TOMMY

For just a minute I stare at all the packages, trying to figure out where to start. Deciding it doesn't matter too much, I tear into the first package in arms reach. As I unpack the boxes and bags I set a few things aside. I've decided that I should probably keep a few things in Zedd's room since I'm sleeping in there - well, for now anyway. Besides he said he didn't mind right? Well sort of. I mean I suppose I should have actually asked him if it was okay, but, well, what if he'd gotten all weird about it? Or made it into something it's not? No, best to just do it I think and if he says no afterwards well then I'll just move it back to my own room.

Getting all of my clothes put away - except for the ones I'm going to keep in his room - fairly quickly I look around the bedroom I've barely spent any time in before grabbing the left clothes and heading for Zedd's.

For some reason feeling more at ease when I enter this room I drop the pile of clothing down on the dresser before kneeling down on the floor. I think that I saw one drawer that was empty at the bottom when I raided his clothes for my get away. If I'm right then I'll have just enough room to put the stuff I want to keep in here, if not well I suppose there's always the closet.

Pulling open the desired drawer I give a bit of a frown. It seems awfully shallow compared to how it looks on the outside, oh well must just be how it's made or just me. I mentally shrug it off as after all, it wouldn't surprise me to find out that my perception is off like everything else.

I slide my hand to the back of the drawer to be sure there's nothing in it before I claim it for my own when my fingers brush against something along the back of it. That's odd, there's a bump on the bottom of the drawer. For a piece that seems to be fairly well made, why is that there? I press it gently and am startled when the front of the bottom pops up an inch or so. Oh no, I broke the drawer. Maybe I can fix it without him finding out.

I grab the piece and pull it out. I - didn't break the drawer. It's a hidden compartment. Now why on Earth would he need a drawer with a hidden…oh. I stare at the contents that are revealed once I get the piece of wood moved aside, not really seeing them in my startled state.

Finally, my brain clicks into gear and I realize just what I'm staring at. Oh. My. God. The man must have porn from every corner of the galaxy. I sift through the containers, which are not unlike DVD cases on Earth. And just like on Earth, the photos on the covers tell you exactly what's going on. Humanoid and alien, male and female, male and male, humanoid and humanoid - the variety stuns me. Unintentionally, my eyes stray to a cabinet in the corner that I've never seen open, but now have a pretty good idea of what it holds.

I stand up, cross the room and open the doors. Inside is a TV, a video player, and some drawers under the shelf. Almost certain that said drawers must hold more of his movie collection I can't help myself as curiosity leads my hand to open the top one, positive that this much be his most viewed collection, however it seems that I am once more proven wrong as I see what is actually inside.

I have no idea how you use some of these things, but I have no doubt what they are for. Toys, of the adult variety. I shut the drawer quickly really not feeling comfortable with THAT stuff right now and once more let my gaze land on the videos in the open drawer across the room as well as the one laying on the floor that I'd pulled out.

I should put those back, close the drawer, and just put my clothes in the closet before Zedd comes back, yep that would be best, that's just what I'll do… just after I take one more look at the videos.

Pushing away the little voice telling me to stop I move swiftly back across the room and without really thinking, snatch up one of the videos. One of the guy and guy videos it seems. Biting my lip and looking at the cover and back, I know I shouldn't but…

Returning to the cabinet, I take out the disk and put it into the DVD player, determined to just take one little look, just to see what all of this business with two guys is really about as Zedd seems insistent it's not supposed to be like what those assholes did to me at the rehab place.

Waiting for the video to start up I move to sit back on the bed and watch when it does. Just a few minutes, that's all then I'll turn it off and clean up. Zedd will never have to know I found his stash, or worse yet watched one of his movies. It'll be fine, it'll be completely and totally fi-wow, okay that's, wow he's very underdressed. And why does the other guy have a, oh, okay, right they must not really bother too much with story in these movies.

A couple of minutes later, I am completely lost in the images on the screen. I bite my lip as I think. There are two guys and they seem to be enjoying what they are doing. Really enjoying what they are doing. Maybe Zedd was right, maybe it's not always painful and rough. Maybe it's not that much different from male and female. A particularly loud moan draws my attention back to the screen.

One of the males is using a scarf to bind the organ of the other one. What did Zedd say that was called? Restriction - I think. My eyes narrow slightly. Well, this explains how he knew about it. Wait - it isn't hurting him? None of it has to hurt?

I stare avidly at the screen as I stretch out on the bed, getting more comfortable. The one who was tied with the scarf is mounted by the other one, moaning loudly as he's ridden. When the second man is done, he turns his attention back to the first one and I realize I'm stroking myself in time to the movements on the screen and, for now, I just don't care because it feels so good.