As Zack walked away from the relationship he felt nothing but anger, but as he sat that night in his dorm, he felt incomplete. He loved her. He always would, but he walked away, he had to. His thoughts were formed through anger throughout the night, even though he did still love her.

His thoughts made her seem cold and heartless. His thoughts made himself seem unimportant. He thought she was only with him to be with someone. He thought when Owen told her to break up with him that she had no problem with it. His thoughts disgraced the only woman he had ever loved. The only woman he would ever love.

He didn't know what he was going to do without her. She was the only reason he hadn't left Boston to begin with. Sure there was his family, but he would always have them and he couldn't live by them forever. Sure there was his friends. London, had possibly become his best friend over the years. He would miss her, but he would always stay in touch. There was his schooling. Truthfully there were a lot of things left for him in Boston, but the only reason he had stayed was because of Maddie.

A tear seeped down his already tear stained face. His breathing came short and his eyes burned. His heart was breaking from beneath his chest. He loved her. He just didn't think she felt the same anymore. He thought wrong. Maddie never stopped loving Zack. She never would. As he sat in his dorm room alone and crying she was doing the very same in her apartment.

She curled up on her bed and cried through her pillows. He didn't give her a chance to explain. Truth was she loved Zack. She just didn't want him to know about the miscarriage at that point in their life. She knew that keeping it from him was a mistake, and she knew that leading him to believe that she hadn't been with anyone like that was wrong too. He had a right to know.

She didn't want to go far with Zack right now, because in her heart she thought that they would have forever. She thought they would be married after he graduated. No, they hadn't ever discussed it but it didn't stop her from believing it. She wanted it to be different with Zack. She wanted it to be perfect, and on her wedding night.

She had only been with one guy and that was Owen, and it was only once. It was stupid and she regretted it everyday. She wanted the next time to be perfect and that is why she wanted to wait for her wedding night. That is why she wanted to wait for Zack. She wanted it to be with Zack more than anyone, but now that was just another wish that would never be fulfilled.

Liam was staying at his place again after Maddie said it was alright for him to. He knew she and Zack had a falling out, because as soon as Zack left their parents' house she seemed distant and looked as though she was on the verge of tears. She left only 15 minutes after that and he knew that whatever they argued about was big and caused something bad to happen. He knew how they felt about each other and hoped they would sort it out.

Cody stayed away from the dorm that night. Zack was angry, sad, and confused. A very bad combination, especially with Zack Martin. He stayed at London's that night and they discussed Maddie and Zack most. They wondered if this was another test in their relationship or if it was truly over, though they both knew their feelings would always be there. Her father also came into the discussion and London had came to terms with it. She didn't forget about the parentless childhood she had, but she did forgive him.

They even remembered Mr. Moseby together, which helped a lot. They didn't want to keep those feelings buried because they didn't want to suffer the consequences if one of them blew up from repressed feelings. That night they talked about everything, as they curled up together on the couch.

Zack got off of his bed with anger and stormed out of his dorm. He had no idea where he was going, his feet seemed to move on their own will, not his. He walked briskly down the hall, not stopping to say hi to any of his friends that happened to be loitering around. He made his way to his car in the parking lot, put the key in the ignition and soon found himself outside a run down building.

The building was a bar. A rough bar, at that. The kind of bar where motorcycles stormed the outside and big gruffly haired men inhabited the inside. The kind of bar where everyone turned to look at a 20 year old college kid, who wore khaki pants and an argyle shirt. The kind of bar where everyone knew everyone by names that would make someone outside the bar wince. For instance when the bartender called on of the rough men at the bar 'Needles' (he was one of the smaller men).

"What'll it be kid? You look like you've had a hell of a day." the bartender said as Zack sat down. "Aren't you going to ask for my ID?" Zack asked. Though he went to a bar he didn't think he'd actually get served. "Well I'd say you're close enough to age. As I said: What'll it be?" he said rather harshly.

"Anything that'll help when you find out that your girlfriends bullshitted her way through the entire relationship." he replied and with that the bartender smirked. He lay a line of small glasses on the bar. Twenty glasses to be exact. Now, Zack hadn't drank much, but he knew that twenty shots was a lot. "Um…what is this stuff?" Zack asked after the bartender poured something into each of the glasses.

"That something that'll help you when you find out that your girlfriend has bullshitted her way through the entire relationship." he replied and then went to help the large men who had began to laugh at him. Zack nodded and turned his attention back to the twenty glasses of liquor.

He downed one. The alcohol burned his throat like fire, but then cooled on its own volition. Downed the second one, then a third, and soon all of them were empty. He felt lightheaded as he stumbled out of his stool. He only heard a few muffled laughs as the room began to spin. He made his way to his car, surprisingly. He fumbled with his keys, but couldn't find the right one.

He squinted one of his eyes in order to concentrate better, but no luck. He soon gave up and felt himself fall to the ground. He laughed slightly before going blank. He hadn't even realized he had passed out until he awoke and found himself in the back of his car. "Wha?" he slurred.

"Oh look he's awake!" said an outraged voice on the drivers side. He didn't recognize the voice well, but he knew it was familiar. "Calm down, Maddie." another voice sounded from the passenger seat. "And why should I? It's two o'clock in the morning! I get a call from a friken bartender saying that a Zackary Martin is in pretty bad shape and passed out in front of his car, then I have to get out of bed and come in get you and Cody! So why should I come down, London!" she yelled. "Damn, coul' you be any lou-er" he slurred again, putting his hand to his forehead and feeling rather queasy.

"Oh! I don't know! You wanna try me?" she yelled even louder. "Maddie, if you don't calm down then your going to wreck, so yell at him later. I would suggest tomorrow when he's having a huge hangover." London rationalized. "Oh, your right! Sleep well, Zack!" Maddie called. He grumbled and felt himself drift off to sleep.

He awoke with a jolt when a flash of light burned his corneas. "What the hell?" he asked groggily. "Oh! Good, morning." Cody said cheerfully, though he wasn't cheerful at all. He had pulled the curtains in their dorm, where he, Maddie, and London took him last night. The sun shined through and he tried to wriggle under the covers for shelter but Cody flipped the covers off of him. "Cody, leave!" Zack demanded in a wince.

"Nope…I don't think I will. You're not going to throw your entire future away! You're going to class right now! You aren't going to become an alcoholic and skip your classes, now up!" he said, pulling his brother out of bed. "And you're lucky it wasn't Maddie in here this morning. She tried to get in here and I wouldn't let her, cause I was afraid she was going to physically injure you." Cody said with a hint of mirth.

"What the hell does she care?" Zack said holding his head. "And could you whisper?" he added as his head throbbed. Cody laughed and walked him across the hall to the coed bathrooms and threw him in. He was trying to sober him up the best he could before his next class, which was in an hour.

"Cody! I'm in my clothes!" Zack yelled as he spit out the cold water. Cody laughed harder watching his brother squirm under his grasp and tried to get away from the splashes. "Get the hell off of me!" he yelled, just before he threw up. "Gross!" Cody yelled, disgusted. Zack gagged and Cody let go of him. "Ooh…I feel awful." he gasped. "Well may I suggest never drinking again. I mean seriously this is the second time you've been drunk, both of which had to do with Maddie. I don't know why you don't deal with your problems. You're doing the same thing you did four years ago when you ran away, except you aren't running away physically you're just hiding from them in these stupid actions. You need to grow up, and talk to your girlfriend before it's too late." Cody rationalized, though Zack wasn't listening to a word.

Zack finally sobered up a little bit after a while and went to class. On his way he bumped into one of his friends. "Hey Jared." Zack greeted, still a little hung over. "Hey Zack. What are you up to?" he asked. "Class." Zack said simply. Jared gave a small laugh and nodded. "So what were you looking at?" Zack asked as he saw him looking at a poster before he spoke. "This Army poster. It's about volunteering and stuff." he replied and Zack nodded.

"Aw…not my thing man!" Jared said, shrugging before walking off. Zack, however, gave the poster another look; a few looks actually. He thought about it and thought that maybe he should check into it. Maybe college could wait until he served. Maybe it would give him a distraction from living within a mile radius of his ex. Maybe this was his escape. He ripped the poster down and pocketed it before striding to class.

At London's apartment, Cody sat once again on the couch with London. He didn't have a class today, and he was thankful for that. He was super tired from the previous night, due to Zack's antics. He knew he must be feeling worse though, but he deserved the pain, since he inflicted it on himself. Cody was stuck driving everyone to the bar and then drove it back, letting Maddie and London deal with his intoxicated brother.

Cody's mind was reeling to his proposal. He had an idea that she was about to say yes, but he wasn't certain. The subject didn't come up again, due to the circumstances. Today was Moseby's funeral and he didn't want to seem selfish, but he really wanted to know her answer. It killed him thinking that she might have said no. He wasn't going to push things today because of the funeral, but nothing was stopping him from saying something in a couple of days. Nothing, except possibly his caring for London's feelings.

She was off for the entire week for the funeral. She had planned it and paid for it all. Her boss was very considerate, and she was glad to have her as a boss. She sat there thinking of Cody's proposal, maybe she was being selfish, but she desperately wanted to be on that subject again. That was a happier subject. A wonderful subject.

After Zack's class he went straight to his dorm room to change for the funeral, that was to be held just an hour later. He knew it wasn't the best time to tell everyone he cared about that he was interested in joining the military but he knew it had to happen sometime. And sometime soon, since he was going to go sign up within the next couple days.

He changed into his only black suit he had and went directly to the funeral home, where he met up with his mother, Cody, London, Esteban, Muriel, and Maddie. London's father sent flowers, since he couldn't come, due to him being in the hospital. Together they all sat down for the ceremony to begin. London was the first to speak and then it was Zack's turn to sing a song he wrote for the occasion.

"Hey, Moseby was a great man and I wrote this song to reflect how wonderful, yet, mysterious he really was." he said before he started strumming on his acoustic guitar.

A bird that flies better than the others

A bee that stings harder than the rest

A dolphin who swims faster than all

That was you…ooh it was you

You were always better, than all of us

You made us laugh when you smiled

You made us run when you were mad

Now we're crying cause your not here

Where did you go…man?

Now we're standing here

In the rain you left behind

Our tears are flooding

This very world

The one where you were loved so much

Ooh! Where did you go…man?

Where did you run to?

Why didn't you take us with you?

You were our brother

Our friend

Our father

Our son

Where did you go…man?

Why did you leave us here?

The sun has gone down

No more light shines

It's going to take a while

for the moon to come out

You left us in the dark!

Where did you go…man?

Why did you leave us here?

We're lost…we cant see

I cant even see the hand in front of me

The one that's guiding me!

Where did you go…man?

You left us here

You were our brother

Our Friend

Our father!

Our son!

Where…did…you…go…man?

Where did you go….?

He finished his song as his coffin was being taken outside to be loaded in a hearse. A tear flowed down his face as he watched his friend being taken away. He dried his face before getting up to go to his own car. He ran into people who liked his song, he thanked them silently and strode to his car briskly. He leapt in and there was where his tears flowed. He followed the trail of cars to Moseby's destiny. His whole in the ground, Zack thought bitterly.

The rest of the day was really a blur for him. He went to the cemetery where people sniffled their cries and hugged everyone. He remembered the priest saying a few words and he remembered the casket slowly being lowered into the six foot grave. That is all he cared to remember.

As he sat there in his mom's suite on the 23rd floor with all of his family and friends hovered around, he was about to make that announcement. He arose from the couch and with a loud clear of the throat he was the center of attention in the small suite. "Hey guys. There's something I have decided to do. I know all of you are probably aware of my antics previous to this evening….Muriel wake up!" he added as he saw her dosing in an arm chair. She awoke with a jolt and he continued.

"I wanted to tell you all that I have found something for me. A job…if you will. It's an opportunity to get out of Boston and give me a chance to clear my head, instead of getting drunk everyday. I need to get away to think about Moseby and some other things that I'm sure all of you are aware of. Within the next couple of days I'm volunteering for the Army." he finished. When he finished, everyone's jaw's dropped. With the exception of Maddie who stormed out of the suite.

"You're what?" Cody asked, completely floored. London had stood there frozen, with the exception of a few tears falling from her eyes. "I'm joining the army." Zack said. Cody rounded on him. "Ooh no you're not!" he said pointing a finger in his face. "Yes I am…I figured it's what's right for me right now-" he was interrupted by Cody.

"What's right for you right now! What is right for you right now, is to be here with your family and friends! This isn't about Moseby this is about you being stupid! This is about you and Maddie! You're feeling sorry for yourself! You are the most selfish person I have ever met! You don't see London, who is probably having the toughest time out of all of us going out and joining the army! No! You see her planning a funeral, while working on designs at home! You see her making up with a father that she hasn't seen in forever! You see her dealing, is what you see her doing! You're just upset that Maddie had a relationship before you and made a mistake. And you're upset that she didn't tell you! Well, boohoo! Get over it!" Cody yelled, completely outraged.

Zack had never saw his brother like that before. Well, yes, he had. After he ran away four years ago, he knew he was pretty pissed. He never asked why, though. He didn't think it was necessary, but maybe he was wrong. Zack knew that he was being a tad selfish, but maybe he had to do something selfish to make any progress at the moment. He knew he loved Maddie, but he also knew that he couldn't stay in Boston hoping for that mistake she made to disappear. He had to do something that made him feel good about himself. And he figured that if he helped his country he would feel better about himself.

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