Okay, so I've officially joined that cult of crazy people who can never find time, or are just too lazy to update frequently enough. Yes, I'm thinking they might make me their leader...I'm that lazy. Over a whole month. I can't believe it has been an entire month since I last posted a chapter. I did have it all written, but I've decided to take the last few chapters I had and changed them because I hate the ending I have now. But I do have this, and it should be all edited and all pretty. So please forgive me, throw a few tomatoes or other various rotten vegetables if it makes you feel better. I deserve it.
Disclaimer: Gilmore Girls did not come with the cult membership.
Chapter 11: Give a Little Bit
Luke was beating himself up. He was feeling that he was stupid. But yet, he didn't care. He knew he was right. She had always had ridiculous expectations. He was the way he was. He needed time that night when she gave the ultimatum. She didn't think he deserved it and that he should go by her rules. His instincts were to help her when she was crying on the ground, but she turned him away. She wanted to play by her rules at every moment. She thought that the world revolved around there. There was no room for compromise, no room for negotiations, no room for Luke.
When he pulled up to the diner, he unlocked the door and went to clean the counter. It only took him 5 minutes to break all but two of ketchup bottles. He finally gave up and he threw the rag onto the counter before going up to bed.
He changed into sweat pants and a t-shirt and was about to turn off the lights when the phone rang. He answered it.
"Hello?" he asked.
"Luke? I just tried calling my mom about ten times, both on the home phone and on her cell, but she didn't pick up the phone! And then I called again, and again, and I think I've called at least nine or ten times in the last half hour! I think something might have happened to her! Like maybe on the way home, or grandma killed her as she was leaving the house or something because we all know grandma is capable of that, although probably not that strong to physically kill her so maybe she guilted her into death or had the maid hit Mom over the head with a vase or something!" a frantic woman ranted on the other line.
"Rory?" Luke asked confusedly.
"I mean normally we talk right before she goes to bed, but she didn't call me so I tried the house and no one answered those fifty million times I called!" Rory panicked. She was freaking out and on the verge of tears.
"Maybe she didn't hear the phone." Luke suggested after understanding what Rory was talking about.
"No, she always hears the phone. She could be in a coma and come out of just because the phone rang!" Rory half joked.
"So you want me to…?"
"Can you please just run over there and see if she's home! I'm just really scared Luke." she said. She was now crying over the phone. That scared Luke. He didn't ever remember Rory crying. Lorelai, yes, but not Rory.
"Rory, it's going to be ok. I'm going to go over there now, ok?" he said soothingly.
"ok." she sniffled.
"Where are you?" he asked.
"What?" Rory asked.
"Where are you? So if I need to call you." he repeated.
"Oh, I'm at Logan's apartment. You have the phone number to the apartment, right?" she asked. Her sniffles were getting less frequent.
"Yeah. Rory."
"Yeah?" she asked.
"It'll be ok. I promise." he said. Even though he hated Lorelai with every fiber of his being right now, he couldn't turn Rory away. He just couldn't.
"But how can you promise? Do you have the power of foresight?" Rory asked rather snappily.
"Rory, you just have to trust me. Okay?" Luke reassured her.
"Ok." She answered meekly. "Thank you Luke." she whispered.
"No problem. Bye." he said.
"Bye." she sniffed and then they both hung up.
Luke, in his sweats and t-shirt ran down the stairs and out the diner door, not even worrying to lock it. As he started to run to Lorelai's house, it started to rain. Hard. And by time that Luke got to the house, he was soaked to the bone. No exaggeration needed.
He got up to the door without any problems, but then he thought of how he could just go home, and try to drink the night away with the new case of beer he had. But then he remembered how freaked Rory was. She wasn't just afraid, she was terrified. Rory was what kept him from just walking away.
He knocked on the door a few times. No one answered. He knocked again.
"Lorelai? Lorelai? Are you in there?" he yelled. He received no answer. Now he was starting to get freaked. He figured that now would be a good time to just go on inside, regardless of whether it was his house now or not.
He opened the door, which was unlocked, and found nothing unusual. Here shoes weren't by the door, so that suggested that she wasn't home, but her purse was sitting right there in the middle of the foyer. He slowly walked into the living room, saying "Lorelai?" as he went along. When he heard an annoyed moan coming from the couch, he looked over in that direction and saw that someone was lying on the couch. He figured it was Lorelai.
"Lorelai?" he asked.
"Go. Away." she whispered coldly.
"Lorelai, what are you doing?" he asked, throwing the same bucket of ice in her face.
"Luke, leave me ALONE!" She yelled. She was a bit emotional right now. Why did she have to deal with this? Why was she the one with this repeating pattern of emotional torture coming at her?
"No!" he yelled back. "Your daughter just called me! She's fucking worried sick that something happened to you! She told me to come over here and make sure you were still ALIVE! Is that really the way you treat your daughter? You're obviously awake! So you ignore her phone calls? I thought that even through this, you could stay by Rory's side, and be her mother, but you are not the Lorelai I know. The Lorelai I know can at least keep in contact with her daughter. The Lorelai I know at least tries to keep things from spiraling out of control! This is why I refuse to let you in! Because you can't keep your part of the bargain! When things get tough, you curl up into a ball and cry! When things get tough you--" he was interrupted by Lorelai.
"When things get tough for you, you pull away from EVERYONE! Even me! You hide yourself away. Do I need to remind you of your dark day? You have no right to say that I'm not tough enough! That I'm not strong enough! I've been strong for 18 years! For 18 years! Just for Rory! And now you won't even allow me to cry when you tell me to go screw myself?" she asked while yelling. "That's not fair!"
"I didn't tell you to go screw yourself!" he yelled back.
"Not in those exact words, but yes, you did! And I'm sick of this! You said you loved me and wanted to marry me for who I am! Well this is who I am! Did you not like what you were getting? Was I not good enough for you!" she spat.
"You were! I was the one that didn't deserve you! But you don't know how to divide the responsibility in our relationship up! You think that I should do everything and that I should follow your rules, your lead! Not anymore! You think you had a hard life Miss Gilmore, well try living without your mother for the past thirty years! You try losing your father ten years after your mother! You try having to support your sister over and over and over again, only to have it thrown in your face, and left standing alone! Have you EVER been alone? Have you? Have you ever been without Rory, your best friend? Or maybe Sookie? Or maybe Mia? Have you ever been without family or friends?
"My sister moved to god knows where and I didn't hear from her for ten years! How the hell do you get off saying you had a hard life? So you had a kid at 16, she was your key to getting out of the hell hole you lived in! You came to Stars hollow, and you had to work. Oh well! I've had to work since I was ten! And then you had the help of the whole damn town in raising Rory! So don't tell me you had a hard life and that I'm getting off easy!" he yelled.
"Do you know what it's like raising a child alone? I was alone! I couldn't talk to anyone; I even keep things from Rory and Sookie even to this day! I didn't have anyone to talk to! I WAS alone! So don't YOU tell ME that I didn't have it hard either!" she yelled back. "now get the hell out!" she yelled.
"Fine!" he said as he stormed out. "Don't forget to call Rory, you know, the child you've been ignoring for the past half an hour!" he retorted as he walked, still soaked, back to the diner.
"Luke?" Rory answered the phone frantically, not paying attention to the caller ID.
"No Ror, it's…uh, me." Lorelai said, knowing what was coming next.
"Mom! Where the hell have you been! I was worried about you! I thought you had gotten into an accident or grandma had had the maid off you! Oh my god! Is your heart supposed to beat like this?" Rory asked as she felt her heart racing erratically.
"I don't know, how is it beating?" Lorelai asked.
"Like you were jumping that time when you drank four pots of coffee in under twenty minutes." Rory answered.
"No, your heart probably isn't supposed to be beating like that." Lorelai answered her previous question.
"Where were you mom?" Rory asked, obviously a bit calmer now.
"I was taking a shower." Lorelai lied.
"At night?" Rory asked suspiciously.
"I was washing away the Emily stench." Lorelai quipped.
"That bad?" Rory said.
"Well, kind of." Lorelai said.
"Kind of?"
"Well, I mean, she was nice and all, it's just the night went a little badly." Lorelai explained. She could tell Rory was going to ask what happened. "Don't ask, it's complicated, and I'll have to explain it to you the next time you're here." Lorelai said. She knew that Rory would get that she needed to process something, and Rory had always respected that.
"Ok. So, you're ok?" Rory asked.
"Yep, peachy." Lorelai answered.
"So you and Luke are still--"
"Not together. And I don't think that that will change, Rory. When he came over here, we had a screaming match, with nothing resolved. He pretty much told me that I'm selfish and that I'm too hard on him." Lorelai said, still shocked that Luke, her Luke, would say things like that.
"Well…" Rory started.
"No way!" Lorelai said.
"What?"
"You agree with him?" Lorelai asked.
"Well, kind of." Rory said.
"But why! Why doth my child abandon her mother that birthed her in the moment of greatest need? What hath he done to you? What kind of mind control did thy frail brain connections get subjected to?" Lorelai asked.
"You are too hard on him sometimes and you are somewhat needy." Rory said.
"Rory!"
"Mom! You wanted to know!"
"but you are supposed to lie to Mommy and say that no one is better que moi!" Lorelai said.
"Where did you learn that from?"
"What, the 'que moi' thing?" Lorelai asked.
"Yeah." Rory answered.
"Remember that one time where we went to dinner at your grandparents' house and you spoke French to that guy and his wife?" Lorelai asked.
"Vaguely, yeah."
"Well that's the one thing I learned that night. Well, I guess the fact that my mother is an evil person who never lets you live your life the way you want to was reinforced in my mind too, but I already knew that." Lorelai answered.
"Ok, well I have to go and sleep. You know, to be able to tolerate you tomorrow." Rory joked.
"Well that's so sweet of you. I'll make sure to have drunken at least 6 pots by the time you get here in the morning, ok?" Lorelai asked.
"If you do, I will hide a gun in our bathroom and then take you out. It might be a tranquilizer gun though." Rory said.
"How do you know there isn't one in there already?" Lorelai asked.
"Well I don't know where it is, so I won't be able to use it. So remember, drink that much coffee and you will be sleeping for the rest of the day on the living room floor with a dart in your neck."
"I'll remember that. Goodnight babe." Lorelai said.
"Night mom." and then they both hung up. And now, onto the loneliest part of the day--sleep.
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So what do you all think? Remember, rotten vegetables are accepted and will be happily received. Oh, and reviews are also a nice thing to give.
Oh and here's my favorite quote of all times. It's from Grey's Anatomy (I know, but I swear I am not turning my back on Gilmore Girls at all! I just like the quote!), it's from the episode No Man's Land for all of you who are wondering, and here it is: "Intimacy is a four syllable word for 'here are my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy'" What do you think of that quote? I think it is the most fantabulous quote ever uttered on this planet! What about you?
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