The first night at the Cullen's wasn't so bad. Everyone was respectfully quiet while I had been sleeping. Edward had been right. I barely noticed that he had left in the middle of the night. He was by my side singing my song to me when I had fallen asleep and he was there when I woke up. I was about to ask what he had done, when I noticed his eyes where lighter than they had been. He had taken precautions, and as I soon saw, everyone had. Shouldn't that make me feel uncomfortable?
"So, what's on the agenda for today?" I asked Edward while I poured a bowl of cereal for myself.
"What ever you want, I have officially named this day 'Bella Day'. Has a nice ring to it don't you think? We do what you want, when you want."
I took a bite of cereal, thinking. What do I want to do? Well, there was one thing, but would Edward want to do it with me? I swallowed what I was chewing and raised my head to look at Edward. "I want to read. I want to read some of the books in Carlisle's library."
"As you wish." Edward said smiling, looking at her in a new light.
"What are you looking at?" I asked, getting uncomfortable by Edwards sudden intense scrutiny.
"Something extraordinary." Edward said, suddenly turning serious. "You're different Bella. I like that." He reached across the table and grasped my hand, helping me to my feet and led me to Carlisle's library.
Opening the door for me, Edward then sat me down in one of the more comfortable chairs. "There are over 2,000 books covering these walls. Which one do you want?"
My head was swimming. So many books, any of them mine to read. "You know how many books there are?" I asked trying to think about which one I wanted to read first.
"There are actually 2,183. But who's counting?" He shrugged, allowing a smile to raise the corners of his mouth. "I got board one night and counted them all, and arranged them in alphabetical order another night. That was of course," he stepped towards me and grabbed my hands. "Before I met you. Have you given any thought as to what you want to read first?"
I hadn't really thought about it, to preoccupied with looking at Edward's handsome figure. I panicked saying the first thing that came to mind. "A Midsummer Night's Dream, it's one of my favorites."
He grinned at me. In a flash he was holding the book out to me. "It's my favorite too."
I took the book with a thank you and curled up on the chair. I was soon whisked away into the world of Ancient Greece in the city of Athens. I was so enthralled that I hardly noticed Edward watching me read.
I laughed out loud as I read: 'All that I could ever read; could ever hear by tale or history, the course of true love never did run smooth.' Shakespeare didn't have a clue as to how true his words were.
I glanced over to Edward and found that he was chuckling. "What were you laughing at?" he asked, trying to compose himself.
I read the quote to him. His reaction was different from mine. Edward sat quietly, no doubt turning the words over in his head. I just left him to his thoughts and went back to reading.
Soon I was done reading A Midsummer Night's Dream, closing the book and setting it down on the small table beside me, I looked to Edward.
"Done already?"
"Yep."
Edward crossed the room to me, picking me up like I weighed nothing. I wrapped my arms around his strong neck, starring into his beautiful eyes. He kissed me tenderly, leaving my kiss stung mouth; Edward dragged his icy lips down to my neck, sending shockwaves up and down my body.
"Where to Princess Bella?" Edward said, his head resting on my shoulder.
I tried to keep my voice even, but failed miserably. "I'm pretty good were I am."
He laughed wholeheartedly now, carrying me to his bed room. Edward set me down so he could close the door. Slowly he turned around to face me. Bending down he kissed me passionately, slowly backing up until my back was to the wall. This was the Edward I liked. My heart was pounding wildly in my chest, to the point that it hurt. Edward put his hands on the wall on either side of my head, and he stood there starring at me. I was rather flustered, and was breathing hard; I wanted to know what he was thinking. What was going through that head as he stood there; expressionless?
"What are you thinking at this very moment?" I asked.
"I want to kiss you."
Well, that was simple enough I thought. "Then what are you waiting for?" I said leaning in and kissing him, holding nothing back, but he broke away from my lips.
"Bella, Please! I'm afraid of what will happen if I keep kissing you."
I reached out for his hand but he quickly pulled it away. "I was afraid too, but I've been thinking about it for a while and I'm okay with it."
"I'm not talking about that Bella. I'm afraid of kissing you, to let my emotions get the better of me and losing control. I don't want to hurt you Bella; that alone would kill me. I have gotten used to your sent, but at times it is still overwhelming. If I didn't pay attention for one second, I could be on top of you sucking your blood."
I felt hurt and abandoned. "Why are you saying this?"
"Because you need to know the monster I am!" His voice raising.
The tears ran down my face, I didn't even bother to wipe them away. "You're not a monster." I whispered, my voice barely audible, but I knew that he could hear me.
Edward roared with rage, the sound shaking the windows. I didn't react to the sound; I made myself not cringe out of fear and surprise. "What are you trying to say then?" I asked staring down at the floor.
"Do you want to know what I'm saying Bella? I'm saying that we are through. I'm ending it before I hurt you. I should have listened to Rosalie in the first place."
"You're doing this all because of her! You said that you loved me! Was that a lie? Was it all a lie? Not even a month ago, I was willing to sacrifice myself for you!" I screamed back.
The door burst open to reveal Emmett and Alice. "What's going on?" Alice yelled.
I ignored whatever else was said, I grabbed my things and put them in the duffel bag. "I need a ride home!"
"Wait a moment." Emmett said blocking my way out. Turning around I watched Alice zero in on Edward.
"What is going on Edward? What's wrong? Talk to me damn it!" Alice yelled at a pacing Edward.
He suddenly stopped, his face inches away from Alice's. "Stay out of it Alice! Emmett, take Bella home!"
"No, not until you tell us what's going on." Alice said confidently.
"Emmett, do it NOW!" Edward roared.
Emmett leaned forward and whispered into my ear. "Let go before this gets even worse." I nodded my head; he gently grabbed my arm and led me down the hallway.
Right as we turned to leave Edward's room we saw Rosalie leaning against the wall, watching the whole scene with a faint smile on her lips, a slight shaking of her shoulders indicated that she was laughing. Was she laughing at the spectacle in Edward's room, or the tears streaming down my face? Emmett switched sides with me as we walked by where she was standing.
All the way down the stairs we could hear the two yelling, then a crashing noise followed by more yelling and screaming. The tears were flowing heavily now, the dam holding them back broken. Outside, we met Esme and Jasper.
"What's going on?" Esme said franticly, seeing my tears.
"Edward…" Emmett stated.
She ran to the house, leaving Jasper to try and calm me down. He looked at Emmett. "He told me just the other day… didn't he talk to you?"
"Yeah, but he never said anything about this. I think you need to get up there. Edward is pissed."
Emmett began to lead me to the Volvo. Opening the passenger door for me, in a flash he was next to me in the driver's seat, and we were off. Once at my house, Emmett stood with me until I got the door open, taking longer as my vision was blurred by the tears.
He came and sat with me at the dinner table, trying to comfort me.
"Thank you for driving me home Emmett." I said taking a deep shaking breath.
"It was no problem, squirt. I'm sorry. I don't know what has gotten into Edward. Once Jasper is done calming Alice and Edward down I'll send him over. Maybe Alice could spend the night with you so you won't be alone." He smiled at me, trying to cheer me up.
"That would be nice."
He gave me an awkward hug and left, leaving me to wallow in my sadness.