Author's note: again, sorry for my lame English, I try my best! Also,
thanks to Samantha, my first reviewer ever!!!!! Flames aren't welcome,
that's unconstructive and really wicked and as I haven't the faculty to
hypnotise people to read my story, you're not obliged to read it!
Disclaimer: ok, I'm JKR's long lost sister, so I've just discovered that she gave me HP. I really should stop coffee and Linkin Park that early in the morning, it makes me delusional.
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Chapter 2:
Like always, there are many muggles in the station. For the first time, I don't mind. I even smile to a kid. Wow, what has gotten into me?
I'm a bit scared to go back to school. Last night has changed my life and I'm as lost as I was in my first year.
When I reach platform 9 ¾, the first people I see are Crabbe and Goyle.
"Hello Malfoy. How were holidays?" asks an even more fat than last year Crabbe.
"Just fine."
My voice comes out hoarse, but they seem satisfied. Anyway, they are too coward to insist, but I see the look of wonder on their faces while they spot the fresh cut on my forehead.
As soon as I climb in the train, Pansy Parkinson accosts me. I don't exactly like her, but she is either too stubborn, either too stupid and doesn't see it.
"Hey Malfoy! Oh, it's so nice to see you. I wanted you to come over this summer, but my father was planning to go on holidays in Italy. Sorry! We went to Roma and it was so cool and."
She is babbling again and I stop listen to her. I apologize and head to the end of the train. I finally find an empty compartment and sit down, looking through the window as the train is leaving London.
The landscape is peaceful and sunny, but the dark events of last night keep rambling in my mind. These memories are painful, but I don't want them to get out of my head. They are my first footsteps on a new path and I have to grip them tight if I don't want to become even more lost than I am now.
I have to grip them tight to remember why I put myself in this mess.
I didn't hear the compartment door slide open and am quite startled when I hear Weasley's voice.
"Oh, here is our favourite ferret. How much I looked forward to see you again!" he says with a voice full of sarcasm and hatred.
I turn to him a neutral face, but I think I've lost control of my eyes, because I see the trio looking at me in bewilderment. It seems I'm not myself anymore. The old Draco would never have let his eyes betray him like this!
Granger moves forward into the compartment.
"Can we sit down? Everywhere else is full." She says, looking around.
"Do as you want, I don't care." I finally manage to spit out.
I'm in no mood or shape to fight with them, so I turn back to the window and my mind drifts away again.
I wonder what I let them see in my eyes. I can sense their bewilderment. They can't recognize me.
Myself, I'm unable to recognize myself. I'm a stranger. What's my place in this world? I'm a Malfoy for the others, but Father is probably thinking of disowning me at this time.
Why, oh why did I put myself in such a mess? My whole body is still aching after last night's beatings. My conscience has finally appeared. It's strange to have it with me, turning my thoughts in my mind.
The two girls are in my head again. I feel guilty. I should have saved them; I should have died in their place. They will haunt me forever, that's the price for having a conscience. Tears are prickling my eyes and I get out of the compartment before I can't hold them back.
I sink on the floor and sit in the same position as in the gloomy tree. A wound in my back has reopened and it hurts like hell; but at the same time, I feel better. I make a move and another cut opens. I deserve it. I have to suffer to ease my conscience. I feel lighter and we soon arrive in Hogsmeade station. I feel home again.
....................................... Review please! It's not that difficult, you just have to press that little button that says "go" in the left bottom corner of your screen. Oh, and I don't know if the rating is appropriate, can somebody tell me please?
Disclaimer: ok, I'm JKR's long lost sister, so I've just discovered that she gave me HP. I really should stop coffee and Linkin Park that early in the morning, it makes me delusional.
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ ^^^^
Chapter 2:
Like always, there are many muggles in the station. For the first time, I don't mind. I even smile to a kid. Wow, what has gotten into me?
I'm a bit scared to go back to school. Last night has changed my life and I'm as lost as I was in my first year.
When I reach platform 9 ¾, the first people I see are Crabbe and Goyle.
"Hello Malfoy. How were holidays?" asks an even more fat than last year Crabbe.
"Just fine."
My voice comes out hoarse, but they seem satisfied. Anyway, they are too coward to insist, but I see the look of wonder on their faces while they spot the fresh cut on my forehead.
As soon as I climb in the train, Pansy Parkinson accosts me. I don't exactly like her, but she is either too stubborn, either too stupid and doesn't see it.
"Hey Malfoy! Oh, it's so nice to see you. I wanted you to come over this summer, but my father was planning to go on holidays in Italy. Sorry! We went to Roma and it was so cool and."
She is babbling again and I stop listen to her. I apologize and head to the end of the train. I finally find an empty compartment and sit down, looking through the window as the train is leaving London.
The landscape is peaceful and sunny, but the dark events of last night keep rambling in my mind. These memories are painful, but I don't want them to get out of my head. They are my first footsteps on a new path and I have to grip them tight if I don't want to become even more lost than I am now.
I have to grip them tight to remember why I put myself in this mess.
I didn't hear the compartment door slide open and am quite startled when I hear Weasley's voice.
"Oh, here is our favourite ferret. How much I looked forward to see you again!" he says with a voice full of sarcasm and hatred.
I turn to him a neutral face, but I think I've lost control of my eyes, because I see the trio looking at me in bewilderment. It seems I'm not myself anymore. The old Draco would never have let his eyes betray him like this!
Granger moves forward into the compartment.
"Can we sit down? Everywhere else is full." She says, looking around.
"Do as you want, I don't care." I finally manage to spit out.
I'm in no mood or shape to fight with them, so I turn back to the window and my mind drifts away again.
I wonder what I let them see in my eyes. I can sense their bewilderment. They can't recognize me.
Myself, I'm unable to recognize myself. I'm a stranger. What's my place in this world? I'm a Malfoy for the others, but Father is probably thinking of disowning me at this time.
Why, oh why did I put myself in such a mess? My whole body is still aching after last night's beatings. My conscience has finally appeared. It's strange to have it with me, turning my thoughts in my mind.
The two girls are in my head again. I feel guilty. I should have saved them; I should have died in their place. They will haunt me forever, that's the price for having a conscience. Tears are prickling my eyes and I get out of the compartment before I can't hold them back.
I sink on the floor and sit in the same position as in the gloomy tree. A wound in my back has reopened and it hurts like hell; but at the same time, I feel better. I make a move and another cut opens. I deserve it. I have to suffer to ease my conscience. I feel lighter and we soon arrive in Hogsmeade station. I feel home again.
....................................... Review please! It's not that difficult, you just have to press that little button that says "go" in the left bottom corner of your screen. Oh, and I don't know if the rating is appropriate, can somebody tell me please?