A Little Deception
Hotaru
Sometimes it seems like I've known her all my life. She knows so much and yet at the same time, so little about me. She is my dearest friend and... She's my best friend.
I'm not blind. I'm not stupid. She'd said it so many times when we were children. I admit it though, I hadn't thought much of it, her feelings I mean. She was only a little girl after all. I was sure she'd grow out of it. I was sure that her feelings would move onto Natsume.
They hadn't though. It's been six years since she came here. Six years. I have eyes. I'm not blind. Her interests lie nowhere near Natsume, or any male for that matter. Her feelings hve remained faithful to me. She's noticed others. Other girls. I've seen her look. No one else has though.
She isn't aware that I know. I've kept it that way. I figured that if she wanted me or anyone else to know, she'd say something.
I don't think that anyone has guessed. My prediction about her feelings shifting to Natsume...I had it the wrong way. He has fallen for her. I don't blame him, she's-
I've been cruel to her. Mean, nasty, and downright cruel. Knowing her feelings for me I pushed her away. Knowing her feelings toward girls, I pushed her towards Natsume.
I disgust myself sometimes.
I'm trying to protect myself, because the truth is that I have fallen in love with her. My Mikan.