The Mystery of Onyx Eyes

Chapter 6

Wish

In the darkness which surrounded me wholly I listened to the crackles of a fire. In the dark where I allowed myself to be weak, where the truth came into the light. After all these things I never knew that I was still hoping he would return my feelings. That he would miss me and cry for my absent.

I never knew that I was running after a lie and all that I had left were sad memories. In my current life where I felt as alone as ever. The only things I had left were sad memories.

Memories which told the truth about Neji's feelings for me, that he will never love me.

I wish he would have killed me long ago. I only wanted to die by his hands. I didn't want to die by a stranger it would be a nightmare.

I wanted to die by the person I loved the most. Right now it felt like the happiest thing which could happen. I wanted my blood to run over his skin, him to hold my body why I was dying with a smile.

Right know that was my only wish.

"Sakura…Sakura." I heard someone saying my name softly.

My whole body ached as I squirmed. Opening my eyes my vision was a red blurr. Slowly my eyes cleared and I found myself laying in a bed with thin white sheets and blankets.

I felt the raw bandages which scratched against my skin. They were bandaged carefully around my body.

"Where am I?" I muttered to myself quietly.

"Are you awake?" Asked a deep voice, startling me slightly. The voice was like milk gentle, soft yet confident and strong. It was very different from Sasuke's. His was rough, also deep, velvety with a hint of thirsting for blood and mystery.

I would have recognized it anywhere.

The voice which spoke to me belonged to him. Neji. He sat on a wooden chair in front of a fireplace. His arms were crossed over his chest. His handsome face with soft features was illumated by the fire behind him.

The skin of his was pale and flawless and so incredible smooth. His long moccha coloured hair gleamed with brighter streaks, so tempting to burry your face in the tresses.

White eyes gazed through me, taking over my heart.

Then he stood up, walking to my bed. Then he sat on the edge of it, next to my head.

"Why did you help me?" I asked.

"Didn't you want me to?"

I wanted you to help me all ago.

"But I betrayed Konohara."

No signs of anger or hate displayed on his face. Ignoring what I said he asked

"Do your wounds hurt?" No real concern was behind the question. He just asked because it was a courteous thing he had to do.

But it was still strange. How ironically that the same man who inflicted me the wounds on purpose, was the same one who bandaged me. Now sitting next to me and asking if they hurt.

"A little." They are nothing compared to the ones in my heart.

"Don't worry the medical herbs are going to heal them, but unfortunately they don't have a numbing effect. Just bare with it."

My small hands clenched the blanket. "Why? Why do you care?"

"Why are you are asking?"

"Because I always thought you hated me."

"No I never hated you." Liar you always hated me more than anyone.

"Liar." The word rolled playfully off my tongue like Sasuke did once.

"It's the truth."

"Then why… why did you always looked at me with disgust?" As if I was nothing worth…

Back then I wouldn't have cared how much I had to suffer as long as you loved me. You wouldn't have needed to be seen with me. As long as you were willing to be at my side would have been enough for me….

It would have been enough if you were with me…

I didn't want anything else.

"I'm sorry." He said. His eyes were sad. "You always reminded me of myself."

I looked questioningly at him.

"I used to be like you too, so weak and pathetic. When I fought against other Hyuugas my age for practise I always lost and in the end I got beat up. My farther was sad because of that and said the same cruel words.

So everything I said wasn't directed at you but myself. I meant only myself."

My light green eyes widened. His words shocked me to no end. He was just like me.

Just like me….

I stiffened into a sitting position. So the blanket lowered to my stomach. Neji's eyes were hide behind the shadows as he looked down.

"It's my fault that you are gone." His voice hide in the shadows.

And then suddenly he wrapped his strong arms around me, pulling me into a tight hug, almost crushing my still injuried body. But it didn't hurt. I felt nothing.

My chin rested on his fabric covered shoulder as his arms encloused mine. I inhaled his intoxin smell. He smelled like mint and with a hint cinnamon.

My hands rested on the bed, my fingers were curled. I didn't struggle or hugged him back.

"Sakura please come back." He whispered in a moment of darkness.

"I can't."

"Of course you can. I will talk to the Hokage. I'm sure she will make an expection for you."

"Why would she do that? I already killed people from Konohara. Not only shinobis but also little girls." But they were torturing another one. They deserved to die.

I felt his body shaking for a moment.

"Why…? Where is… where is the Sakura I know from the past?"

My eyes dulled and my voice was heavy as I said "She is gone and will never come back."

"SAKURA!" He screamed desparetly. He released me from the very firm hug and grabbed my shoulders.

"She is gone Neji. Forever, I'm sorry."

I'm sorry but I love you. I still love you.

His hands dropped from my shoulders hitting the bed softly.

"Do you love me Neji?" His eyes widened and he sucked breath in at my sudden question.

How can you ever love a girl like me? I'm just despiseable just like you said.

And as excepted their was no love in his eyes. Just remorse for what you did to me and that you are the cause my betrayel on Konohara.

You are now thinking if I just protected her nothing of this would have happened.

But you didn't protect me. And it all happened. Some things can't be undone.

There was nothing but silence in the room.Then two warm, large hands cupped my cheeks, which was covered beneath pink hair.

Our eyes meets and his were as sad as ever.

"One time I almost killed my cousin in a chuunin exam. I almost killed Hinata-sama in my blind rage. I don't want to lose you."

His words had the purpose to soothe me but they didn't. They couldn't.

He leaned close to me and his lips neared mine. They came closer and closer.

Suddenly Sasuke's image appeared in front of my eyes. He was smiling at me.

Smiling…

Liar….

Another liar…

I lowered my head, causing Neji to freeze in the air. Understanding what I wanted he leaned back. Relieved.

Pain….

I'm in pain…..

Lies… so many lies that I'm drowning.

All I have left are sad memories. Neji will never love me and I can't go back now. Sound isn't a home for me. Everyone is hating me, no one would cry if I died.I'm sick of this life. I don't want this life anymore. Nothing ever goes the way I want. No mattter how hard I try.

I touched Neji's hand, resting mine above his. Slowly I leaned close to him. My chin was above his shoulder and my head slightly rised. Bangs covered my eyes as I whispered softly into his ear "Kill me Neji."

In this moment that was what I wanted the most. I would have been the most happiest person if I was killed by him.

I felt him startling but suddenly he yanked his hand off mine and pinned me on the bed. He pinned my wrists in a death grip on the mattress and kneeled above me. My body was between his legs.

He stared down at me, gnashing his teeth. "Why? How can you say that? How can you ask me to kill you?"

"Because my life means nothing to me."

"Don't say that. Don't fucking say that."

I smiled creepily. "Would you cry if I died?"

"Of course I would. Of course I would…" That would only mean you would be sad. He trailed off his grip losing on my wrist.

Sliping my hand out of his grasp, I raised it to touch his cheek.

"But this isn't enough for me." I'm sorry but it really isn't enough for me.

"I want you to be unable to live without me." That's what I really want, my real wish.

"I'm selfish aren't I?"

He gave no answer.

"Don't say anymore. Go home."

I did what he told me.

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It was midnight and then late morning as I arrived the hut where Sasuke stayed. Birds chirpings filled the clear blue sky. I walked along the green grass field inhaling the fresh air.

My vision was disturbed by a certain raven haired man.

"Where have you been Sakura?" He hissed, but behind his anger was concern and fear for me hidden. As if he was afraid that something might have happened to me.

I noticed that his whole body was covered with huge deep gashes and bruises. The purple and red mixture contrasted extremely with his pale skin.

He looked surprised as he saw my bandaged body but then he narrowed his onyx eyes.

"Who bandaged you?"

"Neji." I answered not knowing what kind of reaction I caused from him. I didn't except this answer to make him that furious.

His onyx eyes turned a dark crimson, so furious I thought it would rip me appart.

Which Sasuke did. Almost.

Suddenly he appeared in front of me and grabbed my hair roughly, pushing me forcefully down. A short scream left my throat and my knees hit the soft grass. I struggled to get out of his grasp but he was too strong. He was still strong despite his injuries.

"I see.

Look. Do you see these injuries? I got a beating because you ran away. So it's just fair if you receive one, too. Don't you agree, Sakura? Traitorous little blossom. I see I have thaught you well."

So that was the reason why he was so angry. He thought because Neji treated my wounds, I betrayed him. But why was there jealously in his voice.

He wasn't angry because he got a beating from Orochimaru because of me.

"What did that bastard do? Did he whisper pretty words into your ear or did he touch you? Or did he fucked you already? Tell me would you hate me if I do the same? If I took you by force? What would you do if I forced you to something against your will, little Sakura?"

I would let you. Beyond doubt.

His grip tightened and I flinched slightly. He chuckled and I heard him smirking afterwards. I could image how the corners of his lips slowly twitched upwards.

I stared down, my fingers clutching the grass tightly. My heart pounded and a prickling sensation spread over my skin, tiggered by his words. A tantalizing excitement burned in me.

The thought of him ravishing me, forcing himself on me, was titilating and terrifying at the same time.

Images of his hot lips running over my naked skin enticed my mind. It was something beautiful which would give me temporary freedom from my tortured life.

Then I realized I wanted him to touch me.

"Would you hate me if I did?" Sasuke asked, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"No..." I whispered. I would love it.

"Why?"

"I could never hate you. I never regretted meeting you, not even for one second." I was always glad that you walked into my life.

"Do whatever you want with me." I'm yours.

His grip loosened and then he let go of my hair, the tresses slipping through his fingers.

His knees slammed on the ground, sinking on the same level with me. His arms flew around me, wrapping themselves tightly around the back of my neck.

"You are so stupid. I will make you regret. I will make you regret it for sure. I will do the most horribliest things to you. I will make you suffer."

You can't make me suffer, because it's you who is hurting me.

"You will crawl to me and beg for mercy. I will hurt you and-"

The only way to hurt me is to disappear from my life, Sasuke.

"I will never let you go."

And suddenly one of my deepest wishes which hide deep inside me became true. A wish I didn't even knew it existed. I didn't even know I wished him to do that.

Sasuke's lips locked with mine, brushing against them roughly and hard. Suffocated noises escaped my covered mouth. The kiss was demanding and possessive yet there was an underlying thrill and concern.

Then he forced his tongue into my mouth, letting it dance around mine rawly, aggressively and spicily. Our slavia mixed together during the process.

After all these years I think I grew accustomed to him. Maybe he was even a replacement for Neji. I didn't know. Yes that's right Sasuke, make me forget about him. Make forget everything about Neji.

Make me forget...

One of his hands fumbled with the buttons of my top and in reflex I grabbed the front of his shirt. But his other free hand grabbed my wrist, holding it in the the air. His hand unbuttoned one button after another and slided in my shirt.

Sasuke's hand fumbled and carrassed my breast softly, while holding one of my wrist. He continued kissing me, ravishing my mouth.