Welcome to my life
The life wasn't easy for Ryan Atwood. First, his dad was in jail. At this moment, he lefts to Chino where his big brother Trey was arrested for thief a car. After that, he lefts to Newport Beach and he thought that his life will be happier but now, Marissa, the love of his life was dead in a car crash. She was dead in his arms.
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place ?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you ?
Do you ever wanna run away ?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
And no one hears you screaming
Ryan couldn't live like this anymore. He wants to die. Marissa's dead was enough.
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me...
He wrote a letter to Sandy and Kirsten for telling them that they have been the best parents that he could dream to have but some circumstances hurt him too much and they couldn't do anything to help him. It was too late.
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
He wrote an other letter to Seth telling him that he was the best friend or brother but to continue to live without Marissa was impossible.
Do you wanna be somebody else ?
Are you sick of feeling so left out ?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over ?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate ?
Are you sick of everyone around ?
With the big fake smiles
And stupid lies
While deep inside your bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me...
Finally, he wrote a letter to Summer to tell her that she was a great friend but he couldn't live without Marissa anymore and he ask her to take care of Seth.
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
After writing all the letters, he took many pills and fell asleep for the last time.
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabs you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life