Back To Basics
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto and never will, sadly.
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The Fifth
Couldn't
He stepped towards where she lay. She would always just lay there, wouldn't move for the world or the rain. He wished she would just move away for once.
He couldn't hear the breathing but he knew how it was. He honestly wished it'd be steadier, but he couldn't have his way always. He'd figured that from the moment he met her, because somehow he'd never managed to have her.
He smiled a grim smile, remembering how unsteady a person she'd always been. It was not good to "wake the dead" so to speak. It was not good to touch upon subjects of points that someone so unsteady wished not to have touched. So he never touched them. He wished that for once though that he could've touched upon them, before all of this had happened.
"Hey, frightening woman, I've brought you some flowers this time… Sorry, I kept forgetting them. I suppose I didn't want to face that troublesome girl with the facts that she was right about me… And that she was right about you." He placed the flowers beside the place of her resting. "I suppose it doesn't really matter anymore because no matter how many times I bring these flowers to you, they'll always be too late. Just like when I say sorry: It'll always be too late to say I'm sorry for what happened, because it happened and there's no way to take that back no matter how many times I say sorry. I know you won't talk back. Don't bother to feel bad for not being able to speak back to me like before. I should be sorry, and I am, but I know it'll always be too late."
Secretly, he wished she would just speak back to him this once, even if it meant that she would yell at him, because at least it would mean she were there and she were alive.
Secretly, he wished that she were still alive. But Shikamaru knew better than that and he'd definitely realized by now that he couldn't have his way always.
Secretly, Shikamaru wished he could have his way just this once, because that meant that he'd have her and none of this would have ever happened.
"Hey, frightening woman, I'm sorry I didn't take that shot for you. I'd rather you be here than me. Hey, frightening woman, is it okay that I use your name now? I think your name fits better now, Temari."
-End The Fifth-
