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Previously on Gilmore Girls…
"I'm, I'm leaving Stars Hollow…I'm leaving Stars Hollow for good," he says finally looking me in the eye. My vision begins to blur and try to hide my face with my hands, but instead he takes my hands in his. "I'm sorry," he says releasing my hands and pulling my body into his arms, and I cried. Twice in one night I leaned on Luke and cried, like a baby in his arms.
Now on with the story…
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THE IRREPLACEABLE LUC
"W-why?" I sob, burying my face in the crook of his neck, soaking his soft flannel shirt with tears.
"Liz messed up pretty bad this time, and Jess" he mumbles into my hair. "Well, Jess isn't doing too well on top everything else, so this afternoon I'm moving up to New York so I can live closer to Liz."
"This afternoon! But, you can't. Not today. It's too soon, I mean I need you here, Luke," I stammer selfishly.
"Lorelai…" he sighs.
I pull away from him. "No, Luke. Don't leave. You can't leave."
"Lorelai…" he repeats exhaustedly.
"Luke, listen to me. You can't," I start sobbing harder.
"Lorelai," he says taking hold of my shoulders and trying to pull me back into his arms to comfort me.
"No, Luke, stop it! STOP IT! You can't do this, you can't leave," I screech hysterically, pounding his chest with my fists, trying to escape his embrace. But he's too strong and I give up and just collapse in his forced bear hug with my arms stuck, wedged in between us. "You said you'd always be here" I cry, burrowing back into his smooth flannel covered shoulder.
"I know, Lorelai, and I am so, so sorry."
"Goddamn it, Luke, don't say you're sorry," I sniff resting my forehead against his chest. He smells like coffee.
"I'm gonna miss you so much," I cry slipping my arms around his waist, gripping his soft shirt with tight fists.
"I'm gonna miss you, too," he whispers softly into my ear.
I feel the muscles in my cheeks cramp up as they pull my lips into an even deeper frown and close my eyes tightly as more tears squeeze their way out.
"Luke?" I say hoarsely, not loosening my secure grip I have on him.
"Yeah."
I take a deep breath and sigh. "Would it be alright if I stayed? I just, I don't wanna go home, ya know?"
"Yeah, come on," he replies, lacing his fingers with mine and gently pulling me up the steps to his apartment.
Luke pushes the apartment door open and reveals stacks and stacks of cardboard boxes, nearly piled to the ceiling, all labeled in Luke's familiar handwriting. The walls were stripped bare, and the furniture is in a massive pile right next to the door, ready to be taken out at any moment. The refrigerator and stove still reside in their little corner and the bed is still by the closet, but the bookshelves, the TV, the desk, and the table and chairs that used to surround them are all pressed against the wall next to the door.
"Sorry 'bout all the boxes the shit everywhere," Luke says, taking a giant step over a particularly large box before turning to help me over it. "I didn't want everyone to know I was leaving until the last minute, so I had to leave all the boxes and stuff up here. I'm gonna have to pack up everything downstairs before I leave."
I nod in response to whatever it is he's saying, not really listening, I'm focusing more on the drastic change in the apartment I once knew so well.
"Luke," I say hoarsely when he stops talking for a minute.
"Yeah," he says turning around to face me.
"Can I use your bathroom? To ya know to-" I gesture towards my puffy eyed tear stained face.
"Yeah, sure, go ahead," he says standing awkwardly in the middle of the empty apartment, his hands squeezed in his pockets.
"Thanks," I reply quietly evading boxes on my way to the bathroom.
I look at my reflection in mirror and see the woman I swore to never be. A woman that sobs and sobs and sobs over a guy and just can't ever seem to move on. I know that after Luke leaves that it would be it. No one could ever in a million years replace him. Luke Danes will be gone forever.
Turning on the faucet, I let the cool water fill my cupped hands before I plunge my face into it, wiping away tearstains reducing my swollen eyes back to normal size. I grab the only remaining towel left in the bathroom I dry my face. Then, looking back into the mirror, I can almost see my face through the mask of my depression. Tucking my hair behind ears, I slowly open the door back out into the apartment and look around for Luke.
When I open the door, Luke, who is drinking a glass of water over by the window, turns around and takes a good look at me before adverting his glance and nodding his head toward the already turned down bed. I flash him a weak smile, and maneuver my way to the bed, and let myself sink under the cool soft cotton sheets.
Downing the last of his water, Luke throws the plastic cup in the trash and slowly begins to amble over to the bed. Looking directly into my eyes without breaking contact for a moment, he stands besides the bed and then every so slowly lifts his arm and gently takes the pillow next to me and walks back over to the couch. Then, placing it on the couch, Luke lies down and lays his head back against it.
I sigh quietly, let go a breath I didn't know I was holding, and reach over to my right and turn out the light. Snuggling down in the covers, I look up at the ceiling, not feeling tired at all. And then in the tiniest whisper I say,
"Luke?"
"Yeah?" he replies even more silent than me, turning his head so he can look me in the eye.
I sigh, "Do you uh…" I start uncertainly.
"Yeah?" he repeats again in the same soft voice.
"Do you wanna share the bed with me?"
He looks down as though he is considering it, and then stands up without a word, picks up his pillow, and walks over to the bed. As he slips under the blankets, I roll onto my side to face him and close my eyes.
"Goodnight, Luke."
"Goodnight, Lorelai."
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YES! Its done! Horray! I rewrote this chapter sooooooo many times that I've lost count. Anyway, I hope you liked! I no the reason why he's leaving isn't the greatest reason ever but I wanted it to be more of a moral obligation for Luke to leave instead of "I'm sick of Starshollow" or "I'm sick of waiting for you" stuff idk. I no I spelled Luke's name wrong in the title please don't kill me! There was a reason that I did that! It's a reference to French Kiss. (great movie by the way) If you read from when Lorelai comes out of the bathroom to Luke's second "Yeah?" it kinda resembles the part where Kate (Meg Ryan) asks if Luc (Kevin Kline) thought she still had a chance w/ Charlie (sum random guy nobody cares about) after she made a fool of her self in the restaurant. Anyway, hate for doing it, love me for doing it, whatever floats your boat, it was just funn for me to connect to stories I love.
Love ya!
Tiff
