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This continues from the last chapter but it is about Marissa

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After hearing the I love you from the other line she hung up the phone as well.

She sat in the grass and took a deep breath. The sweet scent of nature tingled her senses. The chirping of the birds could be heard in the background. She let the last tear roll down her cheek and fall on the grass. She brushed her fingers over the name of the headstone and for the last time, imagined what could've been. She smiled a slight smile, and knew that Jack's minute on earth would not be forgotten and his death wont bring upon regret. She knew that she cherished the very small amount of time she had with him and she knew that he would be same in the arms of Heaven. She stood up, looked to the skies and whispered Goodbye my baby. Goodbye Jack. And she smiled and that love she had for him overwhelmed her. She closed her eyes and saw his peaceful face that was seared in her memory.

She walked away from the grave and looked back one last time. She would bring flower and bears on his birthday. She would visit sometimes but no longer would she grieve. She would only continue to love.

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If I could
I'd protect you from the sadness in your eyes
Give you courage in a world of compromise
Yes, I would

If I could
I would teach you all the things I've never learned
And I'd help you cross the bridges that I've burned
Yes, I would

If I could
I would try to shield your innocence from time
But the part of life I gave you isn't mine
I've watched you grow
So I could let you go

If I could
I would help you make it through the hungry years
But I know that I can never cry your tears
But I would
If I could

If I live
In a time and place where you don't want to be
You don't have to walk along this road with me
My yesterday
Won't have to be your way

If I knew
I'd have tried to change the world I brought to you to
And there isn't very much that I can do
But I would
If I could...
Oh baby... mummy wants to protect you
And help my baby through the hungry years
It's part of me
And if you ever... ever need
Sad shoulder to cry on
I'm just someone to talk to
I'll be there... I'll be there
I didn't change your world
But I would
If I Could