MWU: DOUBT

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He hated to see her in pain. He remembered the lingering sadness in her eyes as she clutched the silver pendent to her heart, mourning loss from the past. He wanted to hold her in his arms, to share her burden, and take away her sadness.

But he also knew that he would be causing her grief.

He could see her fear, her fear of falling in love with him. Did he want her to go through that pain?

He had never really doubted his abilities as a pilot and a soldier, but he was starting to doubt his abilities to love her, to take away her fears.

Even if he did try, he wasn't sure if he would succeed. Because even though the Hawk of Endymion acted as if he was self-assured and nothing could faze him, he was only human, and there was doubt and fear in the darkness of his heart as well.

He wanted to win her heart, her love, but was there room for him? She was still mourning him, still in love with him, and he knew that part of her heart would always belong to him.

Sometimes when she looked at him with those frightened eyes, he could see that she wasn't looking at him, and that the hope and love lingering in those amber orbs were not for him.

He had not dared to look inside her pendant, or ask her about it, because he had no right to know. But still, he often wondered about him, the one who had come before, the one who had loved her, and left her. He wondered what he was like, how he had managed to leave such an impression on her that she would never stop loving him or forget him.

Would she do the same for me?

He knew he could never replace what was lost to her, but could he at least fill the void in her heart?

He was afraid, afraid to cause her pain, but there was also a selfish fear as well. He was afraid that she would compare him to her past love, and even more afraid that he would lose, that he would disappoint her, and wouldn't be able to mend her heart like he wanted to.

They say you never forget your first love…

He would never ask her to forget him, or her past, and he didn't seek to replace him in her heart.

…But is there room for another?

But when her soft lips caressed his, all doubts melted away.