I love him, I truly do, but he don't feel the same way. He's with my sister, and I cant do jack about it. Poor me, I have all kinds of boys fawning over me, and I still couldn't get the one I always wanted, the one that meant the most to me
"I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons Finally content with a past I regret I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness For once I'm at peace with myself "
At least I still have music. I couldn't live without that. I would die, but its not the same no that he dosent produce me. Kwest does. I couldn't handle being with him. All my songs are about him, and he would realize that. We still talk, but now that him and sadie are engaged, I couldn't do it.
"I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long I'm movin' on"
They are getting married in 2 days. Im supposed to be the maid of honor. Kwest is the best man. My dress is beautiful. It's a light pink color, and I love it, but I don't think I could watch he love of my life get married to my own sister.
"I've lived in this place and I know all the faces Each one is different but they're always the same They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it They'll never allow me to change"
I think im gonna run away, I have a day, 1 freakin day, Kwest is tryin to help, but he just makes it worse. Sadie is peeved at me because I told her I may not be here for the wedding. And worse, I cant go to the studio, Darious told me to stay home so I could look beautiful for the wedding. I hate it here, I'm gonna leave.
"But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone"
I'll go to Edmonton, they wont find me there. I'll move in to an apartment, and ill quit music, find a new job. I don't belong here, no one would even look for me. I would be just fine on my own, and ill go to university in the fall. Ya, I think ill do that.
"There comes a time in everyone's life When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone"
Today is the day, the day ive been dreading for a year, since I found out about the engagement. I couldn't sleep last night, I tossed and turned, all I could think about was Tommy, the love of my life. But I had to get over it, he is with my sister, and they are getting married.
"I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't Stopped to fill up on my way out of town I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't I had to lose everything to find out Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road I'm movin' on"
I got tickets to Edmonton, I couldn't do it. I just couldn't watch Tommy get married. I might on the tv, but not in person. As I boarded the plane, I noticed someone running up the terminal, a dark haired man, in a leather jacket. He was screaming something, but I couldn't understand it. So I took my seat near the window, and I knew, I would never come back to this place, I was starting over new.
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on