A/N: Hi!
I honestly don't know what I was thinking starting an angst-ff. It's pretty troublesome and I even don't know whether I can make it angsty enough… mendokuse. If you have any ideas how to make it angsty just tell me, maybe it will help. But enough of that; here's the second chappy.
Chapter two
It was a large forest there. And she was somewhere in the middle. Anko didn't know why she was there but she felt that what she had originally planned to do was important, maybe even more important than her life – though this didn't mean much. But nevertheless for some reason she still couldn't what it was. Why was she here alone in the middle of a dark, big forest? She only knew two disturbing things: her heart was pounding like mad and the cursed seal was throbbing again. Her instinct, or was it her subconscious, told her to go north and her body obeyed though she wondered how she could find her way through. Because the moon wasn't even half and clouds were covering most of the sky it was unnatural dark around her. Maybe she wasn't seeing but feeling her surroundings. It was strange. She knew something was completely wrong with… with everything but what it exactly was she didn't know. She reached a familiar place. Wait 'familiar'? Yes it was familiar but why? Everything around her seemed so blurred. Only her subconscious knew the meaning of this but it made her tremble – in fear? What was it she was afraid of?
The answer immediately came in form of an agonizing pain coming from her juin. "Argh!" She couldn't suppress the sudden outcry. Why did she have to ask she thought angrily. Anko held the juin with one hand but that didn't ease the pain. It even intensified when her former sensei appeared in front of her. When the sannin stepped closer smirking her legs couldn't bear the weight of her body anymore so that she fell down on her knees. "Get lost!" She shouted trying to sound brave but it only made him smirk wider. She was completely forlorn and they both knew it. She hated herself for that. Hated herself for being paralyzed because of this little pain, hated herself for being helpless again. After he had cast her off like trash she had sworn never to be like this again, never to be at someone's mercy again. Yet she was. Anko desperately tried to get up, tried to force her legs to move but she lost the control over her body. The sannin stopped in front of her, still smirking, and touched her cheek as he asked if she was jealous.
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Kakashi woke up from a soft moan coming from the left side. Since Anko had her back to him it took him a moment before he realized that it had been from her. He sat up and inched closer to see if she was alright. He didn't liked what he was seeing: her body was bent as if she was in pain and sweat was covering her skin plus she was again paler than she usually was. He called her name… No reaction. He called her name again louder this time. But still she didn't really react. She only shifted her position so that she was now lying on her back. Not one sound escaped her mouth but Kakashi could see, knew, that she was screaming inwardly. She was obviously just having a nightmare but even so Kakashi couldn't help feeling worried. More out of habit he felt her pulse. His heart skipped a beat as he noticed that it was far too high, even if she was having a nightmare. He had to wake her immediately. Whatever she was dreaming it was affecting her physically and he didn't want to find out how much stress her body could endure. He shook Anko carefully, calling her again. This time she turned her head away but he didn't let her. Gently he touched her cheek and made her turn back and calling her again.
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Orochimaru was in front of her smirking as he called her name. Wait, something was wrong with his voice. Anko blinked. What was going on? The face of the man in front of her changed. When her confused mind found the way back to reality she found herself lying on the ground with her silver-haired teammate next to her looking somewhat worried. Realizing that she was shaking she told her body to stop it. Of course without any effect. But after she took a deep breathe it stopped. Then she sat up. (Kakashi had taken his hand away before she had the chance to notice.) "I hope I didn't wake you from a good dream." The copy-ninja joked. Anko only smiled back weakly. She should really stop dreaming stuff like that – it was too exhausting. Just when she was about to sigh relieved that it was over her seal suddenly started throbbing again. It made her flinch. But still she just clenched her sleeping back staring stubbornly down at her hands. Once she had decided to hide her pain from someone (almost everyone) she would hide it up to the point where it was no longer possible. Too bad there was this experienced jounin around…
"Does your juin hurt again?" He asked laying on hand on hers.
She pulled it away. "No it's nothing." She lied.
He sighed before he asked with a sad smile on his face. "We're in the same team Anko, do you really need to hide your pain from me?" She just lay down without saying another word and turned her back to Kakashi.
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Again the jounin sighed as he lay down, too. She was really too stubborn, not once telling the truth about how she was feeling – though in that point he wasn't better. This remembered him of something. In a time before he had gotten his, no Obito's Sharingan they (he, Rin and Obito) had been on a mission and it hadn't went all too smoothly. In fact he and Obito had been gravely injured but neither of them had admitted. Soon they had argued.
'I'm fine but you're too badly wounded to continue with this mission!' Kakashi had shouted.
'Don't make me laugh! You're the one bleeding while I'm not injured at all!' Obito had snapped back.
This had been the time when Rin had given them a wise advice. 'Kakashi, Obito, please calm down.' She had said her hands raised calming. 'We're in the same team you know, so it's not only stupid but dangerous if we don't know the real condition of our teammates.' It had been a wise advice indeed. But the two of them had been too stubborn to listen. So only a brief moment later they had argued again.
Now Kakashi regretted that he hadn't been listening. If he had listened to his comrades more often they maybe would still be here. They say you never know how precious something is until you've lost it. It was true. He never had noticed that he had had a best friend until he had lost him. He shook his head trying to get rid of these thoughts. There was no use in thinking about the past. They were dead and thinking about it wouldn't change the situation no matter how much he wished. The only thing that he could do was live with it or die. And he had no intention of dieing although it would make things easier. Again the copy-ninja shook his head. Why was he even bothering? The only thing that should now matter was the present, the mission, and not the past. The mission was the only thing that mattered! Angrily he stood up and jumped at a nearby tree. He hated himself for even thinking this. Why couldn't he just stop thinking and sleep. Without dreaming or thinking or remembering… He decided that he maybe should just count the stars. Or let Obito see them. So he uncovered his Sharingan. He stayed up there until he had calmed down a little and was able to find some rest.
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After Kakashi had fallen asleep Anko turned on her back. In opposite to Kakashi she wasn't lightly sleeping – she wasn't sleeping at all. Too high was the risk of having another one of those nightmares. She knew she possibly couldn't stay awake forever but had enough time to worry about it later. Maybe after this mission. She also knew that she was acting extremely childish – not wanting to sleep because she's afraid of having nightmares just like children are afraid of the monster under the bed. That was obvious. But such a nightmare left her weak and vulnerable and even if it was her teammate she didn't want anybody to see her like that. She looked up to the stars. The clouds from earlier were gone and now the sky was clear. She remembered that Kakashi had watched the stars too. At least she wasn't the only one who had a problem with falling asleep. She wondered why she hadn't joined him. Just watching him from the corner of the eye and pretending to be asleep hadn't been interesting. There had always been this ravine between them. Not wide, just deep. But that was enough. Neither of them dared to jump over it because what if they would fall? It was definitely safer if they kept the distance between them. Anko sighed frustrated and searched in her bag for something that she could read so that she hadn't to think anymore. This was going to be a damn long night…
TBC
A/N: So chapter two is done… sigh how troublesome
So now that I've finished another chappy please review. :D
Reviews are the only reason why I'm not too lazy to update eg
Thanks to ANBUKakashi, Endless Snow, fire.elve, DancingPickle101, Arezal, Utter-Insanity, sehellys and thunder-sister for reviewing.
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