The Bitter Taste
Don't Let Go
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A/N: Lucas is going to have some kind of a dream world when he's in a coma (like Nathan did) Where everything is mixed up; sort of like a "what if" dream.
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W.J. Slim once said when you cannot make up your mind on which two evenly balanced coursed of action you should take-choose the bolder one.
Brooke walked into Lucas's room and sighed dramatically as she plopped down on his bed, "What do you need oh dearest friend?" She teased, and then saw Lucas's serious face; Brooke sat closer to him and saw that his cheeks were red, "Luke…"
"You're not going to be happy with me Brooke," Lucas said and then stopped to wipe his eyes.
Brooke put her hand on his shoulder, "Lucas," she said softly, "Just tell me what's wrong…We can fix it."
"No we can't Brooke," Lucas said regretfully, "I made one of the biggest mistakes of my life, and now it's coming back to bite me in the ass."
Brooke looked at him in confusion and rubbed his shoulder, "What happened?"
"Anna came by here a couple nights ago," Lucas began, "And she's pregnant Brooke…She's pregnant!"
Brooke hugged Lucas and rocked him in her arms, "Shh," she said, "Lucas it's going to be okay…"
"The last thing I ever wanted to do was upset you and Peyton," Lucas said as the hug broke, "And I did."
"It was a mistake Lucas," Brooke said as she stroked his cheek, "Do you even know if the kid is yours or not?"
Lucas shrugged, "She had the test and everything, but…"
"Get a paternity test," Brooke said, "I mean, that's the only way you'll know for sure right?"
Lucas nodded, "Yeah…Thanks Brooke," he said sincerely and then gave her a hug, "I'm going to call Peyton…"
"Lucas," Brooke began.
Lucas stopped her, "No…I have to be honest with her…I love her." Brooke nodded and then walked out of Lucas's room.
Lucas dialed Peyton's number and waited until she answered, "Peyton," he said.
"Hey Luke," Peyton said in slight confusion, "Are you okay?" She asked.
Lucas stood up and started to pace his room, "Actually, there's something that happened…"
"Oh my god," Peyton said, "Is everyone okay?" She asked; worried.
"Yeah," Lucas assured her, "Everyone's fine…I just…Anna came to me a couple nights ago and told me that she was pregnant, and she thinks the baby's mine."
The line was silent, all Lucas could hear was Peyton's faint breathing, "Wow," Peyton said, and then went outside, "Well I have some news for you Luke…Anna and Jake were engaged to be married," she said.
"You're kidding," Lucas said as he sat back down on his bed and groaned, "So I guess I was making a big of a mistake as you were," he pointed out.
Peyton sighed, "Don't beat yourself up about it," she said, "I knew that Jake was getting married, you didn't know that Anna was."
"I feel like shit," Lucas said and then closed his eyes, "This reminds me of back when you were pregnant," he said out of the blue.
Peyton's hands began to sweat, "We don't have to bring this up…" She said apprehensively.
"No we should talk about this," Lucas began, "I'm sorry that you had a miscarriage," he said, "I think that maybe the baby would've helped us out in the long run…"
Peyton felt her bottom lip quiver, "I have to be honest with you Lucas," she said as she gnawed on her fingernail.
"What do you mean?" Lucas asked in confusion.
Peyton started to cry, and wiped her eyes, "The baby wasn't yours," she said sympathetically, "It was Jake's."
"You kept this from me?" Lucas asked in anger, "How could you?" He screamed into the phone.
"I was going to tell you, but…" Peyton began.
Lucas punched a hole in the wall, "I don't want to see you anymore Peyton, and I don't love you," he said and then slammed the phone against the wall. He grabbed his coat and walked out and got into his car.
He drove down the road as the snow fell down quicker and quicker; Lucas's eyes burned with tears as he sped down into town. He didn't care anymore; he sped past the river court and saw a truck coming from his left. Lucas had a red light but that just made him step on the gas harder; he gritted his teeth and closed his eyes as the truck slammed into his car.
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Brooke sat in the waiting room of the hospital; she looked up and saw Nathan jogging towards her, "Hey baby," he said as the two of them kissed.
"They don't know if he's going to make it," Brooke said sadly as she held onto Nathan.
Nathan kissed the top of Brooke's head and rocked her side to side, "It's going to be okay Brooke," he said and then kissed her on the lips, "Lucas is strong, he'll pull through."
The doctor led them both into Lucas's room and they stood there; Brooke looked at Lucas and started to cry again, "The worst part is," she began, "Is that the doctor's think that he wanted to get his by the truck."
"What do you mean?" Nathan asked.
Brooke sat down and grabbed Lucas's hand, "There weren't any break marks on the road," she said, "It was like he knew that truck was coming, and that he wanted to be hit."
"Why would he do that?" Nathan questioned.
"I don't know," Brooke shrugged, "But I called Peyton, and she seemed to know that something was wrong when I told her…She's flying down now."
Nathan sat down beside Brooke and looked at his brother lying there; Brooke rested her head on Nathan's shoulder, "He's going to be okay," Nathan said softly.
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Lucas woke up in his bed and looked around his room, 'What a dream' he thought to himself as he rubbed his eyelids. He stretched out his arms and then walked into the kitchen, he saw Brooke over the stove with only one of his t shirts on.
"Brooke?" Lucas questioned.
Broke turned around and smiled at him, "Hey stud," she cooed, "Why didn't you stay in bed? I was going to bring you some hot cocoa."
"Brooke," Lucas began, "You're getting married to Nathan!"
Brooke busted out laughed and walked closer to Lucas, "Okay I don't know what drugs you're on, but last time I checked Haley was married to Nathan," she said and then kissed Lucas passionately.
Lucas backed away and put his hands on his head, "Okay Brooke…Are we drunk? Because last time we kissed we got in a lot of trouble!"
"Lucas," Brooke said slowly, "You…Are…Crazy! We had sex last night sweetheart," she said and then wrapped her arms around Lucas's neck, "You're my super hot boyfriend, and I'm your super hot girlfriend!"
Lucas pinched himself, and then smiled, "This must be heaven or something," he said out loud.
"You need to go back to bed," Brooke teased and then took Lucas's hand.
They went into the bedroom and Brooke got on top of Lucas, "You know what I love about you most?" Brooke asked.
"What?" Lucas said.
Brooke started kissing Lucas's bare chest, "You're personality," she giggled, and then nibbled on his ear lobe, "And the way you make me weak," she said and then they started to make out.
"Whoa!" They heard someone say.
Lucas looked over and saw innocent little Haley standing by the doorway with her hand covering her eyes, "Haley!" Lucas said and then gave her a hug, "Aren't you touring anymore?"
Haley gave Brooke a confused look, and Brooke shrugged, "He's been acting weird all morning."
"You're not singing anymore?" Lucas asked.
Haley and Brooke both laughed, "Luke you know that I'm tone deaf," she said and then hit him playfully, "Thanks for bringing that up though smart ass."
"Where's the hubby?" Brooke asked as she started to get some clothes on.
Haley smiled, "We were actually wondering if you two wanted to come to the café with us," she said.
"Sure," Brooke said quickly and then took Lucas's hand.
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Lucas watched as Haley and Nathan kissed each other when they entered the café; he scratched his head, still in confusion. Brooke took his hand again and they sat down in a booth.
"So how's pregnancy going for P. Sawyer?" Brooke asked Haley.
Lucas spit out his water, "Peyton's pregnant?" He exclaimed.
"Dude, are you on drugs?" Nathan asked him, "She's been pregnant for a couple months now…Her and Jake are married."
Brooke gave both Haley and Nathan a look, "Forgive my boyfriend here…He's been acting a little out of it this morning."
"Lay of the pot Luke," Nathan joked.
Lucas laughed slightly, "Sorry guys…Things have just been weird this morning you know?"
"Uh-oh," Haley teased, "What did you do to him Brooke?"
Brooke laughed, "I'll share some secrets with you later," she said and winked at Haley.
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Brooke and Lucas said bye to Haley and Nathan and walked towards the river court, "Do you and Nate get along okay?' Lucas asked.
"I guess," Brooke said in confusion, "That's a very random question…"
Lucas laughed, "I'm sorry," he said, "I was just wondering if you two were friends or not."
"Yeah we're friends," Brooke said and then shrugged, "I've never had an in depth conversation with the kid or anything, but I'd consider us friends," she said and then her eyes got wide, "Look who it is!" She exclaimed, "Miss. I'm-Pregnant-And-Moody," she teased.
Peyton walked up to them with a big belly, "Very funny," she said and stuck out her tongue, "Hey Lucas," she said nonchalantly.
"Peyton," Lucas said and then hugged her tightly.
Peyton looked at Brooke and she shrugged, "Nice to see you too Lucas," she said.
Lucas kissed Peyton passionately; the kiss broke and he looked around and saw that it was only him and Peyton. Peyton's belly returned to normal and they were standing in the middle of the river court.
"Peyton," Lucas said in a whisper and they kissed again.
Peyton stroked Lucas's cheek, "I love you Lucas," she said and then a little baby crawled towards the two of them, "It's our daughter," Peyton said; her voice faint, almost angel like.
"What?" Lucas exclaimed, "I thought you said the baby was Jake's?"
Peyton put her hand in Lucas's and kissed the top of his hand, "I've always loved you," she said, near to tears, "And I promise that I'll always love you."
Peyton started to back away and Lucas reached out to her, "Don't go!" He screamed, but Peyton was already gone, "Peyton!" Lucas screamed.
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Lucas screamed Peyton's name out and Brooke rested her hand on his chest, "Lucas," she said trying to calm him, "Lucas."
Lucas opened his eyes and saw Brooke standing over him, "How long have I been out?" He asked.
"About three days," Brooke said as she wiped the sweat off of his brow with a towel, "Are you okay?" She asked.
Lucas nodded, "I had the weirdest dream," he began, "You and I were dating, and Nathan and Haley were still married," he began, "And then Peyton…"
Peyton walked into the room and stood there with her hands in her pockets, "Hey Luke," she said nervously.
"Hey," Lucas said and then swallowed, "Brooke could you give us some time?" He asked.
Brooke nodded and then left the room; Peyton walked closer to Lucas and sat down beside him, "How are you feeling?"
"I think I have some broken bones," Lucas said, "And a broken heart."
Peyton closed her eyes and looked down at the ground, "It was wrong of me to keep the baby thing from you for all these years," she said, "But I was scared."
"I thought you loved me?" Lucas asked sadly.
Peyton grabbed Lucas's hand and rubbed it, "I do," she said as her eyes started to get glossy, "I've always loved you…"
"There's nothing more that we can do," Lucas said, "I think that we're over Peyton…"
Peyton nodded sadly and stood up, "I hope you get better soon Luke," she said and then wiped her eyes.
Peyton left the room and Lucas closed his eyes again, "I love you Peyt," he said to himself and then opened his eyes again
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