Author's note: THANX!!!!! I can't believe how many reviews I got! 14 for
chappie 9! I love you all!!!!! And I'm extremely happy to welcome new
reviewers!!!!
Rubberduckie713: emotionality is a great word, maybe you should try to make him being recognized! I don't care if you can't review as often as you would want, as long as I get your reviews sometimes!!! At least, I know that you read my story. Ahem, I'm sure I'm crazier than you... Poor you, having to babysit your bro... Reminds me when I have to look after 25 kids when at scouts...A nightmare...
LiLCuNtRyGurl: Doesn't matter if you screw your last review (let's say it was your computer fault!) At least, I know you read my story!
Btrfly: Yeah, I'm quite proud about Hannah's POV; I thought it was missing in the story. Ahem, that's coz I didn't know it was magic when I wrote chappie 8.....*sheepish smile* I've decided it would be just before posting chappie 9 in fact. You'll understand later why I chose to do it that way.
Fire'N'Ice: Like always, I'm not gonna reply to your review, coz it would take a lot of place, and the purpose is to post a chappie, not insane ramblings! Thanx a lot for the work on this chappie!!! I can't wait to read your review! I'll answer your mail just after I post that...I have my whole adventures of the big scout game to tell you...was an interesting day... Hey, where would be the fun if you weren't crying! I'm sure you didn't cry this chappie...Wait for Christmas...Muahahaha! Ok, one more complaint! Where is the next part of Anya's story??? Please, I need it for my emotional balance (see, I didn't use *mental*...) Pretty please with Nemo on the top (Muahahaha, I know where your weaknesses lay!) He he he, do you know what; Dark Angel season 2 starts NEXT SATURDAY!!!!! I'm sure you're yelling in frustration right now! Muahahaha...I couldn't believe my luck when I read the new tv program this morning! Although, I would have known earlier, if I had watched the second ep of DA this morning, but it was 1 am, and I was dead exhausted...rough day...Did you get your dragon? Hope he will get along with my teddy. Maybe he would like to teach divination too!!!!! He he he...Ahem, See, I haven't put any Alice thing in this chappie! Aren't I nice? Read you soon!
Bob: I don't take forever long to post my chappies!!!! *pout*. Hey, who do you think you're talking to???? I WONT obey the *almighty Bob*...*stick out my tongue at you*. I'm not very patient either, so I understand..Are you happy??? Here is next chappie!!! I swear, if you don't review, I send Baby Norbert on you! Muahahaha. Ahem, Fire'N'Ice and Elven ice angel are just...you know...crazy. No need to roll your eyes at me!!!!! Ahem,. I'm not talking to you there, just to these two dummies that are in a war for the longest review..tsk tsk tsk.. I am the goddess of long reviews!!! Everybody has to bow in front of me! Soz, a bit out of my mind...lack of sleep...
Wiccan Angelle: He he he..a new reviewer!!! WELCOME to Cinnamon's insane land!!!! You're in love with this story? Are you sure you're not mad or something? Lol.
Carshaa: Oh, you're new too! I like your name! All the POVs???? Whoa, I'm dumbfounded...
Sunkitten: Hello! Thanks for your constructive crit again! Lucius is NOT thick...We haven't been in his head and memories for now, just his thoughts before killing Narcissa. In this chappie, he talks with Snape, I hope you like it. Don't worry, I won't make Lucius finish bad...Well, technically yes, but psychologically...Well, you'll see. Yep, Draco has indeed forgotten a little his reasons for such a behaviour. It's just coz it's rooted deep inside him now. Change in this chappie, I thought the storyline had to move. Ah.I have to learn off by heart the first sentence of a poem. I don't know how to translate the title but it's something like Bronze Knight or something. It's about Saint-Petersbourg. I like it a lot, but it's difficult to learn for me. After all, I've been studying Russian for two years only.
Luscious Kinney: glad you liked it! And happy to read you again! I don't think you need tissues for this chappie, it's lighter than the others! Hope you like it.
Mozartrox05: I'm VERY proud of you, your French is excellent, I've understood everything you wrote. A few mistakes, but they're not really important. If you want I can email you and explain you the mistakes. I think I continue in French now... Ah, le verbe manquer...un cauchemar pour ceux qui parlent Anglais normalement! Exactement comme votre verbe *to miss* pour nous ! Oui, Snape (ou Rogue, en Français) est un personnage intéressant. Je l'aime bien, parce qu'il est très mystérieux et qu'en fait, je pense qu'il souffre beaucoup. Draco ne vas plus se couper, il change dans ce chapitre ! J'espère que tu vas l'aimer ! Continue de me répondre en Français...Nice exercise for you !!!!!
Miriam G: I'm sure it's Voldie's trick if you couldn't log in! awh...Draco is maybe a fictional character...you've just shattered all my illusions...Boohoohoo... All my congratulations for your graduation! Sticker on your forehead in your yearbook? Damn, you probably look ridiculous...lol. I notice that your reviews have become more creative each time! See, it wasn't so difficult! Next time , you have to write at least 120 words...it's your new assignment!
Sabriel 4: on the contrary, Snape's POv was necessary, because of this chappie you're gonna read now! I hope you like it! I agree with him too about Pansy! Lol. Whoa two reviews!!!! My my my...I feel so special!!!! I know, I know, chappie 7 was short...this one is longer! Hope you continue with your story!
Madussa: Oh, you're new too!!! Welcome to my insane lil world... I love your review, it's really nice! I'll watch for the repetitions, but that'll be after my exams! I love reviews, coz they help me ask myself the right questions about my characters and some reviewers unconsciously gave me new ideas. Thanks a lot for your line about dreams, I think it's important. I really hope you'll continue to review this story. Hope you like the chappie.
Thank you all again!!!!!!!
Disclaimer: Mirror, mirror, tell me who's the owner of HP.
"Not you, but JKR..."
Ahem...Do you really want me to throw you through a window?
"Ok, it's you..."
Muahahahaha!!!!!!!
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Chapter 10: Snape, Lucius, and Arthur.
*Snape's POV*
Here we are, the great morning of my meeting with Lucius. I can't believe I am so nervous to meet him. I am now in my office, trying to correct some assignments. My desk is buried under the piles of parchment. I really should give less, it takes too much time to correct them. My eyes wander on the brilliant (not that I'm going to tell her) assignment of Hermione Granger when I hear a soft moan. So soft that I hardly hear it. I look around me, but there's nothing but my usual mess of phials and jars. I open the door to my classroom, but it is as empty.
No, wait. The floor is shining slightly with a red brightness. What is this? I crouch and put my hand on the floor. When I look at it, it's all bloodied. I stare at the Dragon blood jar, expecting to meet an empty spot on the shelf, but the jar is as full and solid as ever. I get up again and start to walk around the tables. And then I spot him.
Draco Malfoy is lying in a corner, moaning with pain. His t-shirt has been ripped apart and large bloody gashes run across his back. His body is all bruised and cut. The state of his arms is simply awful. They're a network of cuts. His head is buried in his arms. And he's shaking with tears. I can hear him sobbing. When I approach him, he curls up even more, defence mechanism, I presume.
I take him softly in my arms and I see his face contort with pain. I don't know what to say, so I just hold him tightly and start to run through the halls. Thankfully, it's Saturday morning and students are still in their common rooms, or even sleeping. I nevertheless bump into Molly Weasley. Why, on Earth, did I have to bump into her, we can't stand each other and keep arguing on everything. This time however, she just turns on her heels and follows me silently to the hospital wing.
I can sense Draco's blood rolling down in my sleeves. Blood, so much blood. This makes memories come back, memories of my former Death Eater life. What did Fate want to say by letting me find the boy? He's breathing hard, coughing. Damn, I hope Poppy can do something for him. I couldn't bear him dying. I know I would take the blame on me as much as on Lucius. He's my godson, I should have known what was happening, but Molly Weasley seems to know even more than me. I feel like everything I do is wrong.
This castle is just too big, I've been running for what seems hours to me, and when I finally reach the hospital wing, I'm ten years older, I don't collapse from Draco's weight, he's exceptionally light, even too light; but I collapse from worry and blame. Why did I get up so late! If only I had found him sooner! I know the answer, I've got up late because I didn't want to face this freaking morning. And now, my cowardice makes an innocent kid pay the hard price.
Tears are still running down his pale cheeks, mixing with the blood from the cuts on his face. Pain must be excruciating for him. I know that the simple fact of touching him makes pain shoot through his body. I'm so stupid not to have brought my wand with me this morning, I could have levitated him.
Molly has gone to fetch Albus, so I stay here, watching Poppy trying to heal Draco's injuries. She has a look of murder on her face and her eyes glint with anger as well as worry. She doesn't like Draco, I don't think anybody likes him here, except for me and this Parkinson girl. He's so alone.
I know who did that. And it hurts. My best friend did that. Well, my former best friend, but still. I don't dread our meeting now. I want to face him, and ask him to explain me, to explain me why he did that to his son.
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"Why, Lucius, why?"
He looks at me, his eyes expressing no emotion. We're in a deserted hall. I don't want to be in a closed room with him.
"I don't think I need to justify myself in front of you."
"Just say why you did that to Draco. He doesn't deserve it. He's a brilliant kid!"
"I really don't see the point in telling you. I have no explanation to give to you and I think you should mind your own business, my friend."
"Do you really think I couldn't understand your reasons? We're friends Lucius, we have been since Hogwarts!"
I hope I lie well. I can't stand him anymore, but he's a precious ally in Voldemort's circle. I know he wouldn't stand for me, but at least, the fact that I am his *friend* protects me a lot against suspicions. He seems to take into consideration what I just said to him, and I know he's going to answer. I don't believe his reasons will be good ones, there are no good reasons for doing this to a kid.
"I wanted him to be better, to reach my expectations, but he failed miserably."
"You can't model him as you want. We've gone past the Play-Doh age. He's independent. How long have you been doing that?"
"I can't remember but that's not the point. He is weak. I achieved great things. I became powerful, I became a Death Eater. My father kept saying how useless I was, and I've proved him wrong. I rebelled against him, I've done things he would never have had the bravery to even begin. I wanted Draco to do the same. To surpass me, to the point of being Voldemort's equal. I thought that he would try to prove me he was better than all I could have expected. But this summer changed everything. He cowardly turned away from the great destiny I was offering him. But I'm not giving up. I'll win him back. He's priceless. As you so truly stated, he's brilliant, probably will be very powerful. Nothing can stop me, and Voldemort will help me. You can't save him, Severus. Nobody can."
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*Ginny's POV*
I haven't been able to sleep since four in the morning. I had sort of a knot in my stomach, sort of a bad feeling that was haunting me. The wound on my palm hurts like hell, and it's bleeding again. Why did I try to snatch his knife?
I can't take that damn pain anymore, but I don't want to go to the hospital wing. I hate this place, it makes me feel weak. I clutch my teddy against my heart and curl up in my bed. I don't care if people think it's childish to keep that teddy, they haven't been through what I did. After the Chamber of Secrets business, it took time to regain people's trust. I was alone and without friends, but my teddy, Arthur, was always there.
My head is throbbing, light hurts my eyes, I try to get up to get a glass of water, but my world starts spinning around, faster and faster. I try to get my balance back by closing my eyes, but it makes things worse.
"Ginny!"
The voice is distant, I don't know who speaks, last thing I know is that my head lands hard on the floor.
..........
When I wake up, I'm in the hospital wing. Great, that's just where I wanted to land. I look around for Mrs Pomfrey, but apparently, she is in her office. However, I spot somebody else lying here. Draco.
I get up and approach him. He seems so pale and fragile.
I hold Arthur tighter. I don't know who brought me there, but I'm happy and relieved to have it with me.
"Well, who would have thought Virginia Weasley still would have a teddy at her age..."
I'm a bit startled, I didn't expect him to be awake. His grey eyes stare at me with a hint of malice in them. Should I play soft and laugh, or retaliate harshly? I'm happy to see him, so...
"Yep, meet Arthur."
He raises an eyebrow at me; he probably thinks I'm totally insane. I'm not sure he ever had a teddy, so I can't blame him for not understanding.
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*Draco's POV*
There I wake, to find Weasley staring at me. Why did it have to be her? I don't know how to act around that girl. She confuses my mind. Seems like she cares, about me, about my problems. But it's impossible, nobody ever cared. It's not my fate to have people hold concern for me.
She has a teddy crushed on her heart. She looks quite innocent like that, but I can't help teasing her. She answers with a smile and a totally insane comment about her teddy's name. I'm glad she doesn't react badly, but I'm even more confused than before.
"So sad to see it's your only friend."
"And look who affords to speak like that."
Does she really know me that well? I haven't any friends, but the majority of the school thinks otherwise. Am I so transparent to her? She knows me better than myself. I wish I come back with a witty comment, but none comes to my mind, so I just turn my back to her. I don't give a damn if she sees its state, I just want to end that conversation, it is too weird.
Something soft and silky lands on my head, I brush it away, and I establish it's her teddy.
"Your teddy is not very educated, landing like this on sleeping people's heads." And I throw it at her.
"Sleeping, huh? Sure."
This time, she comes to face me and lays it next to me.
"What are you doing?"
"You need a friend, and apparently, you don't really get along with human ones. It appears that Arthur is not human, so... And you'd better take care of him, or I swear you'll regret it!"
She has now a big smile on her face. This time, I raise my two eyebrows at her, but I can't help grin a little. Seems like this day is not so nightmarish, finally. I've never had a teddy bear, so it's strange to have it next to me. I don't know what are her reasons for being so nice to me, but I mentally thank Weasley...Well, Virginia.
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She's left now, to Mrs Pomfrey's horror, but I can't get my thoughts away from her. Arthur is buried beneath the sheets, against my chest. This morning's session is like a bad memory, even if my body aches a lot. For the first time since I'm back to school, I feel better.
Maybe I have to stop whining over the past. I can't change it, I can't bring Hannah back, and inflicting myself such punishments don't make me go forward. Maybe I have to make up for my errors. Maybe I should throw that damn knife in the lake.
I'm worried, because apparently, Father hasn't given up on me. I know he'll manage to make me go home for Christmas. I know I'm going to go through hell over and over again. He didn't use Cruciatus this time, but it'll come again. I hope I can survive. I don't want to die anymore, I have too many things to repair.
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Fire'N'Ice...shorter than usual, but still there...
::big giant scream:: OMG!!!! I cannot express how good this is!!! NEVER EVER!!! I... I just.... I'm speechless, but that's going to change because right after I send this to you I'm going to work on my review. First I have to stop shaking. Damn. Wow. I love Arthur!! (Both the human one and the teddy bear, lol). ::deep breath:: One more thing: SCREW YOU LUCIUS!!!! Had to do that, you know :) Once again: wow. My mouths opening and closing as I try to think of something to say. You're going to have to wait for my review which is going to glow brighter than the fire in which I'm going to slowly cook Lucius!!! :-D
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Now, REVIEW!!!! Please please please...I need it, it's like coffee, it's addictive...Ok, off to drink some coffee. Hope you press the lil blue button!
Rubberduckie713: emotionality is a great word, maybe you should try to make him being recognized! I don't care if you can't review as often as you would want, as long as I get your reviews sometimes!!! At least, I know that you read my story. Ahem, I'm sure I'm crazier than you... Poor you, having to babysit your bro... Reminds me when I have to look after 25 kids when at scouts...A nightmare...
LiLCuNtRyGurl: Doesn't matter if you screw your last review (let's say it was your computer fault!) At least, I know you read my story!
Btrfly: Yeah, I'm quite proud about Hannah's POV; I thought it was missing in the story. Ahem, that's coz I didn't know it was magic when I wrote chappie 8.....*sheepish smile* I've decided it would be just before posting chappie 9 in fact. You'll understand later why I chose to do it that way.
Fire'N'Ice: Like always, I'm not gonna reply to your review, coz it would take a lot of place, and the purpose is to post a chappie, not insane ramblings! Thanx a lot for the work on this chappie!!! I can't wait to read your review! I'll answer your mail just after I post that...I have my whole adventures of the big scout game to tell you...was an interesting day... Hey, where would be the fun if you weren't crying! I'm sure you didn't cry this chappie...Wait for Christmas...Muahahaha! Ok, one more complaint! Where is the next part of Anya's story??? Please, I need it for my emotional balance (see, I didn't use *mental*...) Pretty please with Nemo on the top (Muahahaha, I know where your weaknesses lay!) He he he, do you know what; Dark Angel season 2 starts NEXT SATURDAY!!!!! I'm sure you're yelling in frustration right now! Muahahaha...I couldn't believe my luck when I read the new tv program this morning! Although, I would have known earlier, if I had watched the second ep of DA this morning, but it was 1 am, and I was dead exhausted...rough day...Did you get your dragon? Hope he will get along with my teddy. Maybe he would like to teach divination too!!!!! He he he...Ahem, See, I haven't put any Alice thing in this chappie! Aren't I nice? Read you soon!
Bob: I don't take forever long to post my chappies!!!! *pout*. Hey, who do you think you're talking to???? I WONT obey the *almighty Bob*...*stick out my tongue at you*. I'm not very patient either, so I understand..Are you happy??? Here is next chappie!!! I swear, if you don't review, I send Baby Norbert on you! Muahahaha. Ahem, Fire'N'Ice and Elven ice angel are just...you know...crazy. No need to roll your eyes at me!!!!! Ahem,. I'm not talking to you there, just to these two dummies that are in a war for the longest review..tsk tsk tsk.. I am the goddess of long reviews!!! Everybody has to bow in front of me! Soz, a bit out of my mind...lack of sleep...
Wiccan Angelle: He he he..a new reviewer!!! WELCOME to Cinnamon's insane land!!!! You're in love with this story? Are you sure you're not mad or something? Lol.
Carshaa: Oh, you're new too! I like your name! All the POVs???? Whoa, I'm dumbfounded...
Sunkitten: Hello! Thanks for your constructive crit again! Lucius is NOT thick...We haven't been in his head and memories for now, just his thoughts before killing Narcissa. In this chappie, he talks with Snape, I hope you like it. Don't worry, I won't make Lucius finish bad...Well, technically yes, but psychologically...Well, you'll see. Yep, Draco has indeed forgotten a little his reasons for such a behaviour. It's just coz it's rooted deep inside him now. Change in this chappie, I thought the storyline had to move. Ah.I have to learn off by heart the first sentence of a poem. I don't know how to translate the title but it's something like Bronze Knight or something. It's about Saint-Petersbourg. I like it a lot, but it's difficult to learn for me. After all, I've been studying Russian for two years only.
Luscious Kinney: glad you liked it! And happy to read you again! I don't think you need tissues for this chappie, it's lighter than the others! Hope you like it.
Mozartrox05: I'm VERY proud of you, your French is excellent, I've understood everything you wrote. A few mistakes, but they're not really important. If you want I can email you and explain you the mistakes. I think I continue in French now... Ah, le verbe manquer...un cauchemar pour ceux qui parlent Anglais normalement! Exactement comme votre verbe *to miss* pour nous ! Oui, Snape (ou Rogue, en Français) est un personnage intéressant. Je l'aime bien, parce qu'il est très mystérieux et qu'en fait, je pense qu'il souffre beaucoup. Draco ne vas plus se couper, il change dans ce chapitre ! J'espère que tu vas l'aimer ! Continue de me répondre en Français...Nice exercise for you !!!!!
Miriam G: I'm sure it's Voldie's trick if you couldn't log in! awh...Draco is maybe a fictional character...you've just shattered all my illusions...Boohoohoo... All my congratulations for your graduation! Sticker on your forehead in your yearbook? Damn, you probably look ridiculous...lol. I notice that your reviews have become more creative each time! See, it wasn't so difficult! Next time , you have to write at least 120 words...it's your new assignment!
Sabriel 4: on the contrary, Snape's POv was necessary, because of this chappie you're gonna read now! I hope you like it! I agree with him too about Pansy! Lol. Whoa two reviews!!!! My my my...I feel so special!!!! I know, I know, chappie 7 was short...this one is longer! Hope you continue with your story!
Madussa: Oh, you're new too!!! Welcome to my insane lil world... I love your review, it's really nice! I'll watch for the repetitions, but that'll be after my exams! I love reviews, coz they help me ask myself the right questions about my characters and some reviewers unconsciously gave me new ideas. Thanks a lot for your line about dreams, I think it's important. I really hope you'll continue to review this story. Hope you like the chappie.
Thank you all again!!!!!!!
Disclaimer: Mirror, mirror, tell me who's the owner of HP.
"Not you, but JKR..."
Ahem...Do you really want me to throw you through a window?
"Ok, it's you..."
Muahahahaha!!!!!!!
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Chapter 10: Snape, Lucius, and Arthur.
*Snape's POV*
Here we are, the great morning of my meeting with Lucius. I can't believe I am so nervous to meet him. I am now in my office, trying to correct some assignments. My desk is buried under the piles of parchment. I really should give less, it takes too much time to correct them. My eyes wander on the brilliant (not that I'm going to tell her) assignment of Hermione Granger when I hear a soft moan. So soft that I hardly hear it. I look around me, but there's nothing but my usual mess of phials and jars. I open the door to my classroom, but it is as empty.
No, wait. The floor is shining slightly with a red brightness. What is this? I crouch and put my hand on the floor. When I look at it, it's all bloodied. I stare at the Dragon blood jar, expecting to meet an empty spot on the shelf, but the jar is as full and solid as ever. I get up again and start to walk around the tables. And then I spot him.
Draco Malfoy is lying in a corner, moaning with pain. His t-shirt has been ripped apart and large bloody gashes run across his back. His body is all bruised and cut. The state of his arms is simply awful. They're a network of cuts. His head is buried in his arms. And he's shaking with tears. I can hear him sobbing. When I approach him, he curls up even more, defence mechanism, I presume.
I take him softly in my arms and I see his face contort with pain. I don't know what to say, so I just hold him tightly and start to run through the halls. Thankfully, it's Saturday morning and students are still in their common rooms, or even sleeping. I nevertheless bump into Molly Weasley. Why, on Earth, did I have to bump into her, we can't stand each other and keep arguing on everything. This time however, she just turns on her heels and follows me silently to the hospital wing.
I can sense Draco's blood rolling down in my sleeves. Blood, so much blood. This makes memories come back, memories of my former Death Eater life. What did Fate want to say by letting me find the boy? He's breathing hard, coughing. Damn, I hope Poppy can do something for him. I couldn't bear him dying. I know I would take the blame on me as much as on Lucius. He's my godson, I should have known what was happening, but Molly Weasley seems to know even more than me. I feel like everything I do is wrong.
This castle is just too big, I've been running for what seems hours to me, and when I finally reach the hospital wing, I'm ten years older, I don't collapse from Draco's weight, he's exceptionally light, even too light; but I collapse from worry and blame. Why did I get up so late! If only I had found him sooner! I know the answer, I've got up late because I didn't want to face this freaking morning. And now, my cowardice makes an innocent kid pay the hard price.
Tears are still running down his pale cheeks, mixing with the blood from the cuts on his face. Pain must be excruciating for him. I know that the simple fact of touching him makes pain shoot through his body. I'm so stupid not to have brought my wand with me this morning, I could have levitated him.
Molly has gone to fetch Albus, so I stay here, watching Poppy trying to heal Draco's injuries. She has a look of murder on her face and her eyes glint with anger as well as worry. She doesn't like Draco, I don't think anybody likes him here, except for me and this Parkinson girl. He's so alone.
I know who did that. And it hurts. My best friend did that. Well, my former best friend, but still. I don't dread our meeting now. I want to face him, and ask him to explain me, to explain me why he did that to his son.
.......................
"Why, Lucius, why?"
He looks at me, his eyes expressing no emotion. We're in a deserted hall. I don't want to be in a closed room with him.
"I don't think I need to justify myself in front of you."
"Just say why you did that to Draco. He doesn't deserve it. He's a brilliant kid!"
"I really don't see the point in telling you. I have no explanation to give to you and I think you should mind your own business, my friend."
"Do you really think I couldn't understand your reasons? We're friends Lucius, we have been since Hogwarts!"
I hope I lie well. I can't stand him anymore, but he's a precious ally in Voldemort's circle. I know he wouldn't stand for me, but at least, the fact that I am his *friend* protects me a lot against suspicions. He seems to take into consideration what I just said to him, and I know he's going to answer. I don't believe his reasons will be good ones, there are no good reasons for doing this to a kid.
"I wanted him to be better, to reach my expectations, but he failed miserably."
"You can't model him as you want. We've gone past the Play-Doh age. He's independent. How long have you been doing that?"
"I can't remember but that's not the point. He is weak. I achieved great things. I became powerful, I became a Death Eater. My father kept saying how useless I was, and I've proved him wrong. I rebelled against him, I've done things he would never have had the bravery to even begin. I wanted Draco to do the same. To surpass me, to the point of being Voldemort's equal. I thought that he would try to prove me he was better than all I could have expected. But this summer changed everything. He cowardly turned away from the great destiny I was offering him. But I'm not giving up. I'll win him back. He's priceless. As you so truly stated, he's brilliant, probably will be very powerful. Nothing can stop me, and Voldemort will help me. You can't save him, Severus. Nobody can."
.....................
*Ginny's POV*
I haven't been able to sleep since four in the morning. I had sort of a knot in my stomach, sort of a bad feeling that was haunting me. The wound on my palm hurts like hell, and it's bleeding again. Why did I try to snatch his knife?
I can't take that damn pain anymore, but I don't want to go to the hospital wing. I hate this place, it makes me feel weak. I clutch my teddy against my heart and curl up in my bed. I don't care if people think it's childish to keep that teddy, they haven't been through what I did. After the Chamber of Secrets business, it took time to regain people's trust. I was alone and without friends, but my teddy, Arthur, was always there.
My head is throbbing, light hurts my eyes, I try to get up to get a glass of water, but my world starts spinning around, faster and faster. I try to get my balance back by closing my eyes, but it makes things worse.
"Ginny!"
The voice is distant, I don't know who speaks, last thing I know is that my head lands hard on the floor.
..........
When I wake up, I'm in the hospital wing. Great, that's just where I wanted to land. I look around for Mrs Pomfrey, but apparently, she is in her office. However, I spot somebody else lying here. Draco.
I get up and approach him. He seems so pale and fragile.
I hold Arthur tighter. I don't know who brought me there, but I'm happy and relieved to have it with me.
"Well, who would have thought Virginia Weasley still would have a teddy at her age..."
I'm a bit startled, I didn't expect him to be awake. His grey eyes stare at me with a hint of malice in them. Should I play soft and laugh, or retaliate harshly? I'm happy to see him, so...
"Yep, meet Arthur."
He raises an eyebrow at me; he probably thinks I'm totally insane. I'm not sure he ever had a teddy, so I can't blame him for not understanding.
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*Draco's POV*
There I wake, to find Weasley staring at me. Why did it have to be her? I don't know how to act around that girl. She confuses my mind. Seems like she cares, about me, about my problems. But it's impossible, nobody ever cared. It's not my fate to have people hold concern for me.
She has a teddy crushed on her heart. She looks quite innocent like that, but I can't help teasing her. She answers with a smile and a totally insane comment about her teddy's name. I'm glad she doesn't react badly, but I'm even more confused than before.
"So sad to see it's your only friend."
"And look who affords to speak like that."
Does she really know me that well? I haven't any friends, but the majority of the school thinks otherwise. Am I so transparent to her? She knows me better than myself. I wish I come back with a witty comment, but none comes to my mind, so I just turn my back to her. I don't give a damn if she sees its state, I just want to end that conversation, it is too weird.
Something soft and silky lands on my head, I brush it away, and I establish it's her teddy.
"Your teddy is not very educated, landing like this on sleeping people's heads." And I throw it at her.
"Sleeping, huh? Sure."
This time, she comes to face me and lays it next to me.
"What are you doing?"
"You need a friend, and apparently, you don't really get along with human ones. It appears that Arthur is not human, so... And you'd better take care of him, or I swear you'll regret it!"
She has now a big smile on her face. This time, I raise my two eyebrows at her, but I can't help grin a little. Seems like this day is not so nightmarish, finally. I've never had a teddy bear, so it's strange to have it next to me. I don't know what are her reasons for being so nice to me, but I mentally thank Weasley...Well, Virginia.
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She's left now, to Mrs Pomfrey's horror, but I can't get my thoughts away from her. Arthur is buried beneath the sheets, against my chest. This morning's session is like a bad memory, even if my body aches a lot. For the first time since I'm back to school, I feel better.
Maybe I have to stop whining over the past. I can't change it, I can't bring Hannah back, and inflicting myself such punishments don't make me go forward. Maybe I have to make up for my errors. Maybe I should throw that damn knife in the lake.
I'm worried, because apparently, Father hasn't given up on me. I know he'll manage to make me go home for Christmas. I know I'm going to go through hell over and over again. He didn't use Cruciatus this time, but it'll come again. I hope I can survive. I don't want to die anymore, I have too many things to repair.
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::big giant scream:: OMG!!!! I cannot express how good this is!!! NEVER EVER!!! I... I just.... I'm speechless, but that's going to change because right after I send this to you I'm going to work on my review. First I have to stop shaking. Damn. Wow. I love Arthur!! (Both the human one and the teddy bear, lol). ::deep breath:: One more thing: SCREW YOU LUCIUS!!!! Had to do that, you know :) Once again: wow. My mouths opening and closing as I try to think of something to say. You're going to have to wait for my review which is going to glow brighter than the fire in which I'm going to slowly cook Lucius!!! :-D
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