Chapter 2-The Haunts Of Ones Past
Inuyasha broke into a small run into the forest near the old estate from years past that he knew all too well as the pain in his heart was becoming too much for him to bare. He ran what he thought was pretty deep into the forest until he stopped somewhere along the way and found a log that was once an overturned tree. He then sat down in front of it resting his back against the wood as he slowly let tears of his sorrow filled eye come out for the first time in a long time. "Why? Why must I be cursed to be hated by both sides of the wall and not loved by anyone," said Inuyasha out loud even though no one was around to hear him...or so he thought.
A figure of the shadows appeared behind Inuyasha in the form of a woman with her long flowing black hair, her red and white priestess clothing, and a small swarm of white soul collectors. This being was the well recognized figure that was the undead priestess known only as...Kikyo. The undead priestess had never seen Inuyasha in his human state or that even had one for that matter, but had heard the rumors spoken by humans and some demons about the most guarded secret of a half-demon. She was sure her reincarnation along with the group he traveled with had seen it more then once and she was slightly angry at that, but for now she was curious as to why Inuyasha was here and why he was crying as it was something she had never seen him do. Realizing that she should confront him about this she made herself known to him by deliberately stepping on a twig hard making a loud snap of a noise. Inuyasha turned slowly around never expecting her of all people to see him like this as he was always brash, tough talking, and seemingly strong in front of her. However, even though he was surprised he didn't show it as much as the pain he was feeling just overpowered his surprise. "I never thought I would see someone as proud as you sitting here crying and drowning in your own sorrow Inuyasha," said Kikyo walking around the log and mentally cursing herself for sounding so harsh ash she face him in a better view within the forest.
She was however, slightly surprised and disturbed to see such depression in at such a degree that had she been alive it would have broken her heart. "I really don't really care anymore Kikyo what you think of me as it is irrelevant for both of us and you know it. Besides...isn't this what you wanted Kikyo? To see me like this all miserable so you could finally take me to hell with you? Well go for it as I have nothing to live for as it is," said Inuyasha as he lowered his head and slumped even more against the log shocking Kikyo over the fact that he would be so bold as to tell her to try and send him to hell with her.
'What happened since I've seen him? And why is he even human for that matter? I know he didn't use the sacred jewel as it is still incomplete. So what has happened to him that it could possibly destroy his spirit like this?' thought Kikyo as she just stared at Inuyasha not sure whether to be happy or to be sad or perhaps somewhere in-between...if that was even possible.
"Go on Kikyo. DO IT! What are you waiting for? Now's your chance so take it because you may never get another chance to do so," said Inuyasha who had hate, misery, sorrow, and pain so venomously edged into his voice that Kikyo almost thought that this was a whole different type of human being all together and felt she had to know the truth even if it some how hurt her in the process.
"Inuyasha what has happened to you? I have never seen you like this and I wish to know why you have lost the will to live," said Kikyo as their eyes met and Kikyo almost gasped as she saw his human eyes that seemed to scream pain at her.
"Very well Kikyo. Sit down and I will tell you everything, but I can promise you won't like what you hear," said Inuyasha in an almost near whisper before Kikyo sits down next to him still looking at him now with concern in her once cold eyes as Inuyasha told her everything.
(Back in the house)
The old man and host of this estate of a home Hiroshi was about to continue his side of story that Inuyasha could not when Kilala gently scratched her paw against the door. This clearly told them two things: One, it told them she wanted back in the room and two...that Inuyasha was not with her even though he should have been. Kagome got up and opened the door and saw Kilala glaring at her as the cat demon entered the room. It was obvious by the glare from Kilala that the feline had heard the conversation that Hiroshi had given recently about Inuyasha, the rosary, and Kagome's feeling's towards Inuyasha. It didn't take long for everyone to put two and two together to realize that if she heard it then so did Inuyasha. "We better go find Inuyasha and," said Kagome who was about to leave the room when Kilala hissed at the girl and growling deeply at Kagome in her little cat form telling her she would do no such thing.
"I suggest you listen to the little one their my dear as Inuyasha would probably not want you around him right now if he heard what was said in here while he wasn't in the room. Besides you ALL need to hear more about what happed all those years ago about what happen when Inuyasha went berserk after his mother died," said Hiroshi who motioned for her and Kilala to sit down.
The two did, but Kilala never let up her glare at the girl in the slightest and on more then one occasion bared her fangs at the reincarnation of Kikyo surprising almost everyone in the room. 'You are not going near him. EVER!' thought Kilala as she finally broke the glare to look at Hiroshi waiting to hear the story about Inuyasha.
"are we ready? (everyone nods) Good. What I'm about to tell you goes as follows from what I remember so many years ago," said Hiroshi as he began retelling the events that eventually led up to that fateful part of that day that the demon hate filled village was drenched in the blood of its own people.
(Flashback-The fateful day Sixty Five)
Hiroshi was very content that day yet he was still saddened by the loss of the previous elder and slightly disturbed by the new elder's (the previous elder's son) actions in the concerns of the half-demon Inuyasha. Now personally he had never had problems with Inuyasha as he had at the behest of his parents stayed away from Inuyasha, but in the times he had seen the half-demon he found the boy to be as harmless as any human child around. Granted the boy could fight after seeing a boy with a busted nose and then another with a damaged jaw done at the hands of the half-demon, but he had witnessed the attack happen and from what he saw Inuyasha was defending himself from at least 3 other boys that were much bigger then he was all of who, came up to him and began throwing things that were on the ground at him from small jagged rocks to sticks. 'Those stupid fools got what they deserved,' thought a young Hiroshi as he had remembered just how those three fools got what they deserved.
When the 3 boys that were picking on Inuyasha ran away Hiroshi had decided that he would have to investigate what the other parents would do so he followed them while he saw Inuyasha run off towards his home to seek refuge in his mother's sweet loving care. When the parents heard the "tall tale" the 3 boys told the parents were enraged that the "demon spawn" did that to their "honorable sons" and headed for the house Inuyasha and his mother resided in. When Hiroshi came home he told his parents what he had seen when compared to what the 3 boys had "experienced" and found his parents shock to be most interesting as well, It was sad in his mind as they knew their son wouldn't lie about such a thing as this and that Inuyasha defending himself was not to be expected at all of someone of demon blood. Fortunately, his words had stirred both his parent's hearts and since then they were nice and considerate to both Inuyasha and his mother. They even invited the two over for dinner a few times and Inuyasha found his first human friend and playmate in the entire village. When he came back from his walk in the forest he noticed people gathered at Inuyasha's home with a wide variety of farming tools now turned into weapons. "BURN IT DOWN! BURN IT DOWN!" yelled the voices of the small mob as someone started a fire in the house before running out of it seeing the place slowly, but completely consumed in flame.
It was then that Hiroshi saw the new village elder that was the previous elder's son started addressing the crowd outside the burning little house. "My friends the wretched half-demon's home is destroyed and the mother of a whore that brought him into this world is gone as well. When the spawn of evil comes home we will attack send him to hell with his mother!" said the man with his bloody sword raised above his head as if they had already achieved victory.
The crowd yelled in praise of the man as this was what they wanted from the start the moment the woman and her half-demon child entered the village. "Oh no Inuyasha is in trouble I have to...," said Hiroshi, but the sound of loud growl coming from the burning house as an unidentified shadowy figure with red eyes with slit like turquoise pupils with long fangs coming out of its mouth exited the fire.
It was Inuyasha, covered in blood, caring his blood soaked mother, and he looked like he was ready to kill everyone and everything in sight. As soon as the half-demon boy exited the house several steps afterwards the house came down to fire and ash while the vast if not considerable majority of the villagers who were involved in this little hate mob had backed away considerably from the growl Inuyasha was still making. The rage filled boy put his dead mother down to the side, closed her eyes, and then moved back to the area that was now filled with afraid, but still hateful villagers. "You had your fun. Now its time...that I had MINE!" said Inuyasha smiling in a psychotic manner that made all the villagers start getting more afraid then angry and began questioning their purpose behind this mission.
There scared filled thoughts were short lived as Inuyasha flexed his clawed hands that were down by his legs as he rushed forward with unknown speed slicing, biting, ripping, cutting, and more or less destroying all things in the forms of mortal flesh around him. The first unlucky villager to die at the hands of Inuyasha had half his face literally sliced off by the half-demon's claws in one swipe. Inuyasha then moved on to the closest person next to the first one ripping open another person's chest from one side of the "victim" after crashing into the second one knocking them to ground and delivering vengeance by using his other arm that was not completely covered in human blood. Inuyasha still in his frenzy then pulled out the heart and sunk his demon enhanced canines into it biting it in half. It was needless to say that the others villagers ran for their very lives screaming as they ran in sheer terror at the massacre Inuyasha was producing as he finished the small remaining half of the heart in his hand and jumped on a fleeing woman before cutting open her back and tearing out her spinal cord...skull intact with brain inside and eye balls included. 'Oh my god! I think I'm going to be sick,' thought Hiroshi as Inuyasha took the skull in his grip and crushed when his hand became a fist.
Hiroshi could only watch from a small distance as nearly all the villagers each one by one killed in a brutal fashion each one more terrifying then the last. Hiroshi could only run to his family's house where they would be hiding after hearing the screams outside and the carnage all around them. He was about half way their when something appeared in front of him he never wanted to see at that moment. It was Inuyasha with skin and flesh being of someone's face being sticking out of his clothed mouth as he chewed loudly all the while smiling showing some of his demon teeth. "Hello...my future mortal victim of decaying flesh. Did you think you can get away from me...do you? I dare you to give me a one good reason WHY I should even spare your mortal soul along with your little happy family from being just another decaying body of flesh like the rest of these villagers," said Inuyasha and he swallowed what ever piece of human flesh that was in his mouth.
Pl...plea...se. Please Inuyasha its...its me Hiroshi! Don't you... don't you remember...me? I'm your...only...only friend here in this...village. You and your...mother came...came over to...to our house...several...several times for...for dinner and...I...I've played...with you when...you got lonely. Surely that means...something?" said Hiroshi nervously as he dared not take a step back or take a step forward our of fear they would possibly be the last steps he ever took.
Inuyasha tilted his head ever so slightly to right smiling yet frowning at the same time as if contemplating is past memories of the boy to see if they were true. Fortunately, for Hiroshi...there were memories of the two in Inuyasha's head of them having fun and eating dinner with Hiroshi's parents who smiled at him with no hate in their eyes towards him. "It seems you got a lucky break mortal as your words are true according to the memories that are going through my head. Go to your family...old friend. Tell them they are safe from my wrath and I will leave here soon...after I kill the late elder's soon to be dead son," said Inuyasha before turning around and not far from where a still frightened Hiroshi could see was a lethally wounded man that was indeed the late Elder's son...without his right leg, left arm, and had his prized sword stabbing right through the right elbow and into the ground below it.
"Thank you for showing me mercy Inuyasha. Should you ever return to the village in the future you are most welcome in my house no matter what," said Hiroshi as he bowed low respectively before running like a bat out of hell to his home where his parents were now clearly scared to death till Hiroshi told them that Inuyasha spared him and them for being so kind to the half-demon and his mother.
At that time a painful scream was heard along with the sounds of tearing flesh and it was only later with Inuyasha and his mother's body gone, that Hiroshi saw the body or what remained of the late Elder's now late son. The man had his head smashed in, his jaw was removed, his arm gone, his remaining leg hollow with some skin hanging where a leg would normally be, and his chest to his lower abdomen were all hollowed out leaving nothing of his insides inside the shell of a human body. Not even his bones like ribs, the spinal column, or any other bones for that matter that a human body was supposed to have were not even their. It was then that Hiroshi finally couldn't take it anymore and puked up two weeks, 3 days, and his mid-moon snack he occasionally snuck in at night. In that moment Hiroshi had lost over fifty pounds of his body fat from puking from the carnage alone. 'How can someone unleash such rage filled power like this?' thought Hiroshi as his eyes became bloodshot from not blinking and his throat suddenly became dry from looking at all a enraged filled Inuyasha produced.
Several miles away a much calmed Inuyasha was by a stream bathing, still covered in blood, and had no memory of what happened to the village. All he knew for a fact was that his ever sweet, caring, and loving mother was dead and he was now...alone. After cleaning himself off he made a small grave in a secluded spot for her. He placed her in the grave before filling it up and placing a small marker with some rocks to tell others it was a grave. "I'm sorry mommy. I'm sorry I couldn't be the son you always wanted," said Inuyasha as he made his own silent prayer that she had taught him during his time in the village so he would know what to do in case she ever died, which in the beginning Inuyasha had protested saying she would never die as long as he was around causing her to smile at his boast that was noble, but for his age though had been childish all the same.
(End Flashback)
(A/N: Quite a flashback isn't it? If you're horrified and hate me or feel I exceed the rating tell me and I'll fix it. There is more of this chapter to go so don't stop...unless you have to puke yourselves.)
(In the Forest with Inuyasha and Kikyo)
"And that Kikyo...is what happened when I was a child. Do you still hate me?" said the human form of Inuyasha now staring at Kikyo, who at that moment in time was now in shock from hearing Inuyasha's tale of how he lost him other and how cruel the village had been to him.
"I had no idea," said Kikyo sadly as she knew half-demons were hated by both sides, but to attack him as a child and kill the mother just for giving him life out of spite of the half-demon himself.
(Back at the Estate)
I...I don't believe it. Inuyasha...killed how many?" said Kagome as she now realized that the demon side of Inuyasha attack only those who deserved to die despite having a thirst for blood that ran deeper the well between her world and this one.
"Inuyasha killed over 80 percent of the people in this village and he destroyed nearly 90 percent of the homes excluding this one. I imagine he did so out of respect of sorts for the old Elder who showed him and his mother such kindness. When rebuilding this village my father took over as Elder and when he passed on I took over in accordance with our traditions and thus it explains why I reside in this very house," said Hiroshi seeing their eyes go wider (if it were possible) then before and knew...Inuyasha had earned their respect if not love for him.
"I never saw a half-demon's world through that perspective before till now. Inuyasha...as of right now you have earned my respect at being both human and demon in more ways then you know," said Miroku who made a mental note to curse the souls of the villagers who hurt Inuyasha and his mother when he was a child.
"Oh man Inuyasha really took a lot from those people here and though its mean to say this I'm glad they all died and I'm glad Inuyasha killed them. If I had been put through the same thing as him, if possible I would have done what he did and killed them like he did back then. From now on I'm going to be more respectful to Inuyasha as I should have been in the beginning," said Shippo who was crying
"Inuyasha...to take such punishment from people as a child for so long...its only natural for your rage to take you to the next level," said Sango as she could feel his pain as it was like her own, but different and worse then she could ever want to know.
'I never thought Inuyasha had it so bad before we all met him. I have to go see him and let him know I'll always be beside him no matter what,' thought Kilala as she bolted for the door before anyone could do anything.
Kagome however, was having different thoughts and Hiroshi's old, but still sharp eyes saw it as clear as seeing the sun rise in the morning. 'What if Inuyasha transforms into this monster if I make him angry? What if he kills me in that demonic state for all the 'sit' commands I gave him? No he wouldn't do that! Right? How can I love THAT? Inuyasha was described as... a monster!' thought Kagome as she felt as well as believed that in order for her to protect herself from Inuyasha she would keep the rosary beads on Inuyasha till she was no longer needed in this time.
Even if Inuyasha didn't need it anymore Kagome was going to keep him under her tight control with a very careful and watchful eye...till she didn't need him anymore. Only then would she free him and that would be after she gave him one final "sit". Then she would be down the well to her world of normalcy with no demons, monks, demon slayers, and half-demons that go crazy when angry. Her world where she would sleep safely knowing that she would be free of Inuyasha afterwards through the well being sealed forever once she was in her own time where she belonged. By the time she registered all of this Kilala had a good head start over the rest of the surprised group before they went after her while trying to find Inuyasha at the same time. "Inuyasha...aside from the one strange girl you have found people that truly do love and respect you. Your mother would be proud of you my boy. I know I am," said Hiroshi out loud to the now empty room with a smile on his face as he took another sip of his drink as he now enjoyed the silence given to him.
(Moments later)
Kilala was into the forest in her transformed state faster then he had ever gone before in her life, but for the life of her for some reason she couldn't comprehend why her heart was giving off this weird feeling in concerns for Inuyasha. Granted she was filled with heartache for what happened to him and that was natural, but there was something else that she felt for him that she never thought possibly or was even plausible when she considered it when she discovered what this feeling was. It was love. It was 100 percent pure, untapped, ever beautiful love...and she enjoyed every second of it. It filled her heart knowing this was what love for another person felt like. 'Until I can tell him and express this love I must watch over him till the time is right,' thought Kilala she made her way through the forest as she smelled Inuyasha's scent grow stronger making her heart beat even faster.
Deciding not to scare him she shrunk back to her little cat form while still running and hoped he didn't frighten him when he saw her appear out of nowhere. She was about to enter a small clearing where her nose told her Inuyasha would be right their, but stopped when he heard two voices. One she knew was Inuyasha's, but the second made her heart nearly stop all together as she recognized as...Kikyo's. Fear took over Kilala's mind at the possibility that Kikyo was going to hurt Inuyasha again or worse take him to hell as the little cat demon had heard such things from the undead priestess herself on several occasions. However, unlike Kikyo's reincarnation she wanted to see if that would really happen and only should it come to pass would she interfere to protect the he loved. When Kilala got in close enough she could easily hear them speaking more clearly and saw the two sitting down next to each other rather...close for her taste and almost let out a small his or growl had she not restrained herself at the last moment. "You know when I was alive and I fell in love with you I always dreamed of what you looked like if you were to turn human using the sacred jewel. Now that I see you here like this I'm glad that half of my dream became fulfilled," said Kikyo leaning her head against his should and placing a hand on his chest.
"Only half your dream? What was the other half?" said Inuyasha in a calm whispery state as his depression and sorrow left him in that blissful moment with Kikyo even though it would not survive the morning.
"To be with you alive, you being human, us settling down, having children together, and then finally growing old while our children grow up and have their own," said Kikyo gripping his fire rat shirt harder as she leaned on him even more making Kilala who was watching this slightly angrier then before.
"That's a pretty big half Kikyo. I think I can make it up to you though if you don't mind pretending," said Inuyasha who had a gentle smile on his face though it was hard to see even by Kilala and even Kikyo who looked at his face in slight surprise at his words.
"Pretend? Pretend what Inuyasha?" said Kikyo who was more to say curious about what he was suggesting.
"Let us pretend just for tonight that you and I are all those things with the exception of having children and just sleep together in each other arms with the fact that I am your loving human husband ad you are my loving living wife. Just for tonight we will be in each others arms, pretending that it is fifty years ago, in the past in a place where Naraku, or the sacred jewel does not exist, and the only thing that matters is the two of us. How does that sound?" said Inuyasha knowing this could help heal a good deal of emotional wounds that were more like scars between them.
Kikyo was speechless as she didn't know what to say nor did Kilala (if she could speak) as the cat demon did the only thing she could do at that moment was watch as Kikyo just nodded and snuggled up to the human form of Inuyasha. The said person now draped his human arms and hands over her sealing the embrace that they had wanted from each for over 50 years. 'If it's just for this one night that I be with him like this...then I don't want to be living as one of the undead in this world tomorrow,' thought Kikyo as she and a now human Inuyasha went into a peaceful sleep forgetting everything that had caused their once loving relationship to fall apart.
Kilala wanted to cry when she saw them together, but decided against it for they would hear her as they fell to sleep embracing the other and because she knew she still had a chance with Inuyasha. How? The sacred jewel as she heard Kikyo's words along about having Inuyasha human while comparing it to Inuyasha claiming he wanted to be full demon with it. Meaning if she helped Inuyashas get the sacred jewel she could use it to become a half-demon for him and be with him like she wanted to be. 'I just have to make him realize how much I love him before we get the sacred jewel and then maybe…just maybe...my wish to be with him will be granted,' thought Kilala as she turned around and silently walked away from the two to make sure that the others stay away from them till morning as this night was Inuyasha's and Kikyo's one special night that was long over due for the both of them.
(A/N: WHOA! That was a long S.O.B of a chapter. Okay you guys I got your reviews and as it stands now Kilala is (surprisingly) in the lead nearly uncontested with 2 votes out of 5 reviews for her and 1 for Kikyo while two others (one was a PM) didn't vote. Oh well maybe they will later who is really to say or tell. (I'm actually surprised no one even voted for Sango) All right ladies and gentlemen you all know the score and I'm waiting to hear from all of you again. Now as a precaution so I don't get anyone send abuse's involving me (god forbid). In this review I just need to know if I should up the rating from T to M or not? Due to all the violence I described with little Inuyasha doing evil things to the stupid villagers I feel I may not have the rating high enough so I need input on that. Thanks! Keep on reviewing.)
Next Chapter: Its morning Inuyasha wakes up a half-demon, sees Kikyo in his arms, they talk briefly, he heads back while she looks at him leaving, Inuyasha is back in the village, and things go pretty bad. (Better then it sounds)
