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Do you dare to live?
sigh 'This is so hard!' Yukina thought while looking at Kuwubara (sp?), who as usual was arguing with Yuske. The whole gang had decided to meet at the park to spend time with each other, since they all had been so busy the past six months only seeing each other in passing. Everyone surprisingly, even Hiei and Koenma, showed up to catch up with one another.
At the moment the girls were sitting chatting with one another under a big oak tree, Kurama and Hiei were sparring in the meadow in front of the tree, and Koenma, Yuske, and Kuwubara were arguing over a matter concerning the Rekai. If someone were to pass by at that particular moment they would looked onto a peaceful gathering between friends.
If only that were the case though, Yukina sighed again thinking about her most recent thoughts of her love Kuwubara. She was thinking about how she was going to break it to him that she had to leave for the Makai in a few days.
'Oh how I wish I didn't have to do this. This is going to break his heart, but I won't allow him to throw his life away with me. We wouldn't have a future with one another. For one thing it is forbidden of the Ice Maidens to mate with a man, and a mating between a human and youkai is frowned upon in my society. Also I would have to watch as he ages and becomes older, while I continue to keep my youth for thousands of years. I couldn't bear to see watch as the person I value most die.' Yukina thought while sneaking a quick glance at Kuwubara again, while still pretending to be interested in the conversation with the others.
'No I have made up my mind. I must go and let him have the chance to fall in love with a human girl so they can have a happy future where they can both grow old together.' Was Yukina's last thought before paying full attention to what Botan was discussing with what happened in Rekai recently.
A couple of days later
It was around midnight when Yukina started out for the portal hidden in Genkais surrounding forest. It was about a five mile walk into the forest from the temple. The light from the full moon helped guide Yukina down the path of sakura trees. As she walked Yukina thought about how it would be to finally return to her homeland on the mountain of the Ice Maidens. Thrilled but slighlty saddened by the thought kept on walking while getting lost in a memory.
Flashback
"Kuwubara can I talk you for a secod?" asked Yukina.
"Sure, lets go outside my turtle dove." said Kuwubara back with little hearts in his eyes.
The two went outside in the garden that Kuruma had made, that was filled to the brim with exotic plants everywhere. They sat down at a bench in the middle of the garden over looking a small pond with koi fish in it. "So what is it you wanted to talk about my love?" said Kuwubara after a little bit of companiable silence. 'Man this is why I love her so much. I can let my worries go with her around, and not think of the painful past I have had.' thought Kuwubara.
"Umm... welll you see Kuwubara I just wanted to tell you that I um" stuttered Yukina.
"It's alright Yukina you can tell me anything and I won't think any less of you." sadi Kuwubara grabbing a hold of her hands.
'I love him so much that I can't bear to tell him that I have to go. But it will be for the best if I just get it over with and hope after that he will understand my reasoning.' thought Yukina with a glazed look in her eyes.
"Kuwubara we both know that you love me, but I only love you as a friend. I don't want to lead you on thinking I return your feelings for you. That would be cruel of me, and I also wanted to tell you that I am leaving for the Makai in two days." sadi Yukina without looking him in the eyes.
"Uh well, that's good to know I guess. When will you be back?" Kuwubara said with an impassive voice showing no emotion on his face.
"I'm never to return again my friend, I'm sorry. Are you going to be okay?" said Yukina in a meek voice while staring him in the eyes.
That was the last straw, Kuwubara snapped inside. "WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOUR SORRY! FIRST YOU SAY YOU DON'T LOVE ME, ONLY SEE ME AS A FRIEND AND THEN THE NEXT SECOND YOU ARE GOING TO NEVER RETURN AGAIN! AND YOU ASK IF I'M OKAY! WHAT DO YOU THINK BITCH! I LOVE YOU YUKINA! I CAN'T LIVE WITH OUT YOU!" he yelled at her with tears dripping down his face. Then after the outburst took off into the surrouding woods.
Yukina sat at the bench not moving in inch allowing her tears to flow freely which turned into crystals before hitting the ground. It started to pour hard, but still Yukina sat on the bench crying. 'Im sorry to have hurt you Kuwubara but you see I do love you more then a friend. But because I love you so dearly I would rather have you hate me instead of causing you pain in the future.' was Yukina's last thought before going back inside the temple ignoring everyone else.
End Flashback
Do you dare to believe
Finally Yukina arrived at the portal that would close up behind her forever trapping her in the Makai. 'Goodbye everyone. Thank you for being my friends and helping me try to find my brother. I'll never forget any of you. Goodbye espeiacally to you Kuwubara, my one true love, you helped me come to terms with myself. I hope you find some one to fill the hole in your heart that I caused you, and you both live your lifes to the fullest. I also hope you can forgive me someday. Well this is it my final goodbye to you all.' was Yukina's last thought before entering the portal.
A few seconds later a person comes running through the bushes only to fall on his knees sobbing while he watched the portal befrore him close. After staring into nothing for a few hours he took one last glance at the portal before noticing something. When he went to get a closr look he saw it was a folded paper. He opened up the letter and read it:
Dear Kuwubara,
I hope this letter find you somehow. I want to let you know how sorry I am for hurting your feelings. I hope you can forgive in the future, but I understand if you don't that is okay too. I hope you will find another girl to make you happy like you so much deserve. Tell the others goodbye for me, and also tell them i send my love for them. Maybe sometime in the future we will meet again, but till then goodbye.
Love Yukina
Crumpling up the note Kuwubara left without a secondglance back. Just then the heavens above beagn to cry for the two lovers that could never truly have a happy ending.
Do You Dare