AN: second installment. oh, and the "him" in italics refers to her past lover.

MURRUE: MISTAKE

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He was a soldier, a mobile armour pilot, just like him.

She was stupid enough to fall for him, stupid enough to make the same mistake twice. Like the world that she lived in, she failed to learn from the past, and as a result, history repeated itself. She ended up making that same mistake, and got the same result.

However, as she thought back to the time they spent together, was it really a mistake?

The answer, to some, and even to herself sometimes, was yes. Because falling in love with him had caused her so much pain and grief. She remembered the restless nights she spent, worrying about what might, and could, happen, and the rivers of tears that she'd shed because of him.

So, if she had made the mistake once, why did she do it again? And ending up hurting herself again?

The silver pendant around her neck constantly reminded her not to do it, not to put her heart on the line again. But she forgot; he had made her forget. With his boyish charms and good humour, he managed to break the wall she'd put up around her heart.

I-I don't really like mobile armour pilots…

Looking back, she could have prevented him from entering, she could have turned him away. But instead, she accepted his love, and let him into her heart willingly, even though she knew at the back of her mind that she shouldn't, because she knew what might happen, and feared it everyday.

Then why? Why did she let her guard down so easily?

Because she wanted love, her heart needed love, his love. And it had hurt even more for her to push him away. Try as she might, she could not deny the desires of her heart, could not deny the fact that without meaning to, she had already fallen in love.

You know, a captain shouldn't look that depressed.

She wanted—needed—him to be there for her, to support her, to assure her. She had been able to go through the toughest of times because he was there beside her. He had been there to mend her broken heart, to bring a smile to her face, and to melt away her doubts and anxieties with a smile, an embrace, a kiss. So even knowing full well that her heart was in danger of breaking again, she took that chance and welcomed his love. Because there was also a chance that her heart would not break, that she would find true happiness. For the moment, she didn't care, she was happy, happy to love and be loved by him. He had brought her love and joy, if only for a short while, a time that she would treasure dearly.

So, was loving him a mistake?

No. It's never a mistake to fall in love, even if it is for the second time, knowing that history will repeat itself.

AN: I like how this turned out, even if it's kinda angsty. this couple is my fave, I love how their relationship develops over SEED.