Chapter 16: Late Night Chat

I struggled to sleep that night alone in my bed I'd shared with Gold for years.

I felt guilty and clingy calling Lance, but he picked up the phone after the first ring barely went through.

"Hey Silver," he greeted lovingly, not sounding the least bit annoyed or inconvenienced. "Can't sleep surrounded by a pack of growlith and arcanine?"

"No," I admitted softly. "Where are you tonight?"

"A hotel in Goldenrod. I'm also having trouble sleeping. How was your first day back home?"

"It was harder than I thought…"

"Do you miss Gold?"

I felt so guilty. I wanted to say no. "Yeah…"

"That's normal, Silver. It's going to take more time than this for your love for him to cool off."

"Aren't you jealous?" I asked curiously, rolling over and staring at the ceiling.

He chuckled. "I love you, Silver. I loved you the entire seven years you dated him. I understand it's going to take time. Honestly, getting to actually express my feelings for you physically has been sheer bliss. But yes, I'm still a bit jealous. I was jealous every single time he touched you, but I knew my place."

I felt warm embarrassment across my face. Lance had always been my master and a dear friend. I'd never felt lusted after. I swear he was inhuman. I was way too petty for such a deep love. I'd been jealous of the condoms in his bedside table!

"I'm going to visit Blue tomorrow."

"I'm glad. She's been having a really hard time. I hope you don't mind that I admitted we were dating to her."

I smiled faintly. "No, that's fine. I was really shocked you told Clair."

"Hm? When were you talking to Clair?"

"I was asking her about your illicit sexual past since you avoided my questioning!"

"Sorry," Lance sighed. "I was scared you wouldn't exactly be pleased with the answer. Even I get… lonely. Everything was just for some physical pleasure, but…"

"It's okay. I understand. I was just jealous… You treat me amazing, Lance. I'm happy. I know you wouldn't cheat, either. Were they usually men or women?"

Lance made an uncomfortable noise. "Is there a correct answer?"

"Tell me," I complained. I just wanted to know!

"By far mostly woman."

Huh. Maybe it was like Gold. Maybe I made guys gay. Nice. Granted he'd said mostly. That means there was a least one guy in there, but I'd known that the second he'd sucked my dick. I curled my toes at the memory. "How many?" I asked curiously.

He made another uncomfortable noise and I just grinned. This was a bit fun. "Let's just keep those skeletons in the closet."

"Come ooon," I complained. "I admit it. I'm nosey. Blame Blue. You know everything about my history." And usually Lance was the nosy one anyway.

He just gave a defeated sigh, and I could tell he was working up his nerve. "I have truly lost count, Silver. It's probably close to 100 people at this point… if not more. I have no clue, legitimately, more than 30, less than 250. Those seem like safe ranges. I'm 35, that's like nearly twenty years of experience, maybe 19. I think I was 16 my first time. It was somewhere in there. I was dating a girl in my clan, Clair's best friend. She was pissed when she found out we slept together. I think we dated for like four months. We hooked up again in our 20's too. I think we lasted a month that time. We slept together on and off after that, but she's married now and has two cute kids. Behold my teenage romances."

I flushed. Fair. I felt like such a child suddenly. The notches on my headboard read two. It was… sort of nice hearing about childish romance. Lance knew my entire history. I felt kind of closer hearing about his. "What about your first time with a guy?" I asked curiously.

"Well," Lance chucked, "I was probably around 17 if I was 16 when I lost my virginity. I was going through my moody teenage phase, you know, the rock music and band tees phase. I was also the strongest member in my clan, by far, and I walked on water. He was older than me and was that friend that helped me find weed. We were casual friends and he basically just asked me if I wanted to try it. I bottomed. It hurt like hell, but it wasn't a total turn off. We never dated, just hooked up a few times. We both sucked at sex, so it was pretty bad."

"Wow. Your life sounds so normal."

"Well, yeah. Silver, you're a bit of an exception. You were doing gang related activities for me as an errand boy when you were as young as 11. I was in school. My life was about as normal as a dragon clan teen can be split between living with my cousin in Blackthorn and my parents in Viridian. You were way too young for me to have kissed you by the way, age of consent or not. Makes me cringe when I think about it. I knew I loved you, but I'm glad you didn't return my feelings. You just looked so down that day..."

I had liked that kiss… honestly, it'd been my first experience with romance, period. I mean, yeah, I'd been going through puberty of course, but that was more between my body and me. But I hadn't wanted a relationship back then, I had too much going on. I hadn't even really given sex a thought until Gold and his persistence. It'd been difficult managing my physical desires, opening to the idea of a relationship, and just kind of being terrified of sex in general. I didn't want to just be another sex driven male, like the ones that had hurt Blue. I'd been so ashamed of my hormones and physical desires. Even with all that though, I'd still returned his kiss. I hadn't pushed him away; I'd actually kissed him back before he had requested if I'd think about it first.

Once I'd actually gotten off with Gold, things got a lot easier, but even now I'd been working on my repression. Touching myself still made me incredibly uncomfortable. Lance and Gold had both tried to work with me, encouraging me that it was okay to feel good. Lance had basically made me have to lead if I wanted something. It'd been… fun. Gold had loved giving anal, but not taking it. I'd only topped twice our entire relationship, and Gold had not been impressed either time. Lance was apparently totally into either, and honestly, it'd been fun. I'd only done it once so far, but honestly, it'd been amazing. I actually enjoyed getting to be a bit more dominant.

"I liked your kiss, and you didn't pressure me at all. I wasn't ready and you just let me move on."

"You sound turned on," he taunted happily.

That obvious huh… My dick was truthfully so hard it hurt. "Yeah. Well."

"Touch yourself," he encouraged softly.

Geez. I… I was alone in my bedroom; it wasn't like anyone was going to know. I'd been trying to relax a bit about how uptight I was about this sort of thing. It was okay Lance and Gold had told me a billion times. "Only if you do, too," I stated, arching slightly as I slid my hand into my boxers. It ached

"Already ahead of you," he admitted with a breathy little chuckle.

Damn. I was slick with precum, I swiped by thumb gently over the head and it felt so good. Lance's soft panting was such a turn on. I was so jealous I didn't get to have my hands on his cock, too. "You're teasing me. I want to touch you, too," I complained, and Lance just groaned.

"I'd love to put it in your tight little ass in particular," he teased me further.

My strokes got faster at just the memory. We'd done anal for the first time a month ago and… I'd come from him just managing to get into me. He was huge! I'd never come from penetration alone, and it'd caught me off guard. I'd always been able to get close but had to get a bit of stimulation on my cock to finish. A prostate orgasm was usually more of a slow burn throughout my body for me, but that had been strong and very sudden. He'd stared at me in dismay, and had to confirm if I'd just actually come, as if the semen all over towel we'd laid down hadn't been obvious. I managed not to do that the other times we tried, but I hadn't lasted all that much longer yet either. And then getting to top I had been laughably bad at not finishing too fast, but Lance hadn't seemed to mind much since he did get off ultimately.

Oh, I was so close. I felt that pleasant ebb and flow and being in control let me pace the pleasure so I could enjoy it longer.

"What are you thinking about?" he panted.

"How good you feel inside me. I'm not going to last," I admitted, unable to help stoking a bit quicker. "Ah, Lance, I-I'm…"

His groan followed mine as I came, pulse after pulse of cum dripping onto my stomach.

"Think you can sleep now?" he teased after we'd managed to calm our breathing and recover a bit.

"Definitely," I laughed weakly, enjoying the afterglow.

"Then goodnight, Silver. I love you."

"I love you, too."

I reached over to the bedside and grabbed a few tissues, wiping the physical evidence of my pleasure off my stomach and tossing them on the bedside table. I'd toss them in the bathroom trash in the morning. The staff did clean my room, and I made sure all wrappers, wipes, tissues, and towels were taken care of and out of sight. Any messed-up sheets I shyly stripped off the bed myself (hence trying to lay down a towel when I could so they didn't have to come in and see a stripped bed as evidence that things got out of hand prior).

I had no trouble at all passing out asleep.

xxxxxxx

I took the magnet train from Viridian all the way to Mahogany. I still couldn't manage to fly with Honchcrow due to my lingering internal wounds. My chest was still fusing itself together after I'd had to be cut open. It took about the same amount of time between switching trains and not taking a direct diagonal route.

I got several looks of recognition, but no one bothered me on the train at least. Outside the station I actually had Twister fly me to Blue's home. I couldn't believe I was already this tired! Honestly sitting on his long soft body was a lot easier than holding Honchcrow's foot, but he wasn't as fast as my crow pokemon.

Twister didn't even remember that Lance had hatched him. Lance had been so careful with the imprinting that Twister only remember me from his birth. There was still a connection though, likely from Lance caring for the egg. And of course, as a dragon tamer, he had an affinity for dragon types. The egg wasn't from any of his pokemon, just from a random mated pair in the den. The egg had looked different, and it had been suspected to hold the rare gene that caused a pokemon to appear shiny.

When Twister had first started to get out of his egg, Lance had seen the glimpse of pink and quickly put the pokemon in a ball, covering the sphere in darkness. Apparently being in a pokeball was warm and comforting much like the eggs they came from. I wish I could have seen Lance carrying around a pokemon egg for likely weeks.

I knocked anxiously on the door, and an exhausted looking Blue answered. She just stood there staring at me, and her bottomless blue eyes started filling instantly with tears.

It took over an hour to calm her down. She kept apologizing over and over, clinging to me. I held her tight, just letting her get it all out. Her slim body easily fit in my arms, her head under my chin. I suspected Green was at the gym.

"It's okay," I whispered, stroking her hair. She probably hadn't even managed to shower yet today. Blue had always been meticulous and sharp. We had both mellowed out as our lives had calmed down and became safe, but I was surprised and a bit hurt but how down and exhausted she was.

"Lance said you were doing okay but, but, I was so worried," she sobbed out. "I'm so sorry."

"Don't be sorry, Blue, it couldn't be helped."

"Yes, it could have! I got off my ass to come see you, but too late. I don't have an excuse."

She just kept apologizing, and it hurt me to see her so hurt. Blue had always protected me. She'd tried to shield me from the world as much as she could. I was grown up now, I didn't need her like I used to. If anything, I wanted to keep her safe.

"It's okay," I just kept stressing. "I just needed time to accept everything that happened. It was kind of hard at first… Lance was with me."

Yeah, having my friends and family there definitely would have helped. I'd felt so angry, and so alone. I'd felt tarnished and not worth seeing. However, I had no excuse for avoiding Blue as long as I did. At this point I'd just been running from my problems.

"I felt so broken and dirty," I admitted softly, forcing myself to face and accept the emotions. "I thought that of course no one wanted anything to do with me after that. I know that's not true, that was my own baggage to deal with. If you'd been there, I would have just pushed you away likely."

She gave me a pained smiled. "I doubt that. You didn't push Lance away. I'm so thankful you're okay… Or at least, you seem to be doing okay. Lance said you've been loving and… uh… friendly enough."

I nearly choked. Geez! I know he'd likely said that teasingly to make Blue feel better, but still!

I awkwardly cleared my throat. "It hasn't been difficult loving him at all…" I admitted. Granted, hypersexuality wasn't an unusual side effect of trauma… Blue of all people knew that, and I could tell she looked worried. It honestly was likely a side effect I was dealing with, wanting to reclaim my body. But it wasn't a bad thing if handled correctly. "Our relationship is healthy," I assured her, "Lance doesn't let me use it as an escape. I've been going to therapy, too…"

She finally smiled. "I'm so proud of you."

My pride swelled at my sister's praise, and we just held each other tight.

Topaz's crying interrupted our sibling lovefest. Blue just groaned weakly, and I felt so bad for her. I knew kids weren't a cakewalk, but I knew she was a having a harder time. I went and collected the babe into my arms and told Blue to go take a shower and get some coffee.

Kids were so terrifying. It wasn't his diaper, and he didn't want fed, so I just ended up cradling my nephew, trying to sooth him. I had a feeling Blue's stress was creating a negative feedback loop. Honestly the baby chilled out after a bit, and I kicked back and watched some TV.

Blue snorted when she walked back into the room and saw us. He was totally playing with my hair and touching me with those gross drool hands! Ugh kids. Thank Arceus Lance nor I could get knocked up.

"Thanks," she uttered sincerely. "You would really make a decent dad."

I flushed and sighed. Honestly, I'd slowly come to accept the idea of kids the past few months. I still didn't want to adopt one, but I would have taken Topaz into my home in a heartbeat if anything had happened to his loving parents. I would have definitely preferred not to have a child, though. It baffled me my father of all people had been a doting father, and I just found kids so unappealing.

"Does Lance want kids?"

I flushed further. "I have no idea." We hadn't dated long enough to bring that sort of stuff up yet! I hoped not. I'd always felt guilty that Gold had wanted kids while I hadn't.

But hell, he might have had a few kids running around even… I should ask him about that.

"So, who confessed first?"

I likely matched my hair at this point. "That's a complicated answer." She was not one to be deterred by a long story. I sighed. "I confessed after I got out of the hospital, and he was like, you're eight years late but good enough."

Blue had risen up like a cobra. "What?!"

"Oh," I realized, "I never told you he kissed me when I was 16, did I?"

"No."

I coughed lightly and shifted the baby in my arms. He'd passed back out. "Well. Anyway. I made out with him a bit and then I said no thanks and that was that. Then after I got out the hospital, I was like, hey, I love you. Mind you, I'm sure I was more pathetic about it, but you get the gist."

Blue's eyes were bulging slightly. She sighed. I left out the hot grinding sex afterwards at least. She just stared at me and sighed again. "And then let me guess: sex?"

"Absolutely," I confirmed boldly. I left out the details of the hot grinding sex afterwards at least.

"Is Lance living with you?"

I frowned and shook my head. "I offered and he actually seemed flighty. It's weird being the pursuer for once." Gold had always been the one trying to convince me.

Blue nodded. "I can imagine. Try not to rush things, okay?"

I flushed. Usually, she was the one trying to egg me on. "Am I rushing?" I uttered in genuine surprise.

"I don't know," she admitted. "I just get the vibe that after being scared and hurt, you wanted comfort and reassurance, and that was Lance. Love is a big word, you're not the type to say it so fast."

I frowned. "But Lance and I aren't strangers, and I'm older and more experienced with things now… I mean, I know things are still new and really heated, but I do love him…"

"You'd know best, Silver. Just promise you won't rush, okay?"

I nodded in agreement, still not sure what I was agreeing to. I gently put Topaz in his crib to sleep. All the talking had likely put him to sleep, I'd learned he'd seemed to love the vibrations of a man's deeper voice. Seeing Green cradling him and humming had been beyond adorable.

I'd been expecting Blue to ask when the wedding was, not question my relationship. Maybe she'd gotten less fun in her old age.

If nothing else, I wanted to give Lance everything I could. I wanted to give us an honest try. I hoped Blue was wrong. I hoped it was love.

I put together some lunch for both Blue and me and then headed back to Viridian. My heart picked up speed when I found Lance waiting for me inside my home.

"I missed you," he stated simply, folding me into his arms.

"I missed you, too. Have you had lunch?"

He nodded and I threw a shy look towards Chloe, the staff who'd let me in and greeted me. She smirked knowingly, and politely left. I took the chance to reach up and pull Lance towards me so I could kiss him. And kiss me he did.

"You're insatiable," he whispered in my ear as I got hard. I couldn't help it one bit!

"We don't have to," I uttered shyly. "It's just being up against you is a bit much…" He really was something, all muscle and those sharp gorgeous sunset eyes...

"But do you want to?"

"Yes," I admitted.

"Then lead the way," he laughed lightly.

I eagerly grabbed Lance's hand and lead him up to my bedroom, practically dragging him to my bed. The amazing kissing continued, and I moaned as he ground our clothed erections together. I preferred only having anal at night, because I always felt a bit stretched out, but I really wanted it right now with Lance. I just kept softly moaning his name in encouragement as he touched me and worked my clothes off. His weight felt so nice pushing me into the mattress.

I sunk my teeth into his shoulder, running my tongue over the skin and sucking lightly. "You're going to leave a mark," he warned gently, removing me from said shoulder. He stared down are me and finally bowed his head, "Fuck. Those eyes, Silver…"

I smirked, tangling my fingers through his hair and pulling him into another kiss. It was kind of empowering the way he reacted to me. It was quite the confidence booster. His arms wrapped around me, pulling me tight against him and up off the bed.

We shifted the position, so he was sitting, and I just stayed wrapped around him, so that I was straddling his lap. I couldn't help running my hands over his chest and back, feeling his muscles rippling under his skin. He hummed happily at my touch, grabbing one of my hands and placing a kiss on my palm.

I melted.

I was a sucker for romantic shit… I tried not to advertise it, but it was kryptonite. Lance raised an eyebrow in surprise, my face probably said it all. Then he gave me a knowing little smirk and coxed me back onto my back. I was surprised when he grabbed my leg, littering my calf with kisses. My face felt so hot I could only turn away in embarrassment.

Oh, but it got worse as he continued down my thigh and placed one on my still restrained erection. I couldn't help my hiss of pleasure. At least he had the decency to finally tug my boxers off, my cock was so swollen it hurt at this point. I gently pushed his hands away when started to stoke me. "Lance, can you put it inside me?" I whispered shyly. I always prepped myself in the shower in the morning just sort of out of habit and being clean had never really been an issue for me.

He was honestly flushed, too. I could tell he was coming as about undone as I was. He moved off me and reached for the bedside table, grabbing the lube I kept there without even needing to ask where it was. His fingers felt so good inside me! I couldn't help wrapping my hand around myself, stroking to his thrusts. He watched with lust in his eyes, and it just made me want to show off a little, aching and moaning softly for him.

But when Lance carefully pushed his cock inside me… I was not trying to tease him with my cry of pleasure. I couldn't help crying out, knotting my hands in the sheets.

Lance's breathing was already harsh and labored, but honestly, I was getting past my limit, too.

He kissed me roughly. I realized it was probably to silence my cries. My legs quivered weakly as he stroked me to the tempo of his trusts. He usually did that when he was getting close, willing my body to meet his in orgasm. I was so close. I didn't want it to end. Lance's thrusts were getting rough though, and I couldn't hold out. I arched as I came all over my stomach, just taking in all the pleasure and enjoying it to the fullest, reduced to goo when I felt Lance finishing inside me.

I was clutching him tight, trying to catch my breath and remember what my name was. How could it feel that amazing?! It was only four in the afternoon.

Somehow that didn't stop me from dozing off after we cleaned up a bit, not even bothering to pull my boxers back on.


AN: Ah shit the thought of Green cradling his baby, dead tried, humming to sooth him. A lot of babies like that nice rumble of a guy's deep voice. Gold comes home next chapter! I'm sure things will be fine.