Chapter 38:
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She looked over and he was gone. Was she dreaming about what happened or did it really happen. She looked around and realize she was in the bed her and Nikolas shared. Her clothes were laid gently at the bottom of the bed which meant that he had to have laid them there. She shook her head thinking that he just went and got the kids or something until she looked over at her clothes again and saw a note. She quickly grabbed it and unfold it so she could read it.
"Courtney. Im sorry but what happened between us today shouldn't have happened. I was leading you on and knew it. Just so you know this doesn't change anything between us but always remember that I'll always love you and you'll always be in my heart. Love Nikolas."
She read the note over and over. How could he put they were still getting a divorce and I love you in the same note let alone the same sentence? She didn't understand and was tired of hurting. What was she going to have to do to make it go away? She quickly got dressed and headed out. She thought maybe she just couldn't stay in the bed they shared but she couldn't stay in the house they made a home in either anymore.
She went back to her loft and Carly was there. Courtney came through the doors holding back all tears but as soon as she shut the door they all came pouring down. Courtney didn't see Carly sitting on her couch as she slid down the back of the door. "Court? Whats wrong honey?" Carly said walking over to her and bending down. She didn't say anything but let more warm tears flow from her eyes.
"Honey you are going to have to stop crying and tell me whats wrong, So I can try to fix it and you dont get yourself sick." Carly said looking at her. "Carly you cant fix it!" Courtney screamed as Carly now realized that maybe Courtney was right. Maybe she cant do anything to help her best friend. Carly wasnt upset one bit that Courtney snapped at her.
Courtney took her right hand and rubbed it across her face and smeared the tears. "Im sorry Carly its just I dont know what I'm going to do anymore." Courtney said as she still let tears go. Carly was speechless so she just wrapped her arms around Courtney and hugged her tightly as Courtney hugged her back. She wasnt going to tell Courtney it was okay because it really wasnt.
Nikolas paced the docks and looked over at Wynderemere. He wasnt sure if she was still there or not. It all relied on when she woke up and well he wasnt sure about that either. He pulled out his cell phone to call his sister and see if she had pick the kids up. "Hey Lu. Has Courtney been there yet?' He asked. "Okay. Im on my way over to get them." He said before hanging up and leaving the docks.
Carly continued her grip on her best friend until Courtney pulled away. "I dont feel good." Courtney said holding her side. "Whats wrong?" Carly asked. "I have like a really sharp pain on my right side." She said as she was no longer crying. The pain in her side took her mind off the divorce. Carly shrugged her shoulders. She didn't know what it was because she wasnt a doctor. Hell she barely passed high school.
"Wheres Courtney at?" Lulu asked as she opened the door. "Um." Nikolas wasnt exactly sure how to answer that one. "She's at her loft." He finished. "Why?" Lulu asked curiously as to why Courtney would be there. "I guess I better go ahead and tell you. Courtney and I have decided to get a divorce." Nikolas said looking at her. "Are you serious?" Lulu asked as he nodded his head yes. "Nikolas you aren't playing some kind of mean joke on me are you?" She asked him again.
"Lulu I swear Im not lying. We really are getting a divorce." He said looking back at her. "Why?" She asked him. "I rather not get into it right now. I just want to take Natalie and Nathan to Courtney." He replied. "How is she handling it?" Lulu asked. Nikolas was speechless because he knew ten to one she was an emotional wreck and he put her there. "Im not sure." he answered."Why are you still wearing your wedding ring if you are getting a divorce?" She asked him thinking it was still all a joke.
"Lu please dont! We are getting a divorce and thats the end of it." He said and thats when she realized that he wasnt lying but something terrible must have happened. He took the kids back over to Wyndermere because he called her cell phone and no answer. He knew she wasnt there either for the simple fact that Alfred said she had left already. He walked into the living room and put Natalie in the swing before sitting on the couch with Nathan. It was silent both kids could sense something was very wrong.
"Why are we so quiet, you two?" He said looking over at his son. He didn't answer but shrugged his shoulders. "Daddy?" Nathan said looking up at him. "Yes?" Nikolas asked relieved that he didn't have to suffer through a silence. "Where's mommy at?" He looked at Nathan knowing he should have stuck with the silence because that question was a lot worse then the silence.
"Im going to try and call mommy now." Nikolas said pulling out his cell phone. It rang five times and he was sure he got her voice mail but got her instead. "Hello?" She said as she stood up and leaned over to the right. "Kids are looking for you." Nikolas said as Nathan looked at his father. He wasnt dumb he could sense something wasnt right here. "Um okay. Can you bring them here?" She asked. "Yeah." He answered. "Okay. See you in a little while bye." She said hanging up the phone.
"Good job Court." Carly said looking at her. "Yeah well it was a lot harder then it sounded. Do you have any ibuprofen?" Courtney asked her. "Yup. Here." Carly said pulling some out of her purse. "Im proud of you. Dont let him know how bad you are hurting." She finished. "You're right. If the divorce is what he wants then he's going to get it and Im not going to fight it." Courtney said with a boost of confidence. "You got it girl." Carly said cheering her on. "But Carly I cant. I love him too much." Courtney said as she began to cry again.
"Wait a minute what happened to all this Im going to be brave and independent shit you were just saying? You're back at being dopey again. I'll be your rock for you Court." Carly said. "Thats when I had the pain in my side Carly and what the hell am I going to do with a rock?." Courtney answered back as Carly just nodded her head in agreement and shrugged her shoulders. "Do you think that there is anything left of my marriage to fight for?" Courtney asked her. "Because if there is even an ounce left then Im fighting with my all." Courtney finished. "I dont know hon. You have to ask Nikolas." Carly said.
"And how in the hell am I suppose to ask that?" She asked Carly as they went and sat down on her couch. "I dont know. What I always did to make Sonny jealous was date somebody." Carly said. "Yeah I know you only slept with half the town and the other half is related to you or is a girl." Courtney said. "Whats that suppose to mean?" Carly asked her. "Oh nothing." Courtney said as she went and got herself something to drink.
A second later there was a knock at the door. "If thats who I think it is Im leaving." Carly said. "No you have to stay. I thought you said you were going to be my rock?" Courtney said quietly so Nikolas couldn't hear. "Sorry toots." Carly said as she got up to answer the door. "You said you didn't want a rock." She said answering the door.
"Hey Nathan. How's my favorite nephew and niece doing?" Carly asked the little boy. "Why are we here Aunt Carly?" Nathan asked her. "Yeah I love you too kid. Gotta go." She said. She wasnt going to answer his question that was all Courtney and Nikolas right there. Nikolas made his way into her loft with the two kids. One walking and the other one in the carrier. "Here they are. They've been asking for you." He said following the kids inside.
"Since when does Natalie talk?" She asked him. He thought for a minute. "She doesn't. But you know what I meant." He replied. She just smiled. "I know Im giving you a hard time." She replied. He was worried now. The way she acted earlier before they had sex was totally different then the way she was acting now. "Is something wrong? Are you on something?" Nikolas asked her. "Why are you implying that I now do drugs?" She asked him.
He didn't answer. "Hey mommy!" Nathan said walking up to Courtney. "Yes baby?" She asked him. "Why are we here? I wanna go home." Nathan said looking up at her mother. Now is when she needed her rock. Courtney rubbed her forehead and then bent down to his eye level. "You, me and sissy are going to be staying here for a while." She answered him. "What about daddy?" Nathan asked. "He's going to be at home but you'll see him everyday." Courtney said.
Nikolas now knew that she was covering up her true feelings and emotions when he walked in the door and now they were all about to show. "But how come he gets to go home but we cant?" Nathan asked almost in tears. She pushed her hair out of her face as her hand ran through her hair. She stood up and looked down at the little boy. "I-" she began to say. "I cant do this." She finished as she grabbed her purse and walked out the door.
Nikolas watched her leave yet he didn't do anything to stop her either. Natalie began to cry as Nathan let a tear go. "Why did mommy leave? Does she not love us anymore?" Nathan asked as more tears came down. Nikolas didn't realize how hard this divorce was going to be on Courtney and the kids and yet he had no plan on stopping it either. Staying together for the kids would have just been worse.
"Mommy does love you's. She loves you and sissy very much." Nikolas said picking the little boy up. "Then why do we have to stay here? Why did she leave?" Nathan asked Nikolas as more tears came down. She sat down on the bench and she realized she couldn't do it. She wanted her kids but there was no way she could handle them right now.
"Are you okay?" She heard a voice say coming up from behind her. Her eyes were bloodshot and tears were still coming. "No." She answered. "What happened? I expected you to call every two hours after you got home and yet I didn't hear from you once. We are back in town now. We found her and she wont ever bother you and your family again. You's can live without fear." He replied.
"Im not so sure about that Jason. As of right now our family is broken." She replied. He looked at her confused. "You and Nikolas had a fight?" He asked her. "More then a fight. We are getting a divorce." Courtney said looking at him. Jason took his right hand to wipe the tear from her cheek. "Why?" Jason asked her. It was just a few days ago that her and Nikolas were happy.
"Im cheating on him." She said shaking her head because it wasnt true. "With who?" He asked her shockingly. "With you." She answered. "With me? We aren't doing anything. We are just friends." Jason said. "I know I tried explaining that but Nikolas and Sam think that we are having hot and steamy sex." She said looking at him as the tears stopped coming. Jason just laughed.
"I added the hot and steamy part." She said with a smile. "Really?" Jason asked her. "Yeah I mean if Im going to be accused of cheating I atleast want the sex to be good you know? Better then what I am getting and well Mr. Morgan you have a competition on your hands." She said looking at Jason. "I bet he beats me. So why do they think we are having hot and steamy sex?" Jason asked her. "Because we hugged and met in secret more then once." She answered him.
"Thats funny. If I couldn't get in your pants the two and a half months we dated, years ago, what makes them think I have a shot now?" He asked her. She just smiled. "Wait are you saying you were only with me because you wanted to get in my pants?" She asked him. "Yeah basically and I didn't succeed either." Jason said. She smiled even more because she knew he was lying. "I got a smile out of you." He finished.
"Yeah. Yeah you did." She said looking at him. "It'll be okay. Nikolas will realize what a great woman you are and he'll come back to you soon I promise." Jason said. "Please dont threaten to kill him." Courtney said. "I wont. He'll realize that he loves you and what he is doing is a big mistake soon." Jason said looking at her. "Thanks Jason. Im glad I have somebody else to talk to besides my rock." She said looking at him as she still couldnt believe thats what Carly called herself.
"Your rock?" He asked her. "Yeah thats what Carly calls herself." She said. "Okay rule number one unless you wanna become Port Charles next whore dont listen to Carly." Jason said. "Oh thats right. You did sleep with her didn't you?" Courtney asked him. "It was one night and we were drunk." He replied. "No excuse though." She said back. "Shut up. Seriously just remember what I said." He replied as he stood up. "I will. Thanks Jase." She said as she gave him a hug.
"Tsk. Tsk." Said a familiar voice that came down the steps as they broke apart.
A/N: Its so not who you think it is! Trust me! But there is a reason things are getting played out like they are so yeah but its not for a Journey reunion I love NiCo too much for that! Read and review and let me know please! Im not a mind reader like I said in my other story so you have to tell me okay?
