Ok so this is pretty much Sasuke's chapter. I don't own him or any of the other characters and i don't own the song in this chapter which is called 'Cold' and it's by Crossfade.
Chapter 2: Never Meant To Be So Cold
Sasuke's prov.
I was standing on the bridge waiting for my team when SHE appeared...Sakura.
She told me good morning but all i say was 'hey'...just 'hey'. That's it.
Looking back at me I see that I never really got it right,
I never stopped to think of you.
I wanted to say more but I couldn't show any emotion...no signs of what I really felt. I couldn't let myself be weak or get attached to this girl...I had a job to do and that was to get stronger so I could avenge my clan.
It didn't involve a certain pink haired girl either.
I'm always wrapped up in things I cannot win.
So that's how the day began...but it only got worse.
When Naruto and sensai (sp) finally arrived we started training...me and Sakura were the first to battle.
You are the antidote that got me by,
Something strong like a drug that got me high...
I didn't want to hurt her but I had to defeat her or I'll never get better...I have to constantly train.
What I really meant to say,
Is that I'm sorry for the way I am.
I never meant to be so cold,
Never meant to be so cold.
To tell you the truth she was no match for my physical strength, even if her chakra control is better, I can still over power her.
What I really meant to say,
Is that I'm sorry for the way I am.
I never meant to be so cold,
Never meant to be so cold...
I know how hard she trains and I have a feeling it's to impress me since I know how much she likes me but I'm sorry Sakura...
To you am sorry bout all the lies,
I can't tell you how I really feel about you...
Maybe in a differant light,
You can see me stand on my own again,
I can't have you dragged into my personal problems...I can't have any distractions either...I'm sorry...I have to constantly put on a cold mask.
Cause now I can see,
You are the antidote that got me by,
Something strong like a drug that got me high...
It was lunch now and I walked off to eat, alone.
From where I was I could see Sakura still training.
What I really meant to say,
Is that I'm sorry for the way I am.
I never meant to be so cold,
Never meant to be so cold.
I'm sorry Sakura...the truth is that I've always loved you...I just can't have you in my way...I have a mission to avenge my clan and you can't be dragged into it. I'm sorry I have to be so cold to you.
What I really meant to say,
Is that I'm sorry for the way I am.
I never meant to be so cold,
Never meant to be so cold...
As I ate lunch I watched her...she just wouldn't quite, one of the many reasons why I've fallen for her.
She kept training till her hands were bleeding and she showed no signs of stopping.
I never meant to be so cold...
I felt guilty - it was half my fault for not giving her the attention she needed so now Sakura felt like she had to earn it by impressing me.
I never really wanted you to see,
The scewed up side of me that I keep,
I couldn't handle watching her hurt herself anymore.
I walked over.
"What are you doing?" I asked casually.
Locked inside of me so deep,
It always seems to get to me.
She seemed taken back by my question but quickly straightened up.
"Training," she answered simply.
I never really wanted you to go,
Well duh. That's not what I meant.
"Your not going to get anywhere by killing yourself," I replied.
Bad move...she was mad.
So many things you should have known,
She started yelling at me and told me that she does all this to get my attention since I never give her the time of day.
These things she was telling me, I already knew.
Your wrong Sakura...you don't know how I really feel.
I guess for me there's just no hope.
I have to tell her. She deserves to know.
I got closer and looked into her beautiful green eyes...then, I put my hand over her bloodly one.
"I know Sakura, I'm sorry," I told her, "the truth is...I love you."
I never meant to be so cold.
Good. Got that part out of the way, now I just have to explain it to her.
I then told her everything and explained myself for my actions.
She seemed to understand because she didn't say anything so I took this time to make my move...
What I really meant to say,
Is that I'm sorry for the way I am.
I never meant to be so cold,
Never meant to be so cold...
I covered my lips over hers and I kissed her. It felt so good to finally let her know my feelings and to get to hold her...even if I did have a mission I would just have to work around it to be with Sakura.
What I really meant to say,
Is that I'm sorry for the way I am.
Never meant to be so cold.
I would always protect her no matter what.
"I love you too," she finally said back.
No obstacles would hold us back.
She knew.
I knew.
I never meant to be so cold.
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Hey, Hey. I'm finaly done cause yes my computer is STILL a little screwy but i think i'm learnin to get around it. Hope you liked this short little story. Plz review and now i'm on to update 'Just Wanna Be Me' FINALLY.
---rayluva4