OK, ok I know I suck shit! I am a crap updater and take a really, really, really long time! I think it's been about half a year! So…I AM SO TERRIBLY SORRY! I have no excuse this time just pure laziness and no idea what to write and I was really enjoying reading everyone else's fantastic fics! So with out any further a due here it is chapter 20 of Goodbye My Lover. Please enjoy!

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As they made there way down to Alex's recovery room George made a silent prier that everything would be alright. After all of this everything would be back to normal. Him and his optimism. But still he hoped. He was the only one that would. Meredith would lock herself somewhere or disappear. Cristina would work. He would hope. It was just the way it was.

They stopped and looked at each other, each taking a deep breath before opening the door to Alex's room.

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A small gasp came out of Meredith's mouth when the door was opened. She had seen car crash victims before, they all had. But seeing one of your own, your colleague, your friend, your ass of a friend well that's different, so much different. George silently took a seat next to Alex and took hold of his hand closing his eyes and sighing deeply. Meredith watched silently as Cristina walked over to the foot of the bed and slowly grabbed Alex's chart eyes darting left to write as she read it. Sighing she placed it back on the bed railing and took a seat.

"Well?" Meredith looked at her friend expectantly.

"He has severe whip lash, he had a collapsed lung, brain hemorrhage caused by his brain slamming into his skull, and he had a piece of metal lodged in his side that they were able to remove. As well as external injuries including a gash across his stomach and by the looks of it a lot of scratches and bruising. He's expected to be unconscious for at least 3-4 more hours." Cristina replied in a scratchy voice. She ran a hand through her hair and looked over to her friend who was now on the other side of Alex's bed across from George.

A dejecting silence swallowed the room as the three friends starred at the lifeless looking man in front of them. If it wasn't for the steady beep of the heart monitor you wouldn't know he was alive. Meredith smiled as Cristina came closer to her placing a hand on her shoulder. That was her being supportive and as little as it was it meant a lot.

George's thoughts were crowding him he felt like he was sinking deeper and deeper into a never ending ocean unable to get out.

"Why were they together?" he blurted out. That was the question they had all been thinking.

Cristina and Meredith stared blankly at George before shrugging and turning their attention back at Alex.

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Alex shifted uncomfortably before slowly opening his eyes and taking in his surroundings. Slowly the memories of what had happened came flooding back.

"Izzie" He whispers in a hoarse voice as he immediately tries to get out of the bed but quickly stops wincing at the pain in his side and stomach. He notices Meredith beginning to wake up and again tries to get out of there.

"Alex!" She says jumping to her feet to push him back onto the bed "You're awake."

"I need…to…see Izzie." He exclaims gasping for air.

"Alex you need to relax. You can't see Izzie now she's still in surgery."

Alex face crumples I pain and confusion as he gently eases himself back down onto his pillow. It's then he notices George on his other side holding his hand asleep. He quickly pulls his hand away causing George to wake up suddenly with a cry which in turn makes Cristina jump to her feet.

"When is Izzie…out…surgery?" Alex says weakly.

"Were not sure" Meredith says in a soothing voice.

They all stare at each other in turn willing someone to talk to get rid of the deafening silence. Alex looks unsurely at them all. They all look like they needed to get something of their chests.

"What?" He snaps causing them to jump. They all look at each other unsurely.

"Why were you and Izzie together Alex? I mean she practically hates you!" Cristina exclaims.

"Cristina!" Meredith hisses at her friend.

Alex leant back and a small broken chuckle came through his lips. "She does not…hate me. She loves me." He finishes with a sad smile on his face his eyes somewhat droopy.

"What?" George pipes in now.

"She said so…" Alex leaves the other words unspoken as he notices a figure standing at the door.

"Nice to see you're awake. You gave us quite a scare." Bailey's voice drifted through the room. She was using her hand to support her against the door frame as she talked to them. "I hate to end this guys but Izzie is down in ICU now if you want to see her."

Alex immediately went to jump up and go out the door.

"Whoa not you mister you have to stay in bed." Bailey's voice was strict and hard.

"I need to see Izzie." He looked at her desperately silently begging her.

"You guys go and see Izzie I'll make sure he stays here." Bailey offered shaking her head at Alex. Meredith nodded and led the other two out of the room to take the elevator one floor up to the ICU.

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As they were about to walk into Izzie's room they were greeted by Derek who was to about to go check on Izzie. He nodded as Cristina and George passes him into her room. Meredith stopped in the door way as Derek walked up to her grabbing her hand and looking into her dark grey eyes silently asking her if she was ok. Meredith took a sharp breath in and nodded.

"Good." He pulled her to him so her head was resting on his chest holding her tightly afraid as if he let her go she too would be hurt. Meredith leant back and looked into his piercing blue eyes.

"So…?"

"She has severe damage her-"

"Please don't go into details Derek. Just…what's her outlook?" Meredith was fighting to hold back her tears.

"If…if she doesn't…" Derek choked on his words and pulled Meredith back towards him. "If she doesn't wake in the next 72 hours…I have to…to declare her." He finished, he too now fighting back his own tears. Meredith cried out and buried her head further into his chest wrapping her arms tighter around him. He slowly stroked her hair with one hand while rubbing her back with the other. Meredith pulled back and smiled sadly at him taking his hand and walking into Izzie's room where Cristina and George were situated each holding onto one of Izzie's hands. They both looked up as they walked into the room waiting for the news.

"72 hours." Meredith told them each knowing what she meant.

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Well there you have it guys! Hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it again!

I don't really want to kill Izzie off but is she decides she has to go she has to go I don't know we'll see what happens!

By the way i hate writing the GA thing but the stupid break lines are refusing to work so...

Thank you all so much for your reviews on the last chapter they mean so much and are the reason I write this so thank you! I'm looking forward to more!

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