Title: Spiral
Author: MissMouseMD
Rating: T
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Don't sue.
A/N: Okay, so now we know where Meredith is. But no one else does. Chaos ensues! Thanks so much for all the wonderful reviews, you guys! Enjoy!
Pathetic
Meredith
She's pathetic.
She's pathetic, and she knows it.
And everybody else knows it.
Which is actually kind of embarrassing.
And it explains why she's sitting in a closet, drinking tequila out of the bottle.
She was going to tell Finn.
She was all honesty is policy, and all that crap.
She tried to be cheerful.
She tried to be honest.
It didn't work.
Maybe she's just fated to be a miserable, dirty ex-mistress.
It's her destiny, or whatever.
Lovely.
She takes another swig of tequila.
It burns as it slides down her throat, and she smiles.
She deserves to feel like this.
She deserves to feel horrible.
Everything's getting kind of fuzzy.
She drinks anyway.
The edges of her vision are black.
Still, she does not stop.
And then, everything's gone black.
The bottle slips from her hand.
She slumps against the wall.
Finn
After this, it's over.
He can't handle this anymore.
He thought he could.
He told her himself.
She warned him that she was scary and damaged.
He didn't listen.
Because he didn't think that anyone could be this scary.
This damaged.
And it scares him.
But that's not the whole reason he's ending it.
The truth is, she doesn't love him.
He's not stupid.
She's pining after another man, and his ego can only take so much.
Her friends will support her.
She doesn't need him.
So when they find her, it's over.
Addison
She feels guilty, somehow.
Like it's her fault that her husband fell in love with an intern.
Like it's her fault that she didn't want to divorce him.
Like it's her fault that her husband's ex-mistress completely lost it.
It isn't her fault, and she knows it.
It's stupid of her to even consider the possibility that it might beher fault.
And yet, she can't stop feeling guilty.
Derek
Damn it.
He's really screwed things up this time.
He loves Addison.
She's his wife.
He loves Meredith more.
And that scares him.
Because you aren't supposed to love another woman more than your wife.
It's against some rule.
You aren't supposed to cheat on your wife with the woman you love, either.
It's against some rule, too.
But then, your wife isn't supposed to cheat on you with your best friend.
That's the problem.
The rules were all disregarded long ago.
And since then, all hell's broken loose.
Cristina
They've looked everywhere.
The nursing home.
Derek's place.
The bar.
The park, even.
The hospital.
And they can't find Meredith.
And she's pretty sure she's lost ten years off her life.
You lose glasses.
You lose car keys.
You even lose pets.
But you don't lose people, for God's sake.
You just don't.
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