I considered going to visit my dad in the hospital,I mean I was the one who stabbed him,but I decided against it.I mean,I just couldn't see him.He deserved it,but I just couldn't bare to see anyone like that.In the critical condition he was in I wasn't sure what I might do.So I decided not to go see him,the doctors urged me to,since he was my father,but I just couldn't bring myself to do it.I couldn't stand to see him,after we had finally gotten away, after all those years of him beating up on me,after I had finally gotten my revenge.
My mom filed for a divorce,and we moved back to the house.Odds were my dad would be in jail for awhile after he got out of intensive care.We went on living as usual,school everyday,homework,shower,dinner bed. Then one day I talked to her again.The one with that familiar smile,and blue eyes,and blonde hair.
"Hi,Tony.I heard about your dad...I'm real sorry." She said softly.
"Yeah,well whatever.Is that all you wanted?" I said dryly.
"Well,no but...Look Tony if you don't want to talk to me just say it and I'll go!" She said,heatedly.
"Alright then,I don't want to talk to you." I said in a low dangerous voice.
"Fine,at least just read this!" She said sadly,and handed me a white folded piece of paper.
I slipped it into my history book,and went to class.
It was a pretty normal day that day, aside from the fact that my father wasn't there. We still hadn't gotten completely used to the fact that we would not have a father for the next while at least. After dinner I decided to go do some homework. I opened my history book and the note fell out, I wondered if I should read it or just throw it out. Caryn had had her chance to make up, she didn't want to. I decided that I would wait until I was ready to read it, and that was when I would. No sooner than that. I stopped doing my homework when I heard Lyndsey softly crying in her bedroom.
I went to her room and knocked on the door, "Come in." She said.
"What's wrong, Lynds'? You miss Dad?" I asked."No, No that's not it Tony.What are we gonna do? "What are we gonna do when he gets out? He'll find us! And we don't have that much money left as it is! What are we going to DO Tony!" By the end of this sentance she was nearly yelling at me. And then I said something that even suprised myself, I said "Lyndsey,it's going to be all right. Some day, some how we're going to make it alright? Just not right now." Lyndsey smiled and gaveme a hug,and I went downstairs to finish my homework. It was weird sitting in the living room. Knowing that I had nearly killed my own father, my own flesh and blood, in that very room. It creeped me out.
I was finished my homework, and I just sat on the coach, thinking for three hours. Then Mom got home and I helped prepare dinner. While I was eating dinner I made the decision. After dinner I would go up to my room, and I would read the note from Caryn. Whether it's good or bad, I thought, nothing can be as bad at what has happened in the past week for me. Once again,I was wrong.