Title: Spiral
Author: MissMouseMD
Rating: T
Disclaimer: Don't own nothing.
Summary: Meredith has trouble dealing with the consequences of prom night. Angst alert!
A/N: I'm writing another story with a plot line! So this is going to be pretty angsty, but never fear, because I am a Mer/Der shipper at heart. So anyway, enjoy.
Spiral
That night, a part of her died.
She swore to herself that she would never break up a marriage. She had realized years ago what had happened to her own parents. Maybe she didn't admit it. Maybe she tried to deny it. But she had always known that there had been someone else.
She was that someone else.
As she clutched to him and their bodies melded together, she realized there was no going back.
No erasing what she'd done.
And that terrified her.
"Meredith?"
"Meredith."
He'd looked at her so…expectantly. As though her sleeping with him somehow made her his property.
For a moment, she'd considered it.
Considered walking out with McDreamy. Happily ever after.
The End.
But it wasn't as simple as that, and she knew it.
He was married, for one thing. And he'd hurt her, and he'd called her a whore, and he'd left her to try and fix his own failing marriage while still smelling her hair in elevators and going on walks with their dog.
And still, she'd pined after him.
Longed for him from afar.
But now, she could have him.
And now, she realized that, really, she couldn't.
She could have Derek Shepherd, but she couldn't have McDreamy.
She couldn't have what she'd wanted.
And so, she made her decision.
She looked straight at him.
"Your wife is waiting for you."
And she smiled at Finn, walked over to him, and took his hand.
"I'm ready. Let's go."
He smiled at her, and they walked out, arms linked.
She'd made the right decision.
Hadn't she?
Still, it nagged her.
Wouldn't let her go.
She slept with another woman's husband.
She'd become the person she'd never wanted to be.
And even as she smiled at Finn, as she put her arms around him, she couldn't forget.
She'd never forget.
She slept with another woman's husband.
And it was killing her inside.
