So Ducky sucks. I know that I haven't posted in the past week, and you're all probably thinking that I need to hurry up and update...well, here I am, updating. this isn't the best chapter ever, but it should last you a bit...meaning I'm not going to be able to post anymore for a while, so here's you last bit of Ducky for the time being. Anyway, I've been putting off homework all day long to write this story, so here you go, enjoy!
Disclaimer: I've been told by my parents that I don't own my bed, my room, my TV, my laptop, my clothes. even the food I buy with my own money, I don't have the right to refuse to go to church, I can't put homework before housework, I can't talk to a guy without my parents doing a full background check, and yet, you still think I own Gilmore Girls? Even if I did, I don't' think I would because my parents would just take it away along with my pretty laptop, so no, I do not own Gilmore Girls. Get over it.
Chapter 2:Home, Home and Away!
Why there? Why to Rory? Why not to Hartford? Why not to Chris's place? Why not to a hotel? Why not to that creepy bed and breakfast, oh yeah, because she wasn't breaking off the engagement technically.
Maybe because she still felt that going to Chris might be betraying Luke in some respect, while going to her parents was almost always out of the question. Rory's just seemed so much more familiar and Lorelai could always depend on her daughter to be there for her. Maybe it was something she had been able to do before, and now relying on her daughter was just a habit when it came to problems with Luke. Maybe, maybe not.
"so we have Lucky Charms, Cheerios, Captain Crunch, toast, cheese, left over KFC chicken with I think some mashed potatoes and some macaroni and cheese, and of course, the trusty pop tarts." Rory listed off the food choices to her mother.
"Well with choices like that, I don't know what I order. Do you serve apples?" she asked. Rory opened her eyes wider than most thought possible.
"Mom! You're craving apples!" she said. Lorelai looked at her sadly.
"Rory, there's no way that I'm pregnant. To be pregnant, I would have needed to have had sex in the past few months, and I think that is one of the things on my list of 'things I haven't done in the past few months', so I'm good, just having weird cravings." she stated sadly.
"I'm sorry mom, are you and Luke really doing that badly?" she asked concernedly.
"Yeah, and I ask him last night." she said.
"You asked him what?" Rory asked.
"I asked him if he wanted to start trying for a baby." Lorelai said as she bit into the apple Rory just handed her.
"You actually asked him? I take it, it went bad, seeing as you ended up here." she said.
"Yeah, he went into the whole April issue and how he's still getting used to it and how we aren't ready for a baby, but he doesn't get it, Rory. He doesn't get how much I want a baby, how much I just want everything to be normal."
"Mom, you know as well as I, if not more, that a baby does not fix all of the problems." Rory said.
"And I know that, it's just…I want everything to go back to what it used to be. I want Luke to be able to read my mind, I want to be able to freak out about craving apples, I want to just be able to tell Luke I love him without thinking that maybe he doesn't feel the same way." Lorelai said as she munched on the last bite of apple.
"Just give him some time mom."
"Rory, I've given him enough time, and now I want Luke back. I just can't handle holding it in anymore. And I just want to have that fairy tale life, however stupid it sounds. I want to be able to be in every aspect of Luke's life without hesitation or the thought that someone is watching me and making sure I don't screw up." Lorelai said.
"Well tell him that." Rory advised.
"But I can't just force my way into his life."
"Mom, since when have you not forced your way into his life? You have always done that, so go tell him how you feel now." Rory advised again.
"I guess I should. Well, I have to get home, change, and get ready for work. Thanks for the pep talk, it actually helped." Lorelai said.
"Well good. See ya, mom." Rory responded as Lorelai grabbed her purse from the couch and walked towards the door.
"Bye sweets. See you Friday at dinner tonight?" Lorelai asked.
"Yep." Rory asked.
"See you later." Lorelai said as she walked out the door, leaving Rory to deal with the undressed Logan waiting for her to join him in the shower.
Why did it have to be like this? Why? Lorelai had been pondering all of what had happened and how she knew that it was bound to happen sometime. She had to explode and express her feelings sometime, but why now? Why did he react like that? Why did he not understand that she wanted to be a part of his life? At the moment, she wasn't.
"Hello, Dragonfly Inn, this is Lorelai speaking." Lorelai said for the tenth time that day. She had made it to the house without running into Luke. Now she was at work, waiting for lunch to come so she could stop ignoring Luke and go talk to him.
"Hello, I would like to reserve a room for one please." a male voice said over the phone.
"What day are you making this reservation for?" Lorelai asked sweetly.
"The 10th and the 11th, please." the male voice answered.
"And what name should I put the reservation under?" Lorelai asked.
"Mariano, Jess." he answered. Lorelai was caught off guard. She didn't know why he would be coming to Stars Hallow, but she quickly recovered from her shock.
"Ok, so the 10th and the 11th for one Jess Mariano."
"Lorelai"
"Jess, what are you doing reserving a room here? Aren't you down in Pennsylvania?" Lorelai asked.
"Yeah, but I decided to visit Liz for a couple days. And yes, I am living in Pennsylvania now." he answered.
"Ok, does Liz know this?"
"No, I thought I'd surprise her, so try not to let it slip." he ask. It amazed Lorelai how much Jess had grown up. He didn't sound like he had any ulterior motive, so he must really be trying to turn around all aspects of his life, including family.
"Ok."
"Oh, and Luke knows I'm coming up for those two days." jess added.
"Ok, so just don't tell Liz." Lorelai stated.
"Yes, just don't tell Liz. Oh, and thanks Lorelai."
"It's nothing, you're almost family anyways." She said, but she had tears coming to her eyes when she said that. She knew that she would never be family because she was never getting married. Luke was always going to be keeping her at arms length. He would never let her in fully.
"Thanks, well I'm gonna go, tell Rory I said hi."
"I will, bye jess."
"bye." and then they both hung up. Lorelai wiped her eyes, making sure none of her makeup had smudged, and then checked the clock. It was 11:47, late enough for her to take her lunch. She grabbed her purse and headed for the diner. She had some talking to do.
Why did the diner have to be so crowded? It seemed that everyone that lived in stars hollow had suddenly lost the ability to cook for themselves and had decided to pay Luke to do it for them. Why was it that whenever Lorelai needed to talk to Luke, he was busy, or he was in the middle of something, or the town decided to just pop in to ruin that little chance she might have gotten if they all had just stayed home that day.
"Luke." Lorelai shouted loudly as she walked in the door. It really was one of those days that the diner could truly be compared to a zoo, and no one would hesitate to agree. Even Taylor was acting more like a donkey than he normally did.
Luke turned around out of habit and then saw the determined look on her face. He didn't know if that was good or bad, but he knew he was probably about to find out soon.
"Lorelai?" he questioned. He didn't think that she would be coming in this soon after last night. Maybe she had made up her mind and didn't want him anymore. Maybe he was getting too old for her life, maybe she wanted someone more exciting and with one less kid.
"Can we talk?" she ordered the sentence more than asked, so Luke knew his answer would immediately be a yes.
"Sure, but can we try and make it short because I'm kind of busy" he said. He didn't want to say yes because she seemed somewhat angry.
"Oh, this won't take that much time." I hope, she thought.
"Upstairs then." he told her. "Caesar, I'm going upstairs for a few minutes!" Luke shouted into the kitchen. He swore he heard the faint whining of his cook in response to what he had just said.
He followed Lorelai up the stairs and into his old (and maybe soon to be current) apartment.
"You wanted to talk?" he asked.
"Luke, when was the last time you touched me?" she asked him.
"What?" he asked.
"I mean, besides last night, when was the last time that you touched me?" she asked.
"Lorelai." Luke said in a somewhat warning tone.
"No, Luke! When was the last time you touched me!" she yelled at him as she started to get frustrated at his obstinate behavior. Luke was taken aback by her yelling. He didn't know how to respond.
"Where are you going with this?" he questioned.
"The last time you touched me, was the last time we really talked, the last time you truly let me in your life, and now you don't even take me seriously when I say I want a baby!" she exasperated.
"Lorelai, I do take you seriously, I just don't think it's time." he said.
"Luke, if we don't get our lives started now, I'm afraid we never will! I terrified that you will just leave and…" she couldn't say it, she couldn't say that she thought that Luke would choose Anna and April over her. She couldn't tell him that.
"What?" he asked, knowing she had something else to say.
"Goddamn you Luke! I just want to be able to be close to someone! I want to be able to have someone rely on me, I want to be able to know that when I wake up, the baby will still be there, inside of me, growing!" she said.
"Lorelai, you are blowing this way out of proportion." he told her.
"How am I Luke? How am I blowing this way out of proportion? Is this not something we should be discussing? Well I'm here, discussing my feelings with you, because that's what good couples do, and you're just shooting me down, like I'm overreacting." she said.
"Lorelai, you are overreacting." he said, trying to stay calm.
"Ah! You are so damn frustrating! And to think the reason I came here hasn't even been fully mentioned yet!" she said to herself.
"What? Then tell me, why are you here?" he asked.
"Because--"she started.
"Luke, Taylor's putting up signs for some festival on the window now." Caesar yelled up the stairs.
"I'll be down in a minute!" Luke yelled back.
"And now he's having Kirk dance in a flower costume all through the diner." Caesar added.
"Kirk!" Luke yelled as he ran down the stairs.
"He even chooses Kirk over me, wow, what a life." Lorelai sighed to herself.
She walked slowly down the stairs. And when she got to the bottom, she saw Luke chasing Kirk down the street. She figured that she wasn't going to get enough time for her actual lunch and to wait for Luke, so she decided to leave. But first: "Caesar, can I get some fries and a burger to go?"
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Hello everyone! So here is chapter two, like it or not, please tell me. You know you want to...Press the damn button! Sorry, just a bit tired, so press the button and the caffeine Ducky's system will stop giving her a headache. Hope you liked the chapter, please review, you know I have more for you to read...so the more reviews, the more I write. Yippy! Right?