Alpha's Little Secret
Chapter Two
What felt like longest car ride in history, Emerald finally feels the car come to a halt, the wolves in the car that had kidnapped me spared no time in hopping out, doors slamming as the door besides me opens, large warm hands engulf my trembling body and hefts me into his arms like I weighed no more than a feather. Whispered words that I still couldn't decipher and my fear spikes again, my gut feeling told me this was the confrontation with Sam but I was terrified. My fight instinct kicks in once again and I wiggle my body viciously, attempting to escape my captors arms, the hands tighten their grip on me so tightly that it's impossible to move anymore.
Beneath the blind fold my face contorts into a frown as the freezing wind laps at my bear arms, the least they could have done is bought a jacket when they stole me from my nice and warm home, "inconsiderate bastards I say" I grumble to myself in my mind, not even three minutes pass before the air around me shifts and I am enveloped in warmth, guessing by the now non-existent wind and the warmth we have now entered into someone's home.
We are greeted with silence as my captor manoeuvres us and then I feel my body being lowered, something plush and soft against my back. Wiggling my butt about I lean backwards and realise I'm on what seems to be a sofa. Fingers fumble with the blind fold that is still on my head, once removed I open my eyes and hastily squeeze them shut again, my eyes burn from the light after being blindfolded for too long. I attempt to open them again, blinking rapidly until my vision clears and I can finally see without the burn of the lights.
My heart plummets as I scan my surrounds, I swiftly realise where I am and heat rushes into my face and my pale cheeks turn pink as I recognize that I'm on the same sofa where the… incident with Sam took place, humiliated with the current events, I keep my eyes glued to the floor, ignoring who may be in the room with me.
"Hey E, I know you may be furious with us, please remember we are doing this for your benefit, don't get me wrong I'm still angry with you for the stunt you pulled but I'm mature enough to realise why it happened, please just listen to what has to be said?"
Painstakingly slow I raise my glittering blue eyes up until they rest on three wolves, Paul, Jacob and Seth. I sigh as relief washes over me when I didn't spot Sam. The three boys all wore the same sympathetic look but at the same time I could clearly see they adored me too, if I didn't love them so much I would hate them right now.
I ponder his words and I nod my head, confirming to Paul that I would listen to what he had to say.
"Just remember you are our sister in all but blood, we love you okay." They are Paul's parting words as the boys in harmony turn and walk out, so fast I blink and they are gone, leaving me still bound on the sofa awaiting my fate.
My heart picks up pace, becoming breathless in my panic, what on earth are they doing? The most important question is, where are they going?
A very hot hand lands tenderly on my shoulder, fire flares up from the point of contact, immediately I know who it is, my breath leaves me in a big whoosh, and in fact I damn near stop breathing altogether, Sam is standing directly behind me, I still keep my blue eyes pinned to the floor in front of me, not daring to move even a millimetre.
"Hi Em." Sam's deep and husky voice penetrates the silence like a shot gun going off, I lurch forward, away from his scorching touch, after five months of not seeing or hearing him, being around him is a shock to my system. I feel my already broken heart fracture some more at the small whimper that emanates from him as I pull away. The whimper is filled with such sorrow and I feel tears spring into my eyes.
He moves his large body around the sofa until his standing directly in front of me, against my will, a pull so strong I cannot ignore, my eyes travel from the carpet, very slowly gliding up his form until they reach his gorgeous face. I physically can't help but drink every inch of him in, I notice his lost weight, his paler, looks sicklier, and there is black coloured beneath his eyes like the wolf hadn't slept in weeks and his face has an indescribable pain skittered across his features. I get the feeling we resembled each other in the looks department, he looks exactly how I feel… which is utterly broken inside.
"Please don't pull away from me baby, I… I can't take it Em." His deep voice cracks with emotion, his face scrunches up in what looks to be despair and I feel the first tear spill down my cheek, how did such a strong and vibrant man become this shell of himself?
He lowers himself down to my level, my heart thundering loudly and wildly behind my ribcage at how close he is; a barely heard small cry escapes my lips as I shuffle around uncomfortably. My body is screaming for him, I want to jump into his arms, I want to kiss him all over his handsome face, anything to make us both feel better but that small voice in my head repeatedly saying, "his not mine, his not mine." prevents me and I am rooted to the spot trying to hold myself and what is left of my heart together.
"Shh baby girl, I am just removing the rope from your hands and feet." His moves cautiously and gently, I hold deathly still when his fingers come into contact with mine, tingles spreads through my hands, I wouldn't lie to myself and say I feel nothing when touching his skin with mine for the first time in months feels amazing, he makes fast work removing the ropes from both my hands and feet, keeping our contact to a minimal as he goes.
He swiftly takes a step away, his looks adorable as he contemplates where to sit; looking between the arm chair to the far left of me to the empty space to my right, Sam swiftly makes his mind up, plunking his arse on the coffee table in front of me, the wood groaning under his bulk and weight.
No words are said, we both continue to look at each other, assessing the situation, I am far too nervous to start the conversation, what am I meant to say? Sorry I jumped your bones then ran away for months, want to forget it ever happened and be friends again?
Somehow I doubt that would end well, so I remain quiet, waiting to see what he has to say and hopefully get out of here before I lose the rest of my sanity and jump him… Again.
"I could start by saying I regret what happened between us Emerald, but the truth is I don't, how could I when it was one of the best things to ever happen to me?" He shyly says, his warm brown gaze drops to the floor, not daring to look at me but I can't tear my gaze away from him.
When his words penetrate my haze, I get angry.
"Are you fucking insane Sam? How can you say that when you have Emily, your imprint, or did you forget that?" I hiss furiously, guilt clawing at me as Emily's pretty face floats in to my mind.
Sam's face clenches in frustration, his body trembles slightly trying to contain his own anger.
"She was my imprint; if you had fucking stuck around you would have found that out by now."
"How dare you?! I wouldn't have had to run away if you had just kept your dick in your pants you bastard."
"But it wasn't just me was it baby huh? It takes two to tango and I didn't see you walking out the door when you discovered what I was doing."
In a loss of control I jump from the sofa, taking the two steps forward towards him, I lean close so our faces are inches from each other, we are both vibrating with anger, rage coursing through me so violently, I can't seem to think straight, brown and blue eyes clashing.
"Do NOT call me that, you have not got the right to call me anything but Emerald, and why should I have walked away, you were offering yourself up freely, thought I might as well have a sample, maybe see what Emily always gushed about you know?" I didn't mean the spiteful words, this whole situation was escalation seriously out of control, I am hurt and I'm lashing out at him, but he just gets to me, makes me feel all twisted up inside, makes my emotions run high.
"Shut up!" He shouts at me, hurt flickers across his face before the anger is back tenfold.
"What's the matter Sammy, can't handle the truth?" I whisper venomously, I need to get to him as much as his getting to me.
"Seriously shut up Emerald, you have no clue what you're saying." He squeezes his eyes tightly shut, trying to regain some control.
My anger spikes, the prick can't even look me in the eye and his meant to be a fucking Alpha.
"I just think you where craving attention, your itty bitty imprint is always so busy looking after that pack that she didn't spare any time for you to get your dick wet." That seemed to be the last straw for Sam, I visibly see him snap, and his eyes shoot open, locking with mine, face contorting with utter rage and an emotion I can't read before he moves.
His hands shoot out, grabbing my arms, he pushes me hard backwards, I stumble, losing my balance when my legs connect with the sofa again, I land hard, before I can get my barings Sam is on top of me, his nestled between my open legs, his got my arms pinned above my head, we are both breathing heavily, electricity sizzling around us.
"I told you to just shut up." He whispers, in an instant his lips are upon mine and we both fall into a devastating, hot kiss, he devours me, moaning at the taste of me.
Flash backs from that day swirl around in my head as he kisses me, I feel powerless to stop it and I didn't want to, I have missed him so much.
A moan escapes me and at the sound, Sam comes back to his senses, pulling away from me viciously, by the time I return to myself he is already standing on the other side of the coffee table, his chest heaving with deep breaths as he tries to calm himself down, I don't move an inch, panting and breathless, dazed and confused I can't wrap my mind around what was happening before me.
"Shit, I am so sorry Emerald, that wasn't supposed to happen, you just- just wouldn't be quiet and my anger got out of hand." He squeezes his eyes tightly shut, I can see that his struggling as much as I am.
"It's-it's okay Sam, we both kind of got carried away." I say, giving us both a free pass to what just transpired between us, how can I blame him when I am just as much at fault.
I sit up straight in my seat, smoothing my clothes out and hair done as I wait for his next move, my hands trembling with nerves.
This time he chooses to sit beside me, taking on of my hands in his, calming us both down, we are both still partly breathless from the kiss and his hold on me seems to be grounding me.
"I need to explain what happened- what is happening between us, I know you must be confused, as much as I was but talking with Billy I finally understands, you deserve to know the truth to Em." He breaks eye contact, glancing at the table, inhaling a deep breath before swinging his eyes back to me, I see such sadness held in his brown orbs, but I also see a slither of hope and I steady myself for this conversation. Just hold it together Emmy.
I nod my head, giving him the go ahead to continue with his story, I tighten my fingers around his hold, hopefully signally my silent support, and his plump lips tip up in a small smile, showing me he understands my unspoken message.
"I will start from the beginning, I don't quite know how to put this, so I will be blunt, Emily has been cheating on me for months with a guy from forks, Mike Newington." My jaw drops in open shock, Sam's face contorts with upset and rage, is she utterly stupid? Who in their right mind would cheat on this amazing man sitting before me? I snap my mouth shut, shuffling forward I swap hands, placing my left in his hands and my right one on his shoulder for comfort, I feel his body tense beneath my touch but he doesn't reject it.
"It hurt so much Emerald, I even considered taking my own life but I couldn't, the imprint wouldn't let me! Then one day, you came around to visit the pack, just after your holiday to Britain, the moment I looked at you that same bond of an imprint hit me, but this time it was a hundred times stronger than the one I supposedly had with Emily." A gasp of surprise leaves my lips, shocked to the core but unwilling happiness bubbles up inside, because that would mean he was mine not hers.
"I tried to fight it, I won't lie to you, I was terrified, my first imprint shattered me, and someone who was meant to love me until the end hurt me in ways I never want to hurt again, with our bond feeling so much stronger, I couldn't fathom what you could do if you broke my heart Em." I remain silent, not wanting to interrupt him, but my body responded to his words, my heart panging for the hurt he had to suffer but swelling with joy that I could be the one to make him happy.
"These past five months have been misery without you Emerald, I need you in my life, you understand the bond of the imprint, we don't have to be anything more than friends, but if you do choose anything more, I would like to take it slow, I could never survive another heart break and I don't want to hurt you, I don't think I am ready for a full blown relationship just yet."
I'm nodding my head in understanding before his finished what he was saying, as much as I would love to carry on from our last encounter, we have both been hurt, we needed to heal before we thought of taking our relationship a step further.
"I understand Sam, but I have to ask, are you still will Emily? I shuffle nervously beside him, scared of his answer. His brown orbs fill with tears and he looks away from me in shame.
"I- I am but please before you- you jump to conclusions, you must understand, I thought I didn't stand a chance with you in any way, shape or form Em, and I couldn't have two rejected imprint bonds, I never would have survived, I thought if I had at least one bond then it was better than nothing." He tugs at my grasp I have on him but I hold on for dear life, refusing to let go.
"Look at me Sam, please look at me." At first he negatively shakes his head but my pleas break through his refusal and slowly raises his brown eyes back to mine, my heart stutters are the sorrow I see.
"I can't blame you for staying with her, i get that she once meant everything to you, but I will say this one thing, if you want to build a friendship, work on this imprint bond you have with me, you will have to break it off with her first, otherwise I don't think we will get far with her hanging over our heads." I whisper as soothingly as I could, I don't want to sound like the jealous partner but the thought of them infuriates me, if- if he continues to have her around I would never be able to overcome that.
"Of course Em! I will do anything for you; I need you to know that! You are my world now; I live for you, for us." And damn but my heart swells even more in love and pride, regardless of the past hurt, I have always cared about Sam but now it's just… More.
"So it's decided then, from this moment forward we will work on building our friendship." I say excitedly, because I get to have him and my friends back in my life, it can only get better from here on.
A huge grin splits his handsome face, his giving me a look so pure and full of joy that my heart constricts with emotions, leaning his head down he places a small soft kiss against my cheek, my heart thudding from his close proximity.
"It is going to be an amazing friendship indeed." He whispers against the shell of my ear, what have I got myself into exactly?