Disclaimer: Not mine, and drabbles wouldn't make money anyway
Kolya
The universe belongs to the strong.
I've never had empathy for the suffering of others. I've never allowed myself to know the weaknesses of love or pity.
Still, when I saw what the Wraith had done to Sheppard, I wavered. He is an extraordinary soldier who didn't deserve the fate I set for him. But my hatred and need for revenge against Ladon Radim was already set in motion.
Yet Sheppard defeated me again. I stand here before the stargate, hearing his voice:
I'm going kill you on sight next time, Kolya! Do you hear me?
And I know fear.
John
There are reassurances to be made. Beckett needs to know my physical condition is restored. McKay needs to know I'm not angry, and that I am grateful they came for me. Ronon needs to know that I can still be objective and ruthless in fighting the Wraith. Teyla needs to know I won't break when I'm alone and my thoughts intrude. The people of Atlantis need to know that I am still John Sheppard, and that I can still protect them.
Elizabeth is my greatest worry as I wipe away her tears.
She needs to know I don't blame her.