disclaimer: I don't own the song, or any of the Naruto characters...even though I wish I did!
song: What Hurts the Most Artist: Rascal Flatts
Ok. this is my fist fic, so don't be too harsh please!
Naruto's POV telling Sasuke about how he feels.
:lyrics:
Naruto's story
:I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me:
Water came down in sheets from gray-black clouds that hung low over the village. I could hear it splatting on the windowpane and seeing it dosen't really bother me. They are just like my tears. I mean, few things can really make me feel anymore. Sure, I still love ramen, and i still smile, but its forced. Being alone and hated so much by the people I try so hard to get to see me for who I am, and not what is in me has taken its toll on me. Sure I have Sakura, she is a good friend and all, but ever since You left, I just hurt so much.
:What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do:
I saw you every day. That smirk and those taunts you carelessly threw my way where the only thing I lived for. I came so colose to telling you my feelings for you one day during training. You had me pinned to a tree, your body pressed close to mine, driving me wild. I blushed and you asked me what my problem was. I was about to blurt it out, but then I glanced up and saw that cold hard look in your eyes and another piece of my heart broke. I glanced down and said that there was nothing wrong. You released me and turned without a word and walked home. What you don't know is that when you were out of sight, I dropped to my knees and cried. Hard. I could feel my heart constricting at the thought of never knowing the feel of your lips on mine or of never seeing you smile. I love you so much.
:It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken:
There is nothing in the village that dosen't remind me of you. Just living has become so hard. Doing everything that a person has to do, every single little thing. I see you. But I have to keep living, so maybe if you come back...But even though I hurt so much inside, seeing what you have done to everyone else hurts me so much. Just being with Sakura, joking, training, it hurts to have to force the smiles and the hollow laughs to cover up the pain. I walk the streets alone, seeing places I spent time with you. The bridge, that brings back another memory. Once when you smiled, and I have the feeling that if I could give the very words in my heart to you, I would, to see that smile again right now. But I couldn't do it then, so what makes me think I could do it now.
:What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do:
You would call me all sorts of things, Dobe being your favorite, and it would hurt me. But in some small corner of my heart, i cherished it. It showed me that you were paying attention to me. That you noticed me. but you would always wind up bringing up my hopes that we could be something, and then you would brop me, like a hot potato, when I least expected it. Like you would notice any of that anyway. you were so oblivious. you spent more time with your back turned to me and your feet carrying you away than you did sparing and training with and insulting me. Noticing me. I could never tell you my feelings.
:What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do:
The thing that just broke me was when you left for good. I ran after you and grabbed your arm. you tried to yank your arm ayay, and when you couldn't, you turned on me. You spat obcenities at me cursing me and everyone else. you were being so self-righteous that you didn't notice the tears in my eyes. You saw right through me, didn't notice me yet again. I hated hearing you say those things to me, so I released you from my grip and you didn't even notice. You just kept yelling. I wanted to yell back that I loved you and that I didn't want you to leave, but you suddenly looked down and saw I wasn't holding your arm anymore. You spun on your heel withut another word. You never even once looked back. I'm almost glad you didn't. I was on the ground crying.
:Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do:
You wouldn't have seen me anyway.
-FIN-
OK, so I would love reviews, and if I get a lot, I might make another songfic. I have a bunch floating up in my head!