A/N: Hi!

So here's my first angst-ff. I hope I can make it angsty enough… If I really write everything I've planned in my storyline by now I somehow feel sorry for Anko and Kakashi.

Disclaimer: not mine

Haunting pasts

Chapter one

Anko slumped down on her bed. The last mission had been really tough and right now all that she cared about was to finally be able to sleep. The moment she closed her eyes she was fast asleep. She found herself within her dream inside a forest. It seemed familiar to her she just couldn't remember why. Shrugging inwardly she went on looking around and forgetting completely that she was only dreaming. Suddenly the scenery changed: All went dark and the once beautiful forest turned into a dark, rotten cave illuminated in a pale green light. Everywhere around her there were rotten, dead-looking snakes hissing angrily. Then behind her a shadow arose from the surrounding shadows taking in the form of the snake-man who now spun her around, took her by her neck and lifted her. He smirked…

Anko shot her eyes wide open and sat up breathing heavily. She was beaded in sweat and the cursed seal she had gotten from Orochimaru badly hurt. Though she wondered why. Maybe it was just because of the lack of sleep she had lately. She laid back and pulled the pillow over her head trying to ignore the dull pain coming form her juin. She wanted to sleep so badly. Just sleeping, not even dreaming. But unfortunately it wasn't that easy. Images from her nightmare kept sneaking into her mind again and again. The more she tried to forget them the more of them came back. So that she spent the rest of her night tossing and turning fitfully in her bed at maximum half asleep.

No wonder that she still felt dreadful tired when she got up the next morning. She thought of drinking coffee so that she wouldn't fall asleep during the day but decided against it. This stuff was just too bitter for her liking. Why couldn't anyone invent a coffee that tasted sweet? Another day after another night she would've went to the dumpling store to get something for breakfast but she didn't really felt hungry so she just went on a little walk.

She sighed looking at the gray sky. It would be raining soon. She wondered why her seal had started hurting again after all the time. On cue it started hurting again. "Fuck!" Anko cursed gritting her teeth. Closing her eyes she calmly counted back from ten. Ten… nine… eight… seven… six… five… four… three… two… one… the pain was gone. This was the only thing she could do when it was hurting. Sometimes it worked. But she never did it if someone was around. She didn't like to have her eyes closed in the presence of another person. As long as she was able to control the pain, hide it, it was all right. No one needed to know how she felt. Looking up to the gray sky once more she saw a bird. Sighing she made her way to the Godaime's office.

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The copy-ninja was standing at the memorial stone where so many names of shinobi who died during a mission were engraved. He read there the name of his best friend. Yes, he was only there because of his best friend. Obito died under his leadership. If he – Kakashi - had been a better leader this would never have happened. He remembered that they never had gotten along with each other. They had been always fighting back then yet they still had been best friends though neither of them had realized it until it had been too late. If he had been stronger his friend maybe would never had died. Above him a bird flew in circles trying to tell him that he should go to Godaime's office, immediately. He ignored it.

It started raining – first there were only a few drops but soon it was pouring. Again Kakashi read the name. 'Uchiha Obito'. His friend had been one of the famous Uchiha-clan. Now Kakashi possessed what the clan had been proud of: the Sharingan. He was even known as the 'copy-ninja'. A bitter smile appeared on his masked face as he clenched his fists so hard that blood came out where the fingernails dug into the flesh. He was only known as the 'copy-ninja' because he had Obito's Sharingan, only because he died there. He really wished that he could give back the Sharingan along with his 'title' but there was no way that it could bring Obito back to life. The bird screamed. Its scream was so shrill it cut Kakashi's thoughts off and made the jounin look up again. Knowing that it wouldn't give up he turned heading for Godaime's office. While walking he smelled blood and noticed that he was the one bleeding. Just put his gloves on so that no one could see it.

Xxx

Tsunade was sitting in her chair inside her office with plenty of paperwork on her desk. In front of it Anko was waiting for the always-late jounin also known as Hatake Kakashi. Tsunade sighed inwardly thinking that next time she should call Kakashi one hour before his teammates. Outside it was pouring. The fifth Hokage looked back at Anko and also noted that she should let Anko stay a night or two at the Konoha-hospital after this mission. She was much too pale and, completely unlike she used to be usually, quiet. Maybe she should ask Kurenai whether she had noticed something or whether Anko had mentioned something. It was quite useless to ask Anko. She would even say that she was absolutely alright if there was a gaping wound in her stomach. She was definitely too stubborn. Anko yawned as she looked out of the window.

Then there was a knock on the door and Kakashi stepped inside. He must have been outside in the rain for quite a while because he was soaking wet.

"Kakashi, you're late." Tsunade stated looking at him.

"Sorry, I got lost on the road of life." He apologized smiling but shifted uncomfortable under the sharp gaze of the Hokage. Tsunade knew there was more to it but she didn't ask. She didn't have the time to ask or to say it more precisely to wait for an answer. If Kakashi had decided to keep something secret it would need an interrogation-specialist and at least a half day before she got a precise answer – and she was the Hokage. Anko and Kakashi were both far too stubborn in their own ways. So she let it be and just told them their mission.

"Listen up you two!" Both jounins looked at her. "The Grass Country's feudal lord asked us to assassinate a criminal who committed a massacre three days ago. We've gathered some information and it appears that he is most likely Warui Akuma, a missing Iwa-nin." She held up a photograph. It showed a huge, red-haired man with scars all over his body and he looked like one (or more) of his relatives was a gorilla. The copy-ninja took it. "I want you two to leave immediately for Grass Country and to take care of that guy. But don't forget this is a S-class-mission so be careful." Both jounins nodded before they disappeared. Godaime sighed. She wondered whether she should send another jounin after them. Maybe a medic-nin like Shizune. But Anko and Kakashi were experienced shinobi and could look after themselves; it was just that she had a bad feeling about this mission. Sighing again she concentrated on her still unfinished paperwork. God, she hated paperwork.

Xxx

Anko was waiting at the west gate of Konohagakure in the pouring rain. She didn't care to look for any shelter because she was already soaking wet anyway. She liked it when it was raining. She used to take little walks in the rain. Then it was so calm outside and the streets were empty. That's maybe because she liked it. She was known as loud, insensitive and short-tempered but only a few knew how she really felt. Coming to think about it she figured that in fact no one knew. Not even Kurenai although she was supposed to be her best friend. But she didn't blame Kurenai for it. She always tried to understand Anko but her friend just didn't let her. It started raining harder.

Her thoughts drifted back to her never punctual teammate. She often saw him on her little walks on these rainy days. He was always standing at the memorial stone seemingly lost in his thoughts. Sometimes she stopped there and watched him for a while from the distance. This way it was still as calm as always but for some reason she didn't feel left all alone although she didn't know why. Just then her silver-haired appeared next to her and without a word they left. Since they wanted to arrive in Grass Country the next day and the ground was muddy, which would slow them down, they leaped from tree to tree. Because of the rain the branches were wet and slippery so that they had to be extremely careful otherwise the mission could end before it started.

Xxx

After the two leaf-nins had traveled the whole day they sat up a camp for the night. The rain had stopped a while ago for which Anko was grateful. It wasn't fun to sleep outside in the rain. And now sitting under a big tree with a little fire between them they ate in silence. There was nothing to talk about and Anko didn't feel like talking anyway. So Anko stared into the fire letting her thoughts drift away. Before she even noticed her thoughts came back to the dream, no nightmare, she had had the last night and her seal immediately reacted with a throbbing pain shooting through her body. Kakashi looked up. Almost out of reflex her body stiffened and her face became emotionless. Se was determined to hide her from Kakashi and from the rest of the world. But it wasn't that easy to fool a jounin. "Are you alright?" He asked. She used a fake-smile. "Yeah, yeah; I'm okay. But I guess I'm going to sleep now." Kakashi didn't say anything but he seemingly didn't believe her. For now they both went to bed, maybe he would come back on this later.

TBC

A/N: So the first chappy is done:D Please click the tiny button to the left and leave me a tiny review if you don't mind. lol

See ya

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