boo's. Okay a lot so sorry if you caught them and thought what is this girl doing. Doesn't she remember what she wrote. No not really to be honest I have a hard time remembering what I did last week so sorry if you noticed it and I confused anybody! Okay thats it! Well besides my new kitty Twinkie who says hi! He wont leave the keyboard alone so I can type! Isnt it funny how all my authors note contains something about my life in them? I think so!
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She woke up the next morning on the couch. It wasnt as comfortable as the bed at Wyndermere but she knew she could never sleep in that again at least not with out him. The one person who knew her better then herself. The only person that ever held her heart. The one person who she thought would always be there. The one person who made her life and then just destroyed it like that!
She looked around her loft. The loft where her and Nathan first bonded. The loft that she got while dating Nikolas. The loft that had so much love in it that was now cold and lonely. She got up and walked over to the coffee pot. Carly had left a note saying that Michael had a soccer game and had to take him because something came up with the business so Sonny couldn't do it but she'll be back over there as soon as she got done.
Courtney clipped the note on her refrigerator and walked to go get dress. She knew sooner or later she would have to see Nikolas but first she had somebody to call. Even though she didn't really want to call him she had no choice. If the divorce is what he wanted then... whatever. She didn't care anymore. Obviously he didn't love her enough to fight for their love is what she thought but wasnt in her heart not even the slightest bit.
Justus Ward agreed to be her attorney through everything. The divorce and any custody battles they might have. He told her to meet him at Kelly's in an hour. She agreed and did her hair. She didn't even bother putting make-up on not that she had too because she had natural beauty but she didn't want the eyeliner and mascara running down her face in case she busted in tears again.
She went into Kelly's a little earlier then what she had to be there by. She figured she would tell her dad in person instead of him finding out by her and Justus conversation that would be carried on there in about twenty minutes. "Hey princess." her dad said as she walked in. Kelly's was just about dead except the couple that sat in the corner. The breakfast rush was now over and thank god she didn't want all of Port Charles knowing her business just yet.
"Hey dad." She said trying to hold in all emotions. "Whats wrong?" He asked her. He could tell something was wrong with her. It was oblivious. "Um Im meeting Justus Ward here in about twenty minutes." She said not getting the last part out of it. It was too hard for her to say even though it played over and over in her head so easily. "Why? What happened?" He asked her. "Nikolas and I are getting a divorce." She said looking at him.
He could tell how much she was hurting inside and just wanted to hug her and kiss her while telling her everything was going to be okay like when she was five and her parents got divorced but she wasnt a little kid anymore. But the fact was that everything wasnt okay and she was a grown women with kids of her own and she had to be strong. She had to be strong for her and her children no matter how much it hurt.
He was speechless not exactly sure what to say as Justus Ward walked in the diner. She turned her head to see who it was then looked back at her dad. "Im going to go." She said breaking the awkward silence between father and daughter. "Okay. If you need anything just let me know." He said looking at her as she walked away to sit at the table with Justus.
"Hello Mrs. Cassadine." Justus said. "Call me Courtney please Justus. We are friends after all." She said as she sat down. She didn't want to remember her last name at the moment. "Okay. Fair enough. I guess I'll be more your friend then attorney through this time." he said not directly mentioning the divorce but she knew thats what he meant. They talked about the divorce and the up coming weeks and what they could expect. He told her sometimes with children involved they can take longer then regular divorces. It all depends on the system.
They finished their meeting which only lasted a little under an hour. She was about to pop into tears at any moment and knew she had to go before she caused a scene. "Thank you Justus." She said as the two stood up and she gave him a hug. "Anytime. If you need anything or have any questions just call me. Day or night." He said with a smile trying to cheer her up. She let a quick smile out and then frowned again. "It'll be okay. You'll get through this I promise." He said right before she walked away. She was about to head out the door when somebody was walking in.
The person she tried to avoid was now right directly in front of her. "Where are the kids? She asked him as she just now noticed that they weren't with him. "I never went and got them last night." He said. He sat on the pier for most of the night just thinking about life. "Okay. I'll get them from Ryan and Lulu then." She said as she began to walk past him. "Wait Courtney!" He said. She stopped dead in her tracks and hesitated before turning around.
She didn't say anything to him. Justus was now watching after all Courtney was his client. "Does it have to be like this?" he asked her. She looked at him confused. "Like what?" She replied. "We cant be friends at least?" He asked her. Boy did he have nerve to ask her that after this week. "Right now I think no." She said before walking out of Kelly's so he couldn't protest this time. He stood there.
Justus just shook his head and turned away. He could tell after witnessing this that neither one of them wanted it so why exactly was it going to happen? Thats if it was going to happen. He pulled his cell phone out of his pocket and dialed a familiar number. He went up against her a lot in the court of the law yet they were still very good friends. He watched Nikolas grab a brown bag and pay Georgie Jones before heading out.
It began to rain. "Just great." He said out loud to himself. He walked to the docks. He stopped in his foot steps when he saw a familiar blonde with her hands cradling her head and even though it was raining he could tell she was crying. He took a deep breath debating on wether or not to go over to her. His heart told him yes while his mind told him no. After debating between the two he had chosen his choice.He walked down and sat beside her. She hadn't realize anybody was there until she felt their arm pull her in.
She didn't even bother looking up to see who it was because at this moment in time she didn't care.She wanted to be held and told it was all going to be okay even though deep down she knew it wasnt. The next couple of weeks, months maybe even years were going to be hell and she didn't know if she was ready to face it or not especially alone. She thought the past couple of months had been hell with the kidnappings and what not but nothing was preparing her for this.
It rained a little harder and the hold got a little tighter. She felt these arms before but couldn't pick out who's they were because of everything she was feeling. She looked up and quickly pulled away when she saw him. She felt weak in front of him especially after she knew it was him who was comforting her. She was in a little bit of shocked as their eyes connect. She realized she wasnt going to wear her heart on her sleeve and hurt worse then she already was.
Without saying a word she quickly stood up and shook her head like it was some sort of dream as she began walking past him. He quickly stood up and grabbed her hand. She turned around at his touch. God did she missed it. As it began to rain harder he got closer to her. She didn't back up because she wanted him to be near even though she knew this wasnt what she wanted it to be. He looked at her as she looked at him back. As the rain hit harder on the pier the more intense this stare became.
He thought to himself before making any rational move. He then quickly pulled her into a kiss. He kissed her hard. She quickly rejected it but then gave in when she realized this is what she wanted. More then anything at the moment. She wanted this more then life its self.
He pulled her closer and closer as the rain hit harder and harder. He ran his hands through her hair as hers wrapped around his neck. She began to tug at his shirt when he pulled away. She looked at him. Took a deep breath and realized everything that just happened. It was all a mistake. A big one at that. She didn't know exactly what to say so she decided to just walk away and not say anything. That always worked in the past.
He grabbed her arm again. She turned around. "Nikolas dont!" She said bitterly but didn't care. She wasnt in the mood to get played. He didn't say anything but gave her a peck on the lips and then whisper in her ear "Come with me." She just looked at him. Her mind told her not too. That she was just setting herself up for another heartbreak because later things would still be the same while her heart told her that he would never do that to her because he loved her.
She always chose her heart over head. It was the way she lead life. Her heart hasn't let her down once so far and doubt it would do it now. She gave him a small peck on the lips and smiled as he smiled back at her.
They caught the next launch back over to Wyndermere not being able to keep their hands and lips off one another. He wanted her just as bad as she wanted him and knew it. They made love all after noon like never before. She wanted this so badly words couldn't explain. She thought about how her life changed from bad, to really horrible and it was starting to turn around so she thought.
She fell asleep in his arms peacefully that afternoon. Something she hasn't done lately. This was the only time she hadn't shed a tear. Not once and was actually happy. All she needed was him beside her and her life was complete. She had two wonderful kids and couldn't ask for more but he put the cherry on top. She opened her blue eyes slowly to see that he was...
A/N: Cliffhanger! No not really you can probably figure it out Im not good at this sort of thing really. Anyway hit the button on your left where it says submit review and do it! I take all. Anonymous, signed, mean ones that may make me cry I dont care! Thanks for still reading.
