Thirst and Hunger

Disclaimer: I have some kinder chocolates, that is all…well now I have some short bread cookies.

Notes: I hope everyone got the format. Here is Roxas' introduction. Each chapter has a different narration view. For the second part, It is in Roxas' point of view, but narrated by someone else. The next chapter will continue where the last chapter roughly left off. So most likely the pattern will be Axel, Roxas, Axel, etc. Before each chapter a little blurb will be said directly in Axel's/Roxas' point of view, like below, and then the chapter will start.

Summery: AU AkuRoku, one sided. He thought he was addicted to drugs, but maybe he was just addicted to him. How can you treat someone who has an addiction t a person?

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Prologue II – Chapter I

Hey you, yes you. I saw you talking to that red haired freak. Don't listen to a word he says, alright? He's a liar and fools people every day. I'm trying to save you from what I went through. I see that look in your eyes, he has intrigued you with his 'story'. I bet he mentioned me, I'm that boy that 'betrayed' him. If you're going to listen to his side of the story, at least listen to mine. It's most likely closer to the truth than his, he was always so biased. He actually told you about himself? That's almost funny, Mr. Enigma giving an about me tangent to a stranger, no offense. Well, I'll give you one too, it's only fair you get the whole picture. They say there are two sides of every story, why not get both?

Part One; Family:

My father died when I was younger, around three years old. We were close, I guess. I miss him and stuff but I was too young to enjoy father and son bonding. Now my mother is always busy, and works a lot. I respect her for that, but she's a gullible woman. I care for her of course, she's all I have left. I have a cousin, his name is Sora. Crazy guy, but most people think he is some stupid ditz. He really isn't, he's just a perky kind of person. We're like brothers, we grew up together. Since my mother was always working, my aunt took care of me along with her own son, Sora. Over the years Sora and I have drifted apart more and more, but we still can talk. The only thing that really bugs me about Sora is his stupid ass friends, I hate them, I'll explain later. My family was pretty normal before he came along, he changed things forever, and I don't think I can ever forgive him. Yes, that red haired bullshitter.

Part Two; Social/School Life:

I had normal friends before he came along, then he just dragged me into a world of darkness. The retarded thing is, I liked it, just not enough to stay there. I lost a lot of my naiveté and innocence this past school year. I thought I grew up already, and understood the world. Boy, was I wrong, I was even more ignorant than before. Sora was my best friend back then, and even that red haired freak could be considered my friend. Yes, I do hate him, you don't need to state the obvious. Use his name? Fine I will use his name. Axel, Axel, Axel, I hate Axel.

Now my friends were Pence, Olette, and Hayner. We were friends since 1st grade, that ended this year. We don't talk anymore, it's my fault though but mostly Axel's. Also there are Sora's friends, Riku, Kairi, Tidus, Wakka, Namine, and Selphie. Now, Riku introduced some of his friends to Sora, who later I met. Sora always clicked with people easily, and they soon became his new friends. If I remember their names correctly they were Demyx, Zexion, Marluxia, Larxene, and Axel. There most likely are more, but something about them made me feel uneasy. I was right to feel uneasy, I should have listened to my gut, but no, I was a retarded teenage boy. So this year I was in the 11th grade, yes Axel is one year older than me, so is Riku. What else?

Oh yes, more about the studious side of me. I was a great student, had some of the best grades in my grade level. I guess that made me popular, but it also brought assholes around me. This guy named Siefer and his lackeys used to bug me, they eventually stopped, I'll get into more details later. Yep, I was normal, shocking huh?

Part Three; about me:

I never really felt the need to know people. I had good friends, and I didn't need more. I also hated kids that just wasted their lives away by drugs and constant self-pleasure. Ha, you're thinking something dirty aren't you? Well it isn't meant to be you pervert. Now, I never had a girlfriend in my life, in fact I don't think I had feelings for anyone. What do you mean by Axel? I never liked that crack head, shut up. I'm asexual alright? Sex always freaked me out, and only once did I consider having it. What is with you and these Axel questions? No, I never wanted to sleep with Axel. Though I did end up doing so, I have no idea how he did it.

I hate what I have become, a damned junkie. That's why I am here, that's why we are all here, isn't it? We are all addicted to something we shouldn't be. I got hooked on dolls, silly little things they are. Wait, no, not dolls as in toys. Dolls as in pills, like oxycotton and vicodin. I'm better now though, I can sleep without a sleeping pill these days. I forgot how to sleep without them for a time, funny huh? I don't know what else to tell you about me, since I don't even recognize myself anymore.

You know my name, right? Eh? Not sure? It's Roxas, wait why don't I know yours?

Oh mother tell your children...

Roxas was busy finishing up his English paper about some old English play. His cousin, Sora, wanted to drag him to some party. Sora said this year he needed to enjoy life and become more outgoing. Roxas didn't want to be outgoing, he had enough friends for his own taste. Ever since that Riku guy came along, Sora had been coming home later from school, spending a lot of time on the phone, and seemed much happier. He'd never talk to Riku, but Roxas got a weird feeling from him. Like he was a warning of something bigger and worse to come. It is his cousin's life though, and if he wants to hangout with the wrong crowd, that is his choice.

"Roxas, come on! It's time to go!" Sora dragged Roxas' arm, trying to get him out of the door.

"Why do you care about my social life anyways? Just because you're some social butterfly doesn't mean I am" Roxas growled and freed himself from Sora's hold.

"Roxas, please one party that is it. You can not talk to anyone if you really want to, just Riku is there and I promised him I'd go. You should truly broaden your group of friends, I bet you'll meet a pretty girl there, or someone really cool" It was hopeless, Roxas did not seem pleased, but highly annoyed rather.

"I don't care, I'll go there, only for you, but you owe me big time" Sora smiled and tightly hugged his cousin.

"Thanks Roxas!" Roxas rolled his eyes and saw a car pull up. Sora let go of him and soon was out the front door.

"That's Riku, come on, let's go!" Roxas took in a deep breath and sighed.

Why did Sora feel responsible for his social life? Things were so much simpler when the two of them were younger. He guessed testosterone drove them apart, Roxas became somber while Sora became mirthful. When they were younger the two of them didn't need to worry about friends, how people perceived them, and surely sex. Sex was always a hot topic among the boys in their age group. Roxas wasn't waiting for the right person to come along, no nothing like that. He just couldn't picture having sex with any of his friends, and no way would he have a one night stand with some stranger. He wanted maybe a little meaning, a little sense or romance, at least a bond between them. He and Sora never talked about the act of sex, just roughly touching the surface. He assumed Sora had some sort of sexual encounter. The closest thing Roxas ever had to a sexual encounter was when Olette was drunk and made a forceful move on him. She didn't remember, and so Roxas never brought it up.

"Roxas! Hurry up, get in!" Sora yelled interrupting Roxas' train of thought.

"I'm coming" Roxas walked to the car and got in. He sat in the back seat, while his cousin was sitting in the passenger seat up front. Soon Riku and Sora started a conversation, Roxas soon tuned out. Who was that weirdo who dropped Sora off earlier today? Sora said his name was Axlet wait no, Alex? No, Axel. Yes, Axel was his name. Sora told Roxas the story of how he met Axel, by almost getting run over. At least this Axel was decent enough to drop Sora home. Still, that guy was already an asshole in Roxas' book of people to stay away from.

"Roxas? Roxas are you listening? Riku asked you if you wanted to hangout with the two of us tomorrow" Sora gave Roxas a 'at least try and pay attention' glare.

"You could bring a friend if you like. It's just a simple movie and lunch sort of thing, nothing fancy" Riku added

Roxas gently bit his lip and clasped his hands together. Who could he bring? Pence had work at the computer store, Hayner was out of town, and he couldn't bring Olette, she'd get the wrong idea. Over the summer Olette began act weird around him, he didn't understand girls at all. She'd want to hangout with him, and it took her longer than usual to get ready. She didn't talk to Roxas as much as before either, yet still was around him. A week before school began, she asked Roxas to come with her to the park at night. She confessed that she liked him, maybe even loved him, and it took her awhile to realize this. Roxas felt mortified, he didn't want to hurt her feelings, but he couldn't fake affection back. He just muttered under his breath 'I can't love' and walked away from her. He couldn't act the way he did before, and he felt bad about it. Pence yelled at him for his actions, but once he explained Pence understood a bit more. Pence still did not excuse him though, in fact he admitted he had liked Olette for a long time, and wish she would care for him back. He still felt a bit envious that Roxas got her love, when he didn't feel for her. Their friendship was strained a bit, but things got better once school started. It seemed like the whole thing never happened. It seemed like everyone but Roxas forgot about the whole situation.

"I'll think about it" Sora smiled and started talking to Riku once again.

Roxas then realized the car stopped moving, and was in front of what he assumed what Riku's house. He opened the car door and got out, following Sora and Riku. Riku was laughing about some joke Sora made and searching for his house key.

"Do you have the time Roxas?" Sora turned to his cousin, then he nodded.

"It is eight fifty nine" Roxas heard a screech, like the sound of someone breaking too hard, and saw a car. The car's headlight's dimmed then turned off, revealing the driver.

"Axel, right on time" Riku opened the door inviting the three guests into his house.

Axel walked past Roxas towards Riku. He watched Axel very closely, wasn't this the guy who almost ran over his cousin? He saw him greet Riku and they both smiled. Then suddenly Riku frowned and sniffed Axel's clothes.

"Are you drunk?" Riku growled under his breath

Sora tried to ignore the conversation, and Roxas couldn't help but overhear.

"No, no, just a few drink I swear. Nothing big, I don't want to mess things up and-" Riku began to rub his temples and walk into the house. Roxas tried to make out what he had said, but it didn't make sense. Sora followed Riku into the house, and Roxas and Axel were left outside. Roxas walked over to Axel, he needed to talk with this jerk-off.

"Hey you, yes you!" Axel faced Roxas and smirked a bit.

"Look, I'm not into little boys, sorry if you had your heart set on me" Roxas growled while Axel just laughed.

"Eww, you sleazebag. You are dirty pervert, I could never feel any sort of attraction to you. Back to my original question, are you the one who almost ran over my cousin?" Axel had bent down and both of them were face to face.

"Well, if you put it that way, maybe. He's fine, and I didn't mean any harm. No need to go in protective father mode on me, dear sir" Axel took his index finger and poked Roxas in the chest. His brain was telling him to beat the shit out of this twig, and try to avoid him forever. One problem was, he knew he couldn't beat the shit out of anyone. Axel was at least a foot and a half taller than him, and didn't look exactly weak for his frame. By the time Roxas had stopped thinking about what to do, Axel had begun walking inside Riku's house.

"You're an asshole!" Roxas screamed towards him

"Great come back kid" Axel continued walking and entered the house. Roxas growled and soon followed Axel. He saw the red haired boy enter into a room, which he discovered was locked. He decided to not to meet, talk, or look at anyone he did not know the rest of the night. Roxas walked into a room, where Riku and Sora were having a conversation. He decided to hide behind the corner, and just listen.

"Sora, Axel isn't as good as you think he is. Maybe I gave him too much credit as good person. He has a lot of problems, most no one knows about. He gets through them, but the damage it has done to him, has left a mark. Axel's world and your world, they shouldn't meet"

"What do you mean by that Riku?" A sigh was heard, who Roxas assumed was made by Riku.

"He's just trouble for good hearted people like you and Roxas. You two sometimes don't know how dark the world can be" Roxas mentally growled at Riku. He was not naïve, he knew how horrible the world could be. Children dying, while fat rich men blow billions of dollars on themselves, wars and racism, he wasn't gullible.

"Ha, I do have to admit I'm an optimist. Though maybe Axel just needs someone like Roxas, someone who can set him straight. Roxas has been having problems with his friends, and I think he needs someone he can talk to. Besides me of course." Urgh. Why was Sora telling Riku all about his current social situation? Why couldn't he just live his life the way he wanted to? No, that'd be a horrible crime against humanity.

"I've tried for years, but you never know. I'll introduce them later tonight when the party starts, but I warned you Sora, alright? So don't you get pissed or anything, you whine like a three year old" Roxas felt someone tap his shoulder, he turned around seeing Axel. He jumped a bit from the shock then growled.

"Go away" he hissed

"Aren't you mister nosey? You shouldn't be so mean to me, all I ever did was try and get along with you" Roxas blinked, so Axel was a little bit right, okay maybe completely right. Roxas was the one who went on attack mode on Axel, and Axel just brushed it off.

"Just shut up, they might hear us" Roxas grabbed Axel's thin arm and pulled him away with him a few feet away.

"So, my name is Roxas. Yours is Axel, you're one grade above me. There now we know each other" Axel made a confused face and Roxas sighed.

"Yes, my name is Axel, and I am very bored. Are you bored?" Axel smirked

"Yes, I am bored. Who wouldn't be?" Roxas crossed his arms over his chest.

"Well, I think I know something you might like"

Not to do what I have done...

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Notes: woot, woot. Cliffhanger? Of course! Please review, because everyone wants to see more sex, drugs, and violence. Everything your parents told you were bad! ;x