AN: No, I still don't bloody own Teen Titans so everyone stop asking me! (just kidding)

Chapter 1

The sun was going down and soon three of the Titans would be going out for the evening to a club. Starfire had insisted that Robin take her, and he found that he couldn't say no. He knew that it was probably irresponsible to leave their posts of protecting the city, but he also knew that if he didn't get out once in a while he would probably go mad. Cyborg was going as well because he had a new holographic ring he wanted to try out. By simply rotating the ring it would change what he was 'wearing'.

But two of the Titans would not be going out with them. One for obvious reasons, but the other they weren't quite sure why. He had become rather distanced lately and this was really concerning his friends.

"Beast Boy, are you sure you do not want to come with us?" asked Starfire as Robin helped her with her coat.

"Yeah, I'm sure," sighed Beast Boy, who was sitting on the couch staring at the television. Not that anything good was on. His, now, long legs were stretched out and resting on their little coffee table that only until recently had coffee put upon it in the morning.

"Ya know, B, I think comin out would do ya some good," said Cyborg as he twisted his ring around his finger, trying to find the best outfit to wear.

"I really don't feel like going out," said Beast Boy.

"Okay," said Robin. "Contact us if anything comes up. And Raven's in her room, just so you know."

"'kay," said Beast Boy. "See ya later."

"Bye," the three Titans said and left.

Once he was sure they were gone he turned the television off and sat there in silence for a little while. He closed his eyes and relaxed into the couch. He hated feeling depressed, but he couldn't help it. Nothing was going his way lately, not that anything ever went his way.

A few minutes later he got up and slowly made his way to his room. He had his hands shoved in his pockets and his head was hung low. As he watched the carpet slowly move beneath his feet his mind went over the same things it went over what seemed to be every second of what seemed to be every day. He wanted her to remember him again, he wanted her to like him again, he wanted her to be his.

He thought about Terra every day. Years before he had been pretty sure that he could live with the fact that she was stone. As long as she was stone she couldn't be harmed, she couldn't be with anyone else. But when he had discovered her alive and well all of that changed. That was five years ago. Five very long years that had left him sad and hopeless.

Suddenly he saw two blue booted feet in front of him, but he didn't have enough time to stop. The two collided, head to head. They both grabbed their heads and began to rub what would be a lump.

"Sorry," said Beast Boy. "I guess I wasn't looking where I was going."

"That's okay," said Raven, bending down and picking up the book she had been reading. "Neither was I." She then realized that Beast Boy was still in the tower, when she thought he would've left with the others. "Why are you here? I thought everyone was going to the club tonight."

"I wasn't in the mood," said Beast Boy.

"Just like two weeks ago?" asked Raven, who rarely forgot anything. "You haven't been doing anything lately."

"I haven't felt like it," said Beast Boy.

"I've noticed," said Raven. "You don't seem to be feeling like anything other than depressed."

"Can't hide anything from you can I?" he said with a sad smile. "Look, I'm just in a rut, I think. I'm sure I'll snap out of it soon."

"You better, because I'm the one who's supposed to be quiet and reserved," said Raven.

"That's true," said Beast Boy.

"Well, I'm on my way to the kitchen," said Raven, wrapping up this conversation. "I'll talk to you later." She softly pushed passed him and continued on her way.

"Okay," said Beast Boy. "See ya later, Terra-uh-uh-I mean Raven!"

Raven stopped dead in her tracks. She slowly turned around and stared at him, shocked. "Who… who did you just call me?" she asked.

Beast Boy felt very embarrassed. "Uh, sorry, it was an accident," he said, trying to think as quickly as he could.

"I would call it a Freudian slip," said Raven. "Is… is she what's been bothering you this whole time? Terra?"

"Uh, no," said Beast Boy, shaking his head. "Like I said, it was an accident. I mean, the other day I called Robin Cyborg by accident."

"Yes, but you see Cyborg every day," said Raven. "Terra hasn't been here for six years now."

"Look, it was a stupid slip of the tongue," said Beast Boy getting impatient with her. "I'm sorry, I'll see you later." He turned from her and headed for his room.

"She's never coming back," said Raven.

This caused Beast Boy to freeze. "Don't say that," he growled and turned around.

"It's the truth, Beast Boy," said Raven. "She's a different person now and she's happy. She's not going to come back."

"You don't know that!" said Beast Boy. "When her memories and powers come back she's going to be a Titan again."

"No she's not," said Raven. "So get over it."

"You don't know what you're talking about, Raven!" said Beast Boy angrily and he stormed over to her. "She's gonna come back someday and when she does…"

"Would you listen to yourself?" said Raven. "Terra isn't coming back! You know that! Deep down, I know that you know that."

"Then you don't know anything," he said angrily. "She will be back. And on the day she returns I'm gonna rub it all in your face!"

"So you're going to remain like this?" said Raven, crossing her arms. "All quiet and depressed until the day she rejoins the Titans? A day I am telling you that will never come? You can't live the rest of your life like this."

"Trust me, I won't," said Beast Boy. "Because she will come back."

"Fine," said Raven, who had become very irritated by his stubbornness. "Be that way. If you want to live in your own fantasy world, then go right ahead." She turned and headed towards the kitchen.

"Oh no, you're not getting the last word here," said Beast Boy following her. He grabbed her arm and twisted her around. "You just don't wanna bring up the fact that you're scared because you know that when Terra comes back she's gonna replace you."

"She's never coming back," said Raven through her teeth. "And even if she did, she could never replace me. I wouldn't allow it."

"Really? Because, from what I remember, when she was a Titan she had already replaced you," said Beast Boy.

He was starting to hit below the belt and Raven wasn't going to have it. "Good bye, Beast Boy," she said and started walking towards the kitchen again for the third or maybe fourth time.

"Admit it, Raven," he called after her. "Terra was way better than you!"

Raven ignored him. As much as those words hurt her, she knew he was just blowing off some much needed steam, so she brushed them off.

"She was kind, she was fun," he continued on, his voice starting to crack from the pain he felt. He could even feel tears forming in his eyes. "And… and… and we all liked her way more than you!"

Raven felt a horrible knot in her stomach as he said this and her breath caught in her throat. She remembered when Terra had told her that. She hadn't believed her, but to hear Beast Boy say it. That hurt so much more. She couldn't brush that comment off. To hear him say that caused her actual, physical pain and she had to stop walking.

Beast Boy couldn't believe what he had just said. He watched as Raven came to a stop and even heard her make an odd sound. He knew he had crossed the line at that point. "Raven… I…" he started, but the damage had been done.

Raven forgot about the kitchen entirely. She clutched her book tightly and melted through the floor. She emerged in her room and stood there motionless for a minute or two. Then she took a big breath in and felt everything that was paining her fade away. She placed her book back on its shelf and made her way to her bed so she could meditate.

'He didn't mean it,' she thought to herself. 'He just misses her and is in denial. But it's been six years since she's been a Titan and five years since she came back from stone as a normal person. I would think five years would be enough for him to accept that she isn't who he thought she was, not that she ever was.'

A soft knock echoed through her room, breaking her concentration. She groaned and came out of her meditative state. "I'm busy, Beast Boy."

"I just came to apologize," said Beast Boy.

"Apology accepted," said Raven. "Now, please, leave me alone."

"Are you sure?" asked Beast Boy. "Cuz I really am sorry. I mean, I know I shouldn't have said that we liked Terra better than you."

"Please, Beast Boy, go away," said Raven. "I'm trying to meditate."

It grew silent for a few seconds and Raven was sure that he had finally left. When he finally spoke again, she knew otherwise.

"So, uh, don't you have something you wanna say to me?" he asked.

"Like what?" she sighed, knowing that she would have to start her meditation all over know for her concentration was completely broken.

"Like apologizing?" said Beast Boy.

"Now why would I want to apologize?" asked Raven.

"Let me see, uh, about what you said about Terra?" he asked, growing angry again.

"I didn't say anything bad about Terra," said Raven. "Though I certainly could."

"Shut up!" yelled Beast Boy. "She was a good person, a great person! She saved the world and she was friendly. So what if she made a mistake? We all make mistakes, Raven, how come you judge her on hers? I could say some bad things about you, too, ya know!"

"Yes, I know," said Raven as calm as ever. "I'm evil, I'm mean, I'm stubborn, I'm selfish, I'm creepy; I've heard it all before and mostly from you. So why don't you take your little attitude and go away."

"You're so…" Beast Boy growled and began to take his fury out on Ravens door. He kicked and punched it as hard as he could. He even began to dent it, but that didn't stop him. He wanted to teach Raven a lesson; he wanted her to see how upset she made him. He kicked and punched the door until he was quite sure he had broken his hands and feet.

Raven watched as her door was being pummeled and beaten to a bloody pulp. She wasn't all that scared, but she had her powers ready just in case. She listened as he screamed and growled and cried as he beat in her door.

When he finished he stood there out of breath, tears of pain creeping down his face. He then looked at what he did and was stunned. But he wasn't about to apologize. He held his aching limbs and dragged himself to his room.

Once he was gone Raven took a look at her door. She had no idea he was that strong, but she guessed that adrenaline and anger had something to do with it. She concentrated and used her powers to slowly bend and straighten the door to the way it once was.

She decided that she wasn't going to tell anyone about this. Beast Boy needed to get all of this grief out of his system and she didn't mind being the poor soul he took it out on. Well, she did mind, but she figured it was better that he did it to her, someone who understood what he was going through, than to Starfire who would cry. Or Robin who would think he was challenging him. Or Cyborg who would start doing all sorts of test on him. Yes, Raven was the ideal person for Beast Boy to take his anger out on. And she accepted that.