Title: Torn
Pairing: Sam/Jack
Summary: Sam tells Jack that she gave up.
Spoilers: Death Knell
Word Count: 336
Disclaimer: Just borrowing them for a few months -
Notes: Prompt #32 from over at 100situations at LJ.
Torn
'I always got a thrill out of being chased. I don't quite understand why it gave me a rush or whatever you'd like to call it. Looking back on it now, I realise that I should have been terrified and in all honesty I was. But inside there was that little nagging voice telling me that deep down I got some enjoyment out of the situation. The enjoyment being a very miniscule part of my emotions. Running around hiding from the enemy. If I had to admit that it gave me some satisfaction I would. But today, after all that has happened, after that… soldier tried to hunt me down like an animal, the thrill wasn't there anymore. It had gone. Perhaps because I knew that there might be the distinct possibility that I might not make it this time. That this chase may be the last one. And then when I tried and failed to kill him and the rocket didn't work and he lived I think that I just gave up. I sat on the ground with my head down. I was ashamed of myself. Ashamed that I didn't know the answer and that I couldn't kill it. I didn't know what to do so I gave up. I was ready… ready for that… thing to kill me. But I was spared once again and you rescued me. You blew that bastard to hell and for that Jack I am eternally grateful.'
'Sam. You don't owe me anything. You would of done that for me and you know you would.'
'I can't believe I gave up sir.'
'That thing was tearing you apart out there Carter. It's not your fault.'
'I've been trained. Trained to kill and I couldn't this time. What if? What if I can't perform out there anymore.'
'That won't happen because I won't let it.'
'How are you going to stop it? You can't protect me all the time can you?'
'I can't but I can sure as hell try.'
-fin-
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