Author's Notes: Hey everyone! I hope you liked chapter 1. This chapter is now Lily's POV about James. I hope this turns out just as well. Lily is in denial at first. I'm depicting her denial in the first part of the chapter. It has a different style, unlike the first chapter. It has some humor in it, and I hope you guys would appreciate it. Read and review please!

And so presenting…

Loving You

Chapter 2

I hated him

I hated his cute smile and boyish grin. I hated hiss messy raven black hair. I hated his very charming personality. I hated his intelligence. I hated his talent in flying and Quidditch. I hated it that he gets high marks without even reading a book. I hated it that magic just came from him naturally. I hated him! He was so bloody arrogant! He always played pranks on Snape, not to mention me at times too.

But most of all, I hated the things he did to me. No, not physically, but he affected me emotionally.

I hated it that he affected me that way. What way? THAT way… You know, evoking warm, tingly feelings inside of me. I hated that feeling. He was supposed to be my enemy for goodness sake! It was forbidden for me to think about him that way! (sigh)

Well, that was what I thought of in the past. Did you notice that I used past tense in narrating all of this? I was because it happened IN THE PAST. Nothing much had changed; in fact, I would say it had just merely evolved.

Because from hate, it evolved to love. I always did say that there was a fine line between love and hate. It just so happened that I crossed it, and I didn't regret it. I admitted to myself that I denied it at first. It was practical and logical at the time. Loving an enemy? How preposterous is that? Not to mention it was very cliché. I was never a romantic. It took a lot of time to accept it, and I wasted a lot of my precious time to ponder on it. My grades dropped a little, and though unnoticeable, the change was still there.

Now, believe or not, I accept that I love him. I really love him.

Are you surprised? You may be thinking that it's too soon to say that I love him. But no, I really do. I can't really explain it, but I know it's, well, true. I think I have started loving him a long time ago, and I'm just too stubborn to admit it. I even say that what I feel is hate, but it's not. It's just a long time of denial.

I don't know what this feeling is, but there are a lot of things that I love about him.

I love his cute smile and boyish grin. I love his messy raven black hair, and I would love to run my deft fingers through those soft tresses. I love his charming personality. I love his intelligence, and his witty remarks. I love that he has many talents, namely flying and Quidditch.

But I'm not superficial. I don't love him based on his looks and talents. I love him for who he is.

They say love is blind, but I think it's just accepting the person just the way they are. You see all their faults and love him for it. Acceptance of what he's capable of and what he cannot do. Acceptance of his bad traits and good traits. Being in love with that person must be because you accept them. You do not try to change them because they are perfect in their own way, their own right.

Because I love him, I can say that he is not perfect. Love doesn't make me blind. He isn't perfect! He's still arrogant, though it's not as much as before and is quite tolerable. He still pranks Snape, and I still disapprove of that. He still gets into my nerves sometimes, but he makes sure that he doesn't get far with his infuriating jokes.

Though he has these faults, I still love him. See? I still love him!

But obviously he doesn't love me back. I regret those times when he used to ask me out everyday. I always answer no because my pride won't let me say yes. Now, I just think that I lost my chance—that he is uninterested anymore. My pride is my downfall.

More serious now...

I only realized that I love him when we became friends. Yes, we ARE friends right now. If we would still be enemies, I would never ever admit to myself that I'm in love with the git, and I would still be in the denial stage. We now actually talk civilly and willingly, something I have thought we will ever do.

Being friends with him made me see a new side of him--a side that I fell in love with--and I'm determined not to give that up. That's the reason why I can't just go up to him and say "James, I love you," and kiss him senseless. I just can't risk him rejecting me and things between us going awkward. Maybe he'll go back to his arrogant ways, and I couldn't risk that, not right now at least.

I know I've already said this, but I really regret saying no. Damn my stupid pride.

I have already told my best friend about this, and she keeps on saying that he likes me. "Go for it. It's obvious that he still likes you," she says. No, I don't think so, because if he does, why doesn't he do anything?

"He still likes you, Lily. Do it before it's too late. Stop going to me about this. James is staring and I believe he's getting jealous because you always go to me."

Is he really jealous? I am confused about his feelings. Ughh, I wish I could read his mind and know, so that I would know what to do. I wish I could just gather up the courage to go up to him and say what I feel. If only it would just be that easy.

You know what? This sounds deep, but he is my world. He really is. It hurts me when I see him flirting with other girls, and know that he have used to do that to me. I don't know what he sees in them. I really wish I could say how I feel. I wish I could let him know that he is my world, my everything.

But now is not the time. It's too...raw. But I promise to myself that I'm going to tell him, someday, when I gather the courage.

Someday, I'm going to make my wishes and dreams come true and make them a reality. And when that time comes, I'll be happy. I'll be contented. I'll be the happiest girl in the world because I'll be with HIM.

Whether I like it or not, I have these feelings for him. I can't ignore it or make it go away. But I'm not ashamed to admit it, even if only just to myself and my friend for now. I need to make the first move, since I am the one who pushed him away.

I need this because I love him.

I love him.

I love his personality, his mind, and his flaws.

I love everything about him, the whole of him.

Loving him is a feeling like no other, like soaring above the clouds and feeling bliss. It is the greatest feeling in the world.

I just hope he feels the same...

Because there is no greater feeling than receiving the love of your loved one...

Especially from him...

I am Lily Evans, and I'll say this once…

I love my former 'enemy'…

I love my close friend…

I love this boy who is unique in all ways…

I love James Potter…

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Author's Notes: So, was it okay? I hope it was up to par with the earlier chapter. I liked this because it has humor—as I've said before in the AN above—though only a little. 

Read and review! I would like to know what you thought of my work. Constructive criticism would be nice. This story is kind of parallel to the first chapter. 

This is an un-beta-ed (Haha! I like that worked) version, so I need my beta o read it over. Sorry, for the mistakes, I really tried to lessen them. I'll update this one again, uploading a beta-ed version. But if I don't, it means that it's already alright. 

If you reached this part of the story, thank you for reading! And remember to read and review!