If love heals then why do I feel so distant?

Why do I feel like nothing I do is ever good enough?

Why I am so afraid of dying when I know I should just be living?

I should be living my life like there's no day but today

Instead I shoot up to make the pain go away

And I'm high

I feel my best when I'm on cloud nine.

When my drug addiction seems satisfied.

Satisfied?

I'm never satisfied

Not since they took her away

No.

Since they took her away I pretend to live

My life like there's no day but today

While I use my smack to make the pain go away

To make the pain go away

Is that all I want?

Am I that weak?

That desperate to forget

That I don't know what I want

That I can't remember how I got here?

Only where I am

I'll tell you where I am.

I may be high but I've hit an all time low

And I feel like I can't get enough

So I shoot up but the pain continues to grow

when it's over.

And I'm down

I'm back down to this shit hole I live in

This hell that I put myself through

And I try to make the best out of it

But it's nothing without her

Nothing without Angel