AN: Please be advised, there's rape. You can search the word "pokegear" and read after that if you'd be more comfortable skipping it. I tried not to go into much/any detail.
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Chapter 13: Pain. No, Agony.
My eyes snapped open in horror at being gently shaken away. I cringed at the twinge of my orgasm, coiled tight in my gut, but not quite there. Honestly, I was breathless, still half out of it.
"You okay, Silver?" Archen asked, his hands on my shoulders.
I really didn't think I was okay. I hadn't had a wet dream since I'd been a teenager. I was so hot and bothered I couldn't even find any words to answer with. I was just trying to catch my breath.
"Want some help?" he whispered softly, and I gasped at his hand reaching towards me, touching my chest and sliding down.
"What the hell?" I snapped, still breathless, flickering his hands away. I was pissed. How dare this kid try and touch me, especially when I was like this. My heart was still racing. I felt so weak, and struggled to get up, but I managed, escaping the tent and drawing in the cold night air into my lungs. I still felt so hot, and still very, very needy. I kept trying to calm my heart rate and breathless panting, but I just couldn't make my body relax. The fresh air was helping, though. However, that sensation still wasn't fading from my body. I'd never felt anything like this.
Gold and I had been interrupted in the act a few times. We'd had to yank our hands off each other and quickly act like we hadn't just been ravishing each other… Yeah, sure, I'd be a bit wound up and uncomfortable for a bit, but it would fade.
I barely held back a moan as I slowly tried to take in everything I was feeling. It wasn't breathless and anxious like a nightmare, it was like I was tangled together with Gold, trying not to climax and end things.
"At least drink some water," Archen stated, coming out of the tent and handing me my canteen. "You okay? You really don't look okay."
I weakly took the canteen he passed me, taking a long drink. The water pleasantly cold in my feverish body. "I- I just need a minute," I uttered vaguely, motioning my apprentice away. Honestly, maybe if I just got off my body would chill out. It wasn't exactly proper to be like this in front of one's student, and he clearly knew what I was dealing with.
Of course, Archen didn't take the hint. This was some bullshit Gold would play. I rolled my eyes to myself and decided I'd at least step into the forest for a bit of privacy. I still felt so weak… and out of it. Was I still dreaming…? Usually, I didn't have this much trouble waking up, delirious and feverish or not.
"Silver, come on, just let me help you out. It's okay, it'll feel good," Archen husked softly, his arms wrapping around my waist. He grabbed me through my clothes and my breath caught, my eyes wide in surprise. He squeezed the stiff bulge my clothes could barely contain, and pleasure and horror sparked through me.
"Stop," I hissed softly, surprised how weak I felt. I pushed him away, but he didn't budge, just continued feeling me up. I couldn't overpower him…?
Wait… I…
"You drugged me," I uttered in horror, my brain managing to produce a tiny bit of power. "You fucking drugged me!" I practically screamed, the sheer adrenalin returning some of my strength. Drugged or not I'd fucking destroy this kid. "Weavi—"
I was completely caught off guard when my legs gave out. I clenched my firsts, trying to push myself up, but my body wouldn't listen. Archen waved an empty syringe back and forth in his hands, looking annoyed. When had he even used that?! "Why couldn't you just cooperate?! Do you think I wanted to hurt you?!" He sounded almost panicked truthfully.
He tossed the syringe on the ground and kneeled next to me. "They said it wouldn't kill you, but that it'd put an ursaring down. But, they also said the drug I put into your water should have been enough, too. I guess that's why they gave me the syringe. I don't understand how you can like that Gold guy so much, it's like you don't see anything else. I assure you that my hands would feel just as good. Honestly, if you would have just given me a chance, I wouldn't have even done what those gangsters wanted."
This was the most I'd ever heard him talk. The drug was only affecting me physically, more like a paralytic than something that knocked me out. I was less foggy even, my adrenaline likely flooding my veins. Talking was difficult, but not impossible. I could also manage to draw breath, but again it was much more of a struggle.
I wish it would have knocked me out, though. Archen reached down and grabbed my shirt, undressing me like a doll. I'd… I'd been beaten black and blue, starved, beaten unconscious, mentally abused, burned, just about anything… but no one had ever touched me sexually against my will.
I didn't realize how fucked up it was.
Honestly, he didn't even hurt me. He was slow, and gentle. He was also clumsy and clearly unexperienced.
It was just… The feeling as my body betrayed me, that vulnerability… It felt like a part of my soul was being crushed. I couldn't help the tears. It was so much worse than I'd ever imagined. I would have rather had pain.
"Please," I begged softly, so paralyzed I could barely cough as the sobs racked my body.
"If makes you feel any better, I used an aphrodisiac," he panted softly, biting my neck.
That actually did make me feel better… at least my reactions were due to drugs then. I took a deep calming breath, surrounded by inky blackness, managing to just retreat into my mind. I'd always been mentally strong, and honestly, I probably would have killed myself by this point if I hadn't been. I'd been doing so well the past few years, too. Most days were happy, and I'd found the sunlight I'd always wanted. I guess this was just karma, for all the evil I'd done as means to an end. I knew I'd never fully escape it… but… I'd been hopeful.
What could I do to get out of this situation…? I needed to get away.
I felt Archen finally pull away from me after what felt like days. I felt sick to my stomach at his soft panting, and the feeling of him all over my body where he'd touched. I could take a dozen showers and still not feel clean. He smirked lovingly at me, and I could only squeeze my eyes closed.
"Sorry about this," he whispered. "I really didn't want things to go like this."
Fucking lying piece of shit, trying to make himself feel better. What now…? What more could he do to me? He carefully dressed me again, and I had to choke back a sob at the feeling of his semen escaping me. Honestly, I could feel a bit of my strength returning, and I was going to choke him. I was just going to wrap my hands around his neck, and I wasn't going to let go until he was blue.
He handcuffed my hands behind my back, and I smirked. I'd throw my arm out of its socket before I let a pair of cuffs stop me. Then he carefully started lacing my arms and legs with rope, and I felt a bit more of my hope die. I couldn't get out of this. The rope bit into my wrists, and I was thankful for the pain. I focused on it even.
Archen pulled out his pokegear and pressed it to his ear. I was shocked he got reception out here. It looked like a different type of pokegear, maybe ranged based. "I got him. I'm sending the coordinates now."
He clicked off the pokegear, and stood there with his arms folded, his back to me. "Who did you call?" I asked softly, talking getting easier as my body metabolized the poison in it. I needed to gather information. I needed to escape.
"I don't really know. They're the ones that asked me to trick you. They gave me those drugs and said I could do whatever I wanted with you. I assume it's someone from that dark past you mentioned."
"Probably," I agreed softly, and we lapsed into silence. There were all sorts of crazy people it could be. "Where are my pokemon?" I asked, hoping they were at least safe.
"I sprayed them with some spray that's supposed to seal their balls shut. They're back at the camp."
I glanced back as I heard footsteps, and I wasn't exactly surprised to see three men wearing uniforms with an R on them. I'd tangled with enough of them, either trying to kill me or earn my favor… "Here. Now get lost," one grunted, handing Archen a bag.
At least there'd been money in my betrayal.
I wheezed when a boot collided with my ribs without any warning. I felt something crack, and I couldn't breathe back in. The pain made my vision blur. "No offense kid, but you've got to die," one of the men grunted.
No dramatic speeches. No announcement of their evil plan. Just a knife, straight in my chest. He knew what he was doing, under the ribs and up, straight to the heart. I wonder why they hadn't poisoned me instead.
My eyes were wide, still unable to suck in a breath. It was cold, but oddly it didn't hurt. I felt blood, it was warm in contrast to the cold. He yanked it out, the pressure feeling odd. I was in shock. I couldn't make a thought spark. I was going to actually die. This was a mortal wound, there wasn't any questioned it. He peered down at me, likely going to confirm when my heart stopped either from lack of blood or maybe from the vital spot he'd hit. Whatever damage he'd done would do the job unquestioningly.
I'd certainly come close enough times. It was just surprised that this was… actually it. But I… I didn't want to die.
I didn't want to die, I didn't want to die, I didn't want to die, I didn't want to die, I didn't want to die!
My scream left my throat raw as I strained against my bindings with this last of the life in my body, my emotions in sheer panic. The earth was shaking, and the earth badge pinned to my shirt was burning my skin it was so hot.
I watched in wonder as it became daylight, and the most massive Steelix I'd ever seen erupted from the ground. I wasn't able to really see what happened though, it was so cold, and honestly, I was done for. My lungs felt like they were full of fluid, and things were getting foggy with the lack of oxygen. It had transcended beyond pain. I reluctantly slipped into the darkness, wondering if I'd had a good life. Maybe… maybe not… but it was mine.
I wish I could have married Gold, I wish I could have seen Twister evolve, I wish I could have seen Topaz grow up into a young man, I wish I could have visited some more regions in the world…
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I slowly opened my eyes and stared weakly at the ceiling. White… everything was white… Was this my old or new life? I couldn't move. Was I me or a babe? Was this reincarnation?
"Silver?"
Ah, so, I was still in my current life… No reincarnation yet… Everything hurt. My body just felt like pain. The voice sounded far away.
"Silver, can you hear me?"
I felt a hand on my cheek, and it took several moments for my vision to focus.
"Lance?" I whispered softly, my voice so horse I don't think I was intelligible.
"Thank Arceus," he whispered softly, and I felt him lay his head on my stomach. "What deal did you make with what devil to cheat death this time?" he asked after a few moments.
I just squeezed my eyes closed, the tears feeling hot as they silently slipped down my cheeks. That had been too much, even for me. Lance just gently held my hand, not saying anything. "Where's Gold?" I managed after a few minutes of just trying to compose myself. My body didn't feel my own, I was aware of various tubes and whatnot in my body.
"He should be here in two days. You've been out for a little over a week. They were keeping you sedated so you could heal a bit from all the surgery. The knife damaged your heart, and you were without oxygen longer than a human should be. Are you in pain?"
"Of course," I stated softly, "but it's not unbearable. I don't want anything for it."
He nodded. "I'm going to go grab the doctors. I'll be right back."
I couldn't let his hand go, though. I just weakly shook my head. "Please," I begged softly. I couldn't be left alone right now. He nodded in understanding, and I was surprised when he gently settled in the bed beside me, and gently embraced me. I felt the terror and chaos inside me quiet as he shielded me from the world.
The darkness I slipped into wasn't so terrifying this time.
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When I woke up again, Lance was still there. I was surprised it was only Lance, though.
"Hey again," he greeted me gently, practically whispering incase the gods heard I was still alive and came to finish me off.
"Hey," I greeted back softly, feeling just as broken as before.
"You have a lot to mend. It's going to take a lot of bed rest, Silver. I know how thrilling that sounds."
"What happened?" I finally asked, my mind less cloudy after a few small sips of water with Lance's help. I was beyond weak.
Lance sighed and ran a hand through his hair. He looked exhausted. "Where do I start? I guess I'll start from my end. Mount Silver went nuclear. I'm not exaggerating. All the pokemon in the area went into a blind rage. I think they dispatched every ranger in both Johto and Kanto. I got a call to rush in there and do what I could to calm some of the pokemon down. The second I touched one of them to try to communicate with it, I realized they were trying to protect the one with the earth badge. I had them lead me to your body, and I had to push through a sea of grass types and psychic types keeping you alive with whatever healing moves they had at their disposal. I had to get them to let an emergency medivac get to you, I honestly thought you might already be dead… I had no idea the gym badges could do all that. Your power is insane, Silver. You had over 50 square miles of pokemon bound to you, even I'm not capable of that."
"What happened to those guys that stabbed me? And my pokemon?" I asked softly, my eyes wide in shock at hearing what had happened after I figured I'd been done for.
"They couldn't even identify the bodies; they were bloody pulp. Your pokemon are with me, they're right here. I've already explained everything to them."
I weakly took the ball from Lance that Weavile was in, clutching my first pokemon close. I was so thankful they were okay. "Did they find Archen?"
Lance's face darkened, and he shook his head. "I don't think so, they're still searching. He was the one that did that to you, wasn't he?"
I could tell from Lance's tone that he didn't mean the knife in my chest. I was surprised they could tell what he'd done… It wasn't like he'd hurt me at all. I was certain things probably looked consensual at worse. I weakly nodded, and I saw the hurt and rage in his eyes.
"Were you awake?" he asked softly, and I nodded again.
"I'm so sorry," he whispered softly, and I was thankful for his arms and chest, shielding me from the world. "I looked for him myself, but I think he barely managed to get away before everything went nuts. I'm hoping they just haven't found his body yet. I did hunt down where those three men that paid him off came from, though. Don't worry, I killed every last one of them, and had Dragonite wipe their nest off the map if you're wondering why there's a crater on the outskirts of Celadon City now."
I just gazed at the dragon champion in wonder. Unbelievable. He was… amazing.
"Thank you," I sobbed softly, my emotions still a black tangled ball of chaos inside me. I so thankful I had such a strong master. I was still a mess. I knew it was going to take time for those wounds in my psyche to heal. "Where's Gold… or Blue… anyone…?" I asked softly, looking around.
"I told them I was with you," he stated gently.
"Do they know what happened?"
"Yes, that you were attacked, not about… the other part. I called them all and let them know you'd woken up earlier, too."
I just blinked. Honestly, I was thankful Lance hadn't mentioned me being raped. I wasn't ready to deal with all that. "Why aren't any of them here?" I asked in soft confusion.
Lance averted his eyes, looking uncomfortable. "It's difficult for them to come. I told them I was here, too."
Still… I might not have woken up… I wouldn't have let anything stop me from getting to their sides had anything similar happened to them. I stared in confused wonder at Lance, and he just looked anxious. "Gold said the pokeathlon breaks tomorrow, and that he'd head this way first thing. Silver, I promise, I won't leave your side. It's okay."
It… it wasn't okay. Where were my friends and family…? The pokeathlon?! He hadn't withdrawn and rushed to my side?! I knew Blue was dealing with Topaz, but she hadn't even visited me?!
Lance just held me in a gentle and tight embrace as I felt another piece of my soul, my humanity fracture into tiny little shards. I didn't have anything left to break. I just stared in blank horror at the wall, my mind blank. My other half chose a sports competition over me…? My family had chosen their day as usual over maybe seeing me drawing breath for the last time…?
Lance looked helpless, and he moved onto another topic quickly, about the damaged to my body. They'd hit my heart and completely smashed my ribs, damaging one of my lungs. He explained the various surgeries they'd done, and that I'd be in the hospital for at least two weeks, being monitored for pneumonia since I couldn't cough with my chest wound. Apparently, I was on quite a cocktail of drugs, from antibiotics to painkillers. I just nodded weakly, accepting my fate, amazed I was alive.
"Silver," he stated gently.
"I'm okay," I responded, lying, not able to decide what emotion I was feeling. "I just… I just thought that maybe they cared about me."
"They do," he stressed softly.
I tried to shrug but regretted the motion, feeling either the stitches or glue or whatever was holding me together strain at the motion.
"I really don't think they realized how bad it was."
I just frowned at the dragon champion. They knew. I knew he would have stressed my condition. Honestly, he looked exhausted. I wondered when the last time he'd honestly slept was. When had he last had a decent meal? A shower? I felt my heart soften a touch. At least I wasn't alone. Lance would probably wipe out a city for me. "I guarantee what happened on Mount Silver is all over the news. Maybe the public doesn't know it was me, but my friends should. It is what it is, Lance. You need to go grab a shower, something to eat, and some sleep. You look exhausted. Thank you, Lance…"
He sighed softly and nodded. "I'll grab a shower here and go grab some food from down the street, but I'm not going far right now."
I smiled faintly and nodded, thankful. "Okay. That's fine, but at least join me in a nap after… I'm exhausted."
He scoffed. "I bet. This is certainly a record for you. Good luck getting out of my sight for the next two months. By the way, we're in Pewter City. I don't think I ever mentioned that. The Indigo Plateau couldn't handle all your surgeries. Now, it's about 3 in the afternoon. You want me to grab you anything to eat while I head out?"
I shook my head, way too nauseous from the medications to bother eating.
He nodded and headed towards the door. "I'll be back in an hour. Behave."
I smiled weakly and nodded. As he left, I laid back down, easily falling asleep. I wasn't worried.
