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-1Chapter 6
Rage
"What do you mean, I told them everything that they 'needed' to know!" I was pissed. I just poured myself out to all of them, and I wasn't enough. "You never told them about your little problem, and that they needed to know." He calmly stated. "What problem, I…I have no problem. The only problem I have at this moment, is this incredible urge to cry my eyes shut!" I exclaimed. What could he possibly want them to know, that he didn't already know. My heart was beating really fast. Suddenly I got a picture, of me cutting my wrist, blood everywhere, and tears blurring my vision. When I realized that he wanted me to tell them that. Tears started flowing like a waterfall, I couldn't help it. I knew that it was wrong, but it felt so right. I am not telling them that ever! "Leave me alone!" I screamed. I jumped down, and ran out the door. My fury was growing, it was turning so blind. Why is all anyone wants to do is hurt me. My claws extended in both my hands and feet, I think Storm screamed, and Xavier shouted. I couldn't make myself stop, I saw red splattered blood, spinning everywhere. I started to scream. I felt a sharp, blinding pain. My vision came back to normal, and the last thing I saw before I fell into the darkness, was Rogue's face.
I awoke to Wolverines screaming in my face. "What have you done, what have you…" He was really upset, he turned around started pacing the room. I sat up, I was covered in blood, what happened? My hands were drenched in blood, Storm's blood. I did it again. I killed again. I started to cry. "I'm a monster a fucking monster!" I held my fist to my throat, I had to end this I had to. "Logan," I said, quietly, too upset to yell, or shout. "Logan, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to. I…I had no control, please tell me she's okay. If she's not I swear to you, I'll disappear forever. He stopped pacing, for a moment. He said, "She'll be fine, but If Rogue hadn't stopped you, she would have been killed." He turned towards me, he was covered in storms blood as well. "You don't have to tell us anymore. The professor told us, after you went into that rage." I looked down, ashamed of everything I was put here to do. Everything I had done. He came towards me slowly, he sat next to me, he took my arm. I looked down and saw every cut there, as if I never had a healing factor. I pulled away, I got up and walked out of the room into the hallway. "There's a staircase, at the end of the hallway, go downstairs, and get some fresh air." I kept walking, almost in a trance.
When I got outside it was snowing slightly, I knelt down in the snow and screamed. I was locked inside this pain, and there was no way out. Suddenly I found myself surrounded by kids, they must have been the students. Xavier rolled out in his wheelchair over to me. Logan ran out towards me, he knelt down in front of me. "Kid, you need some anger management." He stated, still melancholy like he was just moments before. My eyes flooded, I just sat there and began to cry. Logan attempted to help me up, but I pushed him. He fell backwards, I got on top of him, I started to punch him. Bam! Bam! Bam! Xavier told the students to go inside. They slowly made their way inside the school. Logan grabbed my arm in midair, I broke down into tears. I grabbed him and held him. It took him a few minutes to wrap me up in his arms, but he did. "Make me stop, make me…" I choked through all my tears. He was all I had, the only one. He was my only friend, my family. I barely even knew him. I promised myself that things would get better from now on.
I awoke to the sound of knocking. I remembered being carried up to an empty room, and told by Xavier that soon I would be roomed with someone, but for now I'd be alone. "Come in." I said loud enough for whoever it was to hear me. The door slowly opened. In walked Rogue, with a tray with juice, and a bowl of cereal. "You look better," She said, as she placed the tray on the small night stand. "Ah see you got your healing factor back." She was talking about my wrist, as I followed her gaze down towards where my cuts were, I realized that they were gone. "Good mornin" She said. "Morning!" I replied. "Professor say's your going to be watching our training session this afternoon. Ah'll help you with getting to know everyone here." She seemed kind of nervous. I don't blame her. "Thanx, I think that I'll just stay here today." I said. I really didn't feel like being introduced to a bunch of people that think I'm a psycho. "Ah don't really think you have much of a choice." She said. At that she got up and walked towards the door. Before she left, I asked her, "What happened in San Francisco?" I asked. I had to know what had happened. Without turning around she said, "The sessions at three O' clock, and if ah were you, ah'd mind my own business." At that she turned and left, closing the door behind her. On top of the dresser, was a pair of sweat pants and a white tank. A hair brush, toothbrush, toothpaste, a bra, and underwear. Next to this stuff, was a note 'I thought you might need these, this doesn't mean were friends, Kitty.' I put the note down. I finished breakfast, washed up, got dressed. When I got downstairs, I heard laughter and talking. It was coming from the kitchen, I went towards it, I knew one of the voices was Rogue's, but the other I didn't know. "She is crazy," said Rogue. "Ah really thought ah was gonna get stabbed, or killed when ah told her to mind her own business." She was giggling, and the other person started talking. "I left her clothes a toothbrush, and toothpaste on her dresser, but I hope she doesn't think I'm nice." The smile left my face, I walked into the kitchen. They saw me, and stopped laughing. "Here's your tray!" And I dropped it to the floor. The glass shattered, and echoed throughout the school. I turned around and stormed out of the kitchen. As I started heading up the stairs, I heard Logan say. "You keep doing that, and you'll never make any friends here!" He said, with sarcasm in his voice. "I will never be able to get along with, bitchy people like that, never!" I continued walking. I heard him coming after me, "So, kid, you going to that training session?" He asked. I stopped walking and turned around, I stared directly into his big blue eyes. "I wasn't planning on it, but now that you mention it, maybe I can go and kick some southern girl's ass." I said sarcastically. He chuckled. "Rogue doesn't normally act that way, she just feels threatened. I was her first friend here, that understood her anyways." He said, the sarcasm faded away. "She's lucky," I said, as I looked towards the window. "She can trust people, she at least has a friend." I turned to walk upstairs, but he grabbed my arm.
"Kid, you cant keep running away from your problems, they'll eventually catch up to you. Then you wont be able to run anymore." He was trying to help me, I couldn't keep pushing him away for long. "Well that's up to me isn't it." I explained. I continued to walk up the stairs, he didn't stop me. "The training sessions at 3:00, right?" I asked. "Yeah, do you need me to show you where it is?" He asked me, as if he wanted to show me. "I'm sure I'll figure it out." I said. I walked down the hall, into my room. I closed the door. I laid on the bed, I faced the clock. It said 11:07. I closed my eyes.