A/N: ok, dear serious reviewers: thanks!!! Your reviews are always
interesting! Dear childish reviewers (rolls her eyes at Fire'N'Ice and
Elven ice angel), I hope you behave correctly in your review! Don't be rude
to each other! Lol.
Miriam G: Hello!!!! I went to read your flamer's story, then your review to that same story and came up with the same opinion. I told the author so and explained him that flaming was a waste of energy. Anyway, I haven't received a flame back yet, so maybe that person has understood my point!
Elven ice angel: yep, it's your turn to bow down to me: I'm the queen of reviews, with 2217 words! Muahahaha! And I haven't reviewed Fire'N'Ice's story yet! I fully replied to your review in mine, coz my chappie would have been shorter than my replies and it wouldn't have been good! Anyway, good luck in your war against Fire'N'Ice...
Mozartrox05: yep, I love fluffy teddys!!!! But I hate Lucius... he he he, they'll "maybe" become friends! Thanks a lot!
Sunkitten: Lo!!!! *waves madly* yep, I checked your site, and it's cool, coz I have something else than Pouchkine to read (my teacher is fond of him)! I make my way slowly through the story, but I'm happy to see there are words I recognize! Hey, I don't blame you for not answering! Sorry if it sounded so! He he he, the problem is that I don't have any way to write in Cyrillic with this computer *glares at it* anyway, thanks for your offer, it was really nice. Glad you liked that chappie better! Hope you like this one too!
Fire'N'Ice: thanks thanks thanks for your job! He he he, my father says you have to pay attention in geography...well, it's just my father. Yoohoohoo! Starwars freak away for three days...time to put fire to all his starwars stuff! Muahahaha! Be nice to Elven ice angel, or I'm gonna kick both your asses! Really, children...
Btrfly: he he he, I know, many of you were disappointed! Here is a FULL chappie with Draco!!!!!! Happy? You'd better be! Thanks for being so nice toward my work! He he he, I see you had fun at the wild animal park!!!!
Disclaimer: yep, Hp is mine! "As insane as ever." Shut up! It's not coz you're the sane part of my mind that you have to shatter all my dreams, damn you! I don't know if JKR has a lil voice too, but I hope for her sake that it isn't as annoying as mine! "Hey, don't be rude! You wouldn't be able to write that without me!" SOD OFF!!!!
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Chapter 8:
*Draco's POV*
I feel weaker and weaker. I have tried to eat, but I systematically end throwing up my meal in the bathroom. When I look at my reflection in the mirror, I can see how much I have changed. I look exhausted. There are dark circles under my eyes and I have lost a considerable amount of weight. I should switch places with Millicent Bullstrode, she is always complaining about her weight.
I haven't seen Hannah since that day in the library. When I first met her, I was left with a tiny cheerful feeling of safety. But everything went down again with my mother's death.
Is it my fate to be the cause of people's death? Then, why do I have to live, if it is just for destruction?
I start to reconsider suicide, but I have decided that I will not attempt anything till I see Hannah again. I don't care about my father anymore.
I can't help cutting my arms, though. It has become an everyday routine. Before classes, as I don't take breakfast anymore, I just find some hidden place and take out my knife. My arms are both in a pitiful state. The wounds don't have time to heal and so, my skin is extra-sensitive. It hurts like hell, but that's how I want it.
Sorry Hannah, I just have no other choice than playing with knives.
This morning is like every other morning. I'm wandering in the halls to find a place. Ah, I have found a place. Under the staircase. In the shadows.
As always, I sit on the floor and take out my knife. I put both my sleeves up to chose the healthier arm. Today, it is going to be the left one. The blood drips slowly from the cuts; it is still as red and as beautiful as ever. Bright crimson.
"Stop it immediately."
The voice is clear and commanding, yet, there isn't hatred in it. I generally sense quite easily that feeling; it must be because it is omnipresent when people speak to me.
I don't look up. I don't want to know whose voice it is. However, this voice has power on me; the knife is now resting in my palm and I just look blankly at it.
"Why should I listen to you?" my voice comes out hoarse and quivering. Damn, I really have to get a hold of myself.
"Cause I know what you are doing and I can't let you do it. You may think nobody cares, but my conscience will not allow me to live."
"Just sod off."
"Sure, so you can continue to play with your little knife?" I don't know who this girl is, but damn, why did she have to use Hannah's words? I grip the knife again and continue my methodical torture. I know she is still there, but I don't care. Nobody cares.
However, she comes and snatches the knife. Damn her, it's my most treasured possession at the time. And now, I am obliged to look at her.
...............
*Ginny's POV*
That knife is sharp and I have cut myself when snatching it. Pretty deep by the way. My blood mixes with Draco Malfoy's on the blade. God, how ironic.
I don't know what to do now. He doesn't look up at me. He seems so fragile and lost.
I kneel down in front of him. There is no way to turn away; the time to face him has come and it affects me more than I had thought.
He finally stares at me.
"Weasley, give that knife back."
"Why, you don't need it:"
"Don't mess me with me, or..."
"Or what? Are you going to curse me?"
My voice is hedgy, and I know I am getting on his nerves.
...............
*Draco's POV*
I don't know what to answer to that, so I just draw my legs to my chest and rest my forehead on my knees.
"Keep that bloody knife if you want, but leave me alone."
"No."
I can't believe it! This girl is annoyingly stubborn. Nobody challenges a Malfoy. Wait a minute. I'm not a Malfoy anymore.
"I won't leave till you tell me you are ok."
"I am ok."
"You are a very bad liar, Draco."
"What did you call me?"
"Ahem..."
She looks at me with a sheepish smile and I can't help grinning a little. Her smile grows into a real smile at that moment.
"I was wondering if you could smile at all."
"It isn't my most brilliant skill."
My tone is harsh and in despair, she hands me back the knife. I don't even notice that I have started to cut myself again. At least, not until she stops my hand and begins to bandage my arm with her handkerchief.
I don't recognize myself. If Father saw me associating with a Weasley, god, what he would do to me. Why don't I just shoo her away? Why is she there in the first place?
"Why?"
................
*Ginny's POV*
Shit! Why did he have to ask this precise question? Such trouble in my head for only one little whispered word. My eyes are locked with his. His grey orbs seem bottomless, just like the well in Alice in Wonderland.
"Why?" He only whispers it, but it echoes hundreds of time in my head.
"I don't know. You don't deserve all this. Nobody does."
He looks at me in surprise and his eyes ask me how much I know. I breathe a good deal and lower my head.
"I was in the library when Hannah came. And I know about your mother's death."
"I don't need your pity. I am ok and you should mind your own business." I have never heard such bitterness in someone's voice.
"Damn your pride! It wasn't my purpose to get inside your little problems, but I overheard and now, I just can't feign I know nothing."
He's really getting on my nerves. What does he think? That everybody would enjoy the sight of him being tortured? A simple look at him answers my question. He has no faith in humanity.
Ok, after all, I knew I wouldn't win on first try. Nothing can sway him now.
I stand up and brush my robes. My hand is still bleeding freely. I have DADA first period and I hope mum won't notice. I also hope I won't burst into tears in the middle of the lesson.
Even if this moment ends badly, I'm proud of myself. I even managed to make him smile.
..............
*Draco's POV*
Weasley has left, gone to classes. I don't want to go. I just want to stay here, in the dark, where nobody can see me, where I am alone. The last thing I want is going to herbology and face that slut of a witch Pansy.
I replay this moment in my head, and every time, I feel like I can trust her. I laugh at myself. She can't even imagine how much in hell I am. I can't trust her. I can't trust anybody. The people I trusted shot me down. My belief brought me on the wrong path, in the night. And now, I am alone, trying to find light again. Nobody can reach me and bring me back.
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Yep, ti's "her" again...
Hey!!!!!! OMG!!!! I was soooooooo thrilled to see you sent me this and became even happier as I read it! Well, technically, not happier considering I was crying, but it was so good!!! I love how Ginny and Draco interact, he's got to realize people care about him!! Okay, I'm not including my usual thoughts because I did them line by line and they are over a page long so I'm making them into the review, which I will post the second I see this chapter up. Right now I'm up to about 1, 083 words. The whole thing is talking to Draco and Ginny, so I have to add my part to you!! Once again, MAGNIFICANT chapter! How could you not have been sure of it? The knot in my stomach is huge!!! All right, I'm going to go finish my review (which will beat Elven Ice Angel's)!! :-D
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OK EVERYBODY; REVIEW!!!!!!! *voice under sonorous charm* so nobody can say they haven't heard what I said! Flamers, I must warn you...Baby Norbert is currently living with me, so I can send him to burn your arses! Muahahaha!
Miriam G: Hello!!!! I went to read your flamer's story, then your review to that same story and came up with the same opinion. I told the author so and explained him that flaming was a waste of energy. Anyway, I haven't received a flame back yet, so maybe that person has understood my point!
Elven ice angel: yep, it's your turn to bow down to me: I'm the queen of reviews, with 2217 words! Muahahaha! And I haven't reviewed Fire'N'Ice's story yet! I fully replied to your review in mine, coz my chappie would have been shorter than my replies and it wouldn't have been good! Anyway, good luck in your war against Fire'N'Ice...
Mozartrox05: yep, I love fluffy teddys!!!! But I hate Lucius... he he he, they'll "maybe" become friends! Thanks a lot!
Sunkitten: Lo!!!! *waves madly* yep, I checked your site, and it's cool, coz I have something else than Pouchkine to read (my teacher is fond of him)! I make my way slowly through the story, but I'm happy to see there are words I recognize! Hey, I don't blame you for not answering! Sorry if it sounded so! He he he, the problem is that I don't have any way to write in Cyrillic with this computer *glares at it* anyway, thanks for your offer, it was really nice. Glad you liked that chappie better! Hope you like this one too!
Fire'N'Ice: thanks thanks thanks for your job! He he he, my father says you have to pay attention in geography...well, it's just my father. Yoohoohoo! Starwars freak away for three days...time to put fire to all his starwars stuff! Muahahaha! Be nice to Elven ice angel, or I'm gonna kick both your asses! Really, children...
Btrfly: he he he, I know, many of you were disappointed! Here is a FULL chappie with Draco!!!!!! Happy? You'd better be! Thanks for being so nice toward my work! He he he, I see you had fun at the wild animal park!!!!
Disclaimer: yep, Hp is mine! "As insane as ever." Shut up! It's not coz you're the sane part of my mind that you have to shatter all my dreams, damn you! I don't know if JKR has a lil voice too, but I hope for her sake that it isn't as annoying as mine! "Hey, don't be rude! You wouldn't be able to write that without me!" SOD OFF!!!!
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Chapter 8:
*Draco's POV*
I feel weaker and weaker. I have tried to eat, but I systematically end throwing up my meal in the bathroom. When I look at my reflection in the mirror, I can see how much I have changed. I look exhausted. There are dark circles under my eyes and I have lost a considerable amount of weight. I should switch places with Millicent Bullstrode, she is always complaining about her weight.
I haven't seen Hannah since that day in the library. When I first met her, I was left with a tiny cheerful feeling of safety. But everything went down again with my mother's death.
Is it my fate to be the cause of people's death? Then, why do I have to live, if it is just for destruction?
I start to reconsider suicide, but I have decided that I will not attempt anything till I see Hannah again. I don't care about my father anymore.
I can't help cutting my arms, though. It has become an everyday routine. Before classes, as I don't take breakfast anymore, I just find some hidden place and take out my knife. My arms are both in a pitiful state. The wounds don't have time to heal and so, my skin is extra-sensitive. It hurts like hell, but that's how I want it.
Sorry Hannah, I just have no other choice than playing with knives.
This morning is like every other morning. I'm wandering in the halls to find a place. Ah, I have found a place. Under the staircase. In the shadows.
As always, I sit on the floor and take out my knife. I put both my sleeves up to chose the healthier arm. Today, it is going to be the left one. The blood drips slowly from the cuts; it is still as red and as beautiful as ever. Bright crimson.
"Stop it immediately."
The voice is clear and commanding, yet, there isn't hatred in it. I generally sense quite easily that feeling; it must be because it is omnipresent when people speak to me.
I don't look up. I don't want to know whose voice it is. However, this voice has power on me; the knife is now resting in my palm and I just look blankly at it.
"Why should I listen to you?" my voice comes out hoarse and quivering. Damn, I really have to get a hold of myself.
"Cause I know what you are doing and I can't let you do it. You may think nobody cares, but my conscience will not allow me to live."
"Just sod off."
"Sure, so you can continue to play with your little knife?" I don't know who this girl is, but damn, why did she have to use Hannah's words? I grip the knife again and continue my methodical torture. I know she is still there, but I don't care. Nobody cares.
However, she comes and snatches the knife. Damn her, it's my most treasured possession at the time. And now, I am obliged to look at her.
...............
*Ginny's POV*
That knife is sharp and I have cut myself when snatching it. Pretty deep by the way. My blood mixes with Draco Malfoy's on the blade. God, how ironic.
I don't know what to do now. He doesn't look up at me. He seems so fragile and lost.
I kneel down in front of him. There is no way to turn away; the time to face him has come and it affects me more than I had thought.
He finally stares at me.
"Weasley, give that knife back."
"Why, you don't need it:"
"Don't mess me with me, or..."
"Or what? Are you going to curse me?"
My voice is hedgy, and I know I am getting on his nerves.
...............
*Draco's POV*
I don't know what to answer to that, so I just draw my legs to my chest and rest my forehead on my knees.
"Keep that bloody knife if you want, but leave me alone."
"No."
I can't believe it! This girl is annoyingly stubborn. Nobody challenges a Malfoy. Wait a minute. I'm not a Malfoy anymore.
"I won't leave till you tell me you are ok."
"I am ok."
"You are a very bad liar, Draco."
"What did you call me?"
"Ahem..."
She looks at me with a sheepish smile and I can't help grinning a little. Her smile grows into a real smile at that moment.
"I was wondering if you could smile at all."
"It isn't my most brilliant skill."
My tone is harsh and in despair, she hands me back the knife. I don't even notice that I have started to cut myself again. At least, not until she stops my hand and begins to bandage my arm with her handkerchief.
I don't recognize myself. If Father saw me associating with a Weasley, god, what he would do to me. Why don't I just shoo her away? Why is she there in the first place?
"Why?"
................
*Ginny's POV*
Shit! Why did he have to ask this precise question? Such trouble in my head for only one little whispered word. My eyes are locked with his. His grey orbs seem bottomless, just like the well in Alice in Wonderland.
"Why?" He only whispers it, but it echoes hundreds of time in my head.
"I don't know. You don't deserve all this. Nobody does."
He looks at me in surprise and his eyes ask me how much I know. I breathe a good deal and lower my head.
"I was in the library when Hannah came. And I know about your mother's death."
"I don't need your pity. I am ok and you should mind your own business." I have never heard such bitterness in someone's voice.
"Damn your pride! It wasn't my purpose to get inside your little problems, but I overheard and now, I just can't feign I know nothing."
He's really getting on my nerves. What does he think? That everybody would enjoy the sight of him being tortured? A simple look at him answers my question. He has no faith in humanity.
Ok, after all, I knew I wouldn't win on first try. Nothing can sway him now.
I stand up and brush my robes. My hand is still bleeding freely. I have DADA first period and I hope mum won't notice. I also hope I won't burst into tears in the middle of the lesson.
Even if this moment ends badly, I'm proud of myself. I even managed to make him smile.
..............
*Draco's POV*
Weasley has left, gone to classes. I don't want to go. I just want to stay here, in the dark, where nobody can see me, where I am alone. The last thing I want is going to herbology and face that slut of a witch Pansy.
I replay this moment in my head, and every time, I feel like I can trust her. I laugh at myself. She can't even imagine how much in hell I am. I can't trust her. I can't trust anybody. The people I trusted shot me down. My belief brought me on the wrong path, in the night. And now, I am alone, trying to find light again. Nobody can reach me and bring me back.
°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°° °°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°
Yep, ti's "her" again...
Hey!!!!!! OMG!!!! I was soooooooo thrilled to see you sent me this and became even happier as I read it! Well, technically, not happier considering I was crying, but it was so good!!! I love how Ginny and Draco interact, he's got to realize people care about him!! Okay, I'm not including my usual thoughts because I did them line by line and they are over a page long so I'm making them into the review, which I will post the second I see this chapter up. Right now I'm up to about 1, 083 words. The whole thing is talking to Draco and Ginny, so I have to add my part to you!! Once again, MAGNIFICANT chapter! How could you not have been sure of it? The knot in my stomach is huge!!! All right, I'm going to go finish my review (which will beat Elven Ice Angel's)!! :-D
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OK EVERYBODY; REVIEW!!!!!!! *voice under sonorous charm* so nobody can say they haven't heard what I said! Flamers, I must warn you...Baby Norbert is currently living with me, so I can send him to burn your arses! Muahahaha!