It had been about a week and Sirius still couldn't stop thinking about what had happened in the dorm. He didn't even know what had happened. He did know, however, that it had felt good, and right. Which was strange because Remus was a boy.

Sirius had never been attracted to a boy before. There was something about Remus though. He had never noticed it before but he was attractive. That was one of the craziest parts. Suddenly Sirius was noticing things he had never noticed on anyone before.

When he had liked a girl it had been because of her looks, or her body, but that's not what it was with Remus. He found himself noticing thing like the way Remus' hair fell in his face when he did his homework or was very intent on a book, how his hands looked as the lifted his goblet at dinner. The way he laughed with other people versus the way he laughed with him. The way his voice sounded in class, the way it sounded with there friends and the way it sounded with Sirius alone.

He was probably crazy but he could hear a difference and he wanted that difference. He wanted Remus to be different with him, he wanted him to be more… Remus with him, more…. boy.

This was crazy, Remus was just Remus, and this whole mindset was just the aftermath of really good sex. But that was just it, they hadn't had sex, and Sirius kept wondering what it would feel like to have Remus under him, to enter him to see the pleasure on his face as he came for him. Still, just the aftermath of a really good orgasm, yeah he just hadn't been laid in a while. That was it. It had to be.

So Sirius set off in search of a girl to have a good toss with to get Remus out of his mind. Surely that was all he needed.

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Remus kept flashing back to his dream. He could still feel Sirius underneath him, could still hear his shout of ecstasy. He could still feel him in his hands, but it had just been a dream, and nothing more. Except that Remus' dreams had never been that real. He had never been able to feel anything let alone… that.

What was it about that dream that he couldn't get out of his mind? Obviously, it was Sirius. Why him, why not Lily, he had always thought she was pretty, or even Narcissa, maybe the thought of Lucius' revenge extended to his dreams as well. Why did his first sexual dream have to be about a boy? And not just any boy! Sirius! He couldn't just forget it either. Every time he saw Sirius he thought about it.

The strange thing was that he thought about what he really would look like, what he would feel like, how he really would sound. This of course lead to embarrassment and he would have to either become very intent on his homework or book, or, if he had nothing to do, run away. This was of course a last resort that would only be used when absolutely necessary. That was of course becoming more frequent.

Remus had originally thought that, as time passed he would put it behind him as one of those stupid boyish happenings that one looked back on when grown up and laughed at, but never, ever, mentioned to anyone other than those who were present at the happening. This was not how things were progressing, however. As time passed, in fact, Remus thought about it more.

He got hard just looking at Sirius. Hell all he had to do was smell him on someone else and he was ready to pounce. He loved the way Sirius looked when he was deep in thought with James over the next big prank they were going to pull on the entire school. He couldn't take his eyes off of him when he got dressed for bed. He loved the way his muscles flexed when he would stretch his arms over his head before he got into bed for the night. Just being in the same room with him was becoming unbearable. What he needed was a good cold shower. That would make this thought process stop.

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This was exactly what Sirius had in mind actually. As soon as Remus walked into the showers he knew he had made a mistake, he should have gone to his room and tried to sleep. As it was he was now face to face with a half naked Sirius and all he could think about was how good he looked and how much he wanted to taste those lips.

Sirius' thoughts were taking the same path. As soon as the door opened he had known that it was Remus. He had frozen in place as the boy came around the corner and stared at him. He had thought that a cold shower was the best idea, now a few more were coming to his mind. He couldn't though. Remus had no idea what had really happened and Sirius had become more and more convinced over the past week that he was crazy and he had just imagined Remus had said his name while he was posed above him.

Remus knew he should go; he should just turn around and walk out of the bathroom right now, he would probably freak Sirius out if he didn't, but he couldn't make himself. Almost as if possessed his hand reached out and caressed Sirius' cheek. His skin felt so good, so rough and yet soft, he had to know if it felt like it had in his dream. Slowly, without taking his eyes from the gaze of the other boy, he moved his hand down along his jaw, to his throat and finally to his chest.

Sirius couldn't believe this was happening, or how good it felt. All he wanted to do was stand here like this forever, no that wasn't true, he wanted to do so much more than that to the boy staring at him so hungrily. He couldn't seem to move away from his touch long enough to do any of it though, so he settled on tilting his head back with a slight moan.

That was all the encouragement Remus needed. This past week of repressed desire came crashing to the surface as he pulled Sirius to him and crushed their mouths together. Remus couldn't take anymore waiting for what he wanted, so when Sirius didn't open his mouth for him right away he forced his way in. He pressed his body against Sirius' as he slid his tongue inside the other boy's mouth. He heard Sirius' whimper and surged forward, his tongue invaded every crevasse of this strange new mouth.

Sirius couldn't think, couldn't do anything but move his tongue against Remus'. He gripped at Remus' waist as he melded their bodies together. He wanted to be closer, he had to have more, more tongue, more skin, more Remus. He ripped at Remus' shirt until he tore it free of his body. He pulled Remus back to him and they both moaned. The feel of their skin pressed together without any barriers was all that Sirius could stand he ripped his mouth away and shoved Remus into one of the shower stalls. He turned the water on full blast and followed him in.

Remus' head was swimming, the feel of Sirius against him had been so good, it had been better than in his dreams. Now he could barely believe that Sirius was in the shower with him. He wanted to pull Sirius to him and do all the things he had fantasized about all week but he had to be sure, he had to know that Sirius knew what was happening.

"Sirius, I'm not a girl."

"I am well aware of that." he cast a meaningful glance to Remus' pants where his arousal was painfully evident.

"Yes, but, we are about to…. and I just wanted to make sure that you knew…"

"What? That we were about to have sex. It's very difficult to think about anything else right now."

"Again, yes, but I am not a girl and I want you, I want to be inside of you Sirius, and I want you to be ok with that before we go any further."

"Remus, I am aware that you are in fact male and that we are in fact about to go further than you have ever gone with anyone. And I love that fact, that I will be your first, that I will see your first orgasm. It's all I've been able to think about since that day in the dorm room."

"Wait, that was real? I thought it was a dream, I really…. to you, and you really…."

"Yes, you really, and I really. And now we are going to again. If you will stop thinking this through and just go with it. Which is what I would really like because there are many things I am thinking about right now that I would like to do to you and for you that this conversation is getting in the way of."

Sirius moved forward and kissed Remus on his mouth then his jaw. He lightly licked his throat right where he felt the rapid pulse. Remus whimpered low in his throat as Sirius' tongue worked magic on his skin. Sirius moved lower and licked a circle around Remus' nipple which grew hard under his touch. He bit the taught peak and then moved lower, as he knelt before Remus on his knees he tilted his head back to look up at the boy. Remus looked down and met his steady, hungry gaze with one of his own. Sirius kept his eyes on Remus' face as he pulled his pants down slowly and threw them out of the shower. He nipped his inner thigh, and when he heard his hiss he repeated the action on the other side. He nipped at the skin all around Remus' groin and then finally moved in front of him and took him into his mouth.

Remus threw his head back and moaned. He had never felt anything like this in his life. It was strange and wonderful, and he never wanted it to stop. His mouth slowly opened as he silently urged Sirius on.

Sirius watched Remus' face as he savored the taste of his cock. Nothing was better than this, nothing was better than being here, with Remus, giving this to him. When he came he cried out Sirius' name and dug his hand into Sirius' hair pushing his erection further into his mouth. He sank to the floor in front of Sirius and pushed him down on his back. He reached down and pulled his pants off. He wanted Sirius with every fiber of his being. Suddenly, however, he was feeling a bit awkward.

"Uumm… how do we, exactly, do this?"

"You think I know?" Sirius smiled at him.

"Well, I mean, who's on bottom and….. I mean, I never thought about that part."

"Just go with it." Sirius said before he pulled him down for another long hot kiss, that sent all of the doubt from Remus' mind.

Suddenly something clicked in Remus' mind and his animal instinct took over. He couldn't stop himself now as he ripped his mouth away from Sirius' and flipped him over with little effort, he kissed the center if his back, just between his shoulder blades as he wet his fingers and prepared Sirius for his invasion. He reached around to Sirius' front and gripped him in his fingers as he sank himself deep into the soft warmth of the boy beneath him.

Sirius cried out in a mixture of pain and pleasure.

"Did I hurt you? I'm sorry Sirius I just-"

"Oh God Moony, keep going, please, don't stop, I think I'll die if you do."

It was all he needed Remus pulled back slowly then rammed back into Sirius as far as he could. As he slid in and out he caressed Sirius' cock with his hands. He went slowly at first but soon they were both beyond all control. He thrust against him again and again. When he heard Sirius scream and felt him come in his hands he sped his pace even more until he had joined him in the moment of ecstasy.

They both collapsed to the floor.

"Jesus moony! Where did you learn all of that?"

"I could ask you the same thing?" Remus said with a wicked grin.

"Animal instinct."

"Well, it was….."

"Bloody brilliant I'd say."

"No, it was much, much better than that."

"Yeah, it was wasn't in."

They just laid there on the floor of the showers arms and legs entwined.

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Remus was starting to feel awkward about his relationship with Sirius. They had been sneaking off to have snog fests for about two weeks and yet, they hadn't talked about what it all meant. It's not that he need commitment, he would just like to know what was going on, what this all was to Sirius, because to him it was getting important.

He found his opportunity one day in the midst of a particularly hot snog session. As Sirius' hands began to roam up his shirt and down his pants he pulled back.

"Wait. Sirius, we need to, oh god, stop that, I need to talk to you about something."

Sirius continued to nuzzle his neck as he spoke to him "Mmm… What?"

"What.. uumm… stop!" he practically shouted, getting Sirius' attention as he stepped back "What is this?"

"Well, Moony, this is called snogging, and, if I may say so myself, I do believe we are doing an incredible job at it."

"Yeah, that part I know, thanks, but what else. I mean, is that all it is to you? Because to me I don't even know what it is anymore, I just know that it is more than just snogging."

"Oh, you mean where are we headed?"

"No… yes… I don't know. I just know that I want it to be more than that."

"Ok, well, let me put it this way. I snogged a thousand girls over all of our years here, yet how many times did you every see me go back for seconds?"

"Well…. not very often…"

"Not at all… Remus, this isn't just physical to me either, but we've had years to get to know each other on an emotional level, and to be honest I'm not that good at all the talking about our feelings crap. I just want to make up for all the time we lost on the physical stuff."

"Oh, so this is…"

"Much, much more. Remus, I'm falling in love with you. And it's weird and strange and great and wonderful. I just don't know where to go from there, what happens after this?"

"Well, I think the first step is for me to reciprocate the feelings. Then, we just live, normally."

"I think I can do that."

"Yeah, I think you can too."

"Hey! What was that tone! I don't think I appreciate that."

"Well I'm not the one who will be hiring strippers and clowns for a funeral!"

"Oh so now you look down on my strippers and clowns!"

"I do not want strippers and clowns at my funeral."

"Well, you better get used to the idea because that's what I am going to arrange! And you know what, I'm thinking of adding and eel!"

"Oh God, this will not end well. And how do you know that you will get the chance to plan my funeral I still say that you could go first."

"Nope, not happening, you're going first, and I will plan the festivities, it's the way it's going to be."

"Fine, I will let you have your way. But only because I don't want to think of world that doesn't have you in it."

"And you will never have to Moony. You'll never have to."