Shots rang through the air and a scream of anguish was heard before Zack and his men hit the deck. They scrambled on the coarse desert grounds searching from where the blasts came from. He couldn't tell. And judging by everyone else, they couldn't either.

Jonathon, a young man about Zack's age that he had met in basic training, was suddenly screaming. Blood seeped out of his chest and all Zack could do was stare in fear from the ground. Sand blew into his corneas, but he did not take his eyes off of his friend.

Suddenly the air around him was filled with blasts. He looked around and all of his fellow soldiers were down. He panicked and looked around only to find himself being surrounded by the enemy.

Jumping up from his sleep in a cold sweat, Zack panted. It seemed so real. But as he looked around, he was still in his dorm room. The clock read 1:45 a.m. He sighed and launched his feet over the side of the bed and got up. He looked to the other bed in the room. Empty. He sighed again before heading across the hall to the coed bathroom to take a shower.

Damn that dream! I was so sure! Now…what the hell! I'm not ready to die, but I was so sure that it was the right thing for me now. he thought as he turned on the hot water and stepped in. He let the water trickle down his body, relaxing him and cleaning the sweat that had produced from his dream.

I don't know what Cody's problem is! He acts so stupid when I want to do something for me! God! What am I going to do? I was so set to march my ass up and volunteer today, but now with the damn dream and Cody, even…Maddie. Why the hell did she walk out of the room like that? No one thought I paid attention to her when she walked away, but I did. Neither did they notice that I was staring at her through the entire service and even when I was singing.

He turned off the water, stepped out, and dried off. He wrapped the towel around his waist and headed back across the hall. He knew it was early but he decided to go for a drive, so he got his clothes on and grabbed his keys before heading out.

After only a few minutes of driving he found himself in front of a familiar apartment building. He didn't know why he was there. It wasn't even 3 a.m., he knew everyone would be asleep, but he walked up to the floor where Maddie and London both had apartments. He stepped to London's apartment and was about to knock when he happened to glance down the hall to see a man exiting a familiar room. It was Maddie's.

She's already with someone else?…he thought sadly. He decided to find out. He walked down the hall, passed the tall, largely built man, with dark hair that had just exited. He knocked and a few seconds later Maddie opened the door. "Zack?" she asked curiously.

"Can I come in or do you want me to stand here all day?" he asked rather rudely.

"Yeah." she asked annoyed.

"Well so-rry! I thought I'd talk to you but I guess not! I'll see you when I get back then!" he yelled before turning on his heel.

"Zack, get back here!" Maddie demanded.

"Why? I guess you've found your new asshole…" he spoke sadly but directly, without turning.

He turned on his heel. If he had any doubts before about what he was doing, they were all gone in that fleeting moment. His love for Maddie would always remain, but he knew that he had to get away from it all. He had to clear his mind of Maddie, he couldn't live with seeing her and her new boyfriend everyday.

He knew what kind of guys she went for; assholes to the core. He couldn't bare seeing that everyday. He couldn't see her with another guy that treated her the exact opposite of what she deserved. He couldn't even see her with another guy period. He hated it. He was disgusted with the thought. He was disgusted with himself for even letting her go to begin with. He was an idiot.

The secret she held was so big before but seemed stupid now. But it really wasn't. She didn't want him in the way he wanted her. She just wanted him so she could have someone. She didn't want the real Zackary Martin. Not that she'd even take him back now. He had messed things up so bad that it would never work out. To think he even thought about engagement. That was how serious he was about their relationship, that obviously meant so little to her. How could she not want him after all the times she said how special he was and how much she loved him?

Zack's thoughts were going to the exact same place they did right after they broke up, as he walked down the hall. He hated himself for thinking that stuff, but at this moment they seemed like the only reality. Why else would she have found someone so quickly? Zack, being a guy, hadn't even thought about another girl so soon. But to Zack there was no other girl. There was only Maddie.

He reached the exit and let out a breath he hadn't realized he had been holding. He felt a lump in his throat as he realized he was saying good bye to his past, that past being Maddie. He was about to volunteer for something that may be his doom. It may be his end. And strangely that realization didn't hurt nearly as much as his realization that he and Maddie were over.

He got into his car and drove to his dorm. He walked in with a mission. He loved Maddie and he had to write it down. Not in a song. Not in a poem, but a letter. He wasn't sure how to do it, since he had never written a letter to anyone. Ever. He had only written songs. He made his way to his desk, pulled out paper and a pen, and began to write his heart out.

(A/N) Alright there's going to be 2 more chapters. I have two endings. I want to know if you want the really emotional sad ending or do you want the happy ending? Tell me what you think and review! Next chapter, "A Much Needed Talk" (It'll be a lot of Cody and London and Zack, Maddie will barely be in it. And on both the endings she is in it A LOT! And that chapter is going to be freakishly long! Alright review!