I don't own VA. Just writing this story for fun or rather for shedding tears.

Vampire Academy

Shadow Kiss

Lissa Dragomir

Why Did She Leave?

I was shocked. No shocked wasn't the right word. Actually I had no words to describe how I felt right now. St. Vladimir's Academy had been attacked by Strigoi, many people had died and were taken away, then the attack at the caves.

No one would have been able to understand me no one except Rose. My best friend.

Best friend who left me, who loves him more. Best friend who didn't do her duty of protecting me. Best friend who kept secrets from me. What kind of best friend was she?

Angrily, I left my dorm and went to find Christian.

He was on the phone -Adrian's phone- talking to his aunt, Natasha Ozera.

"Yeah, I know. Rose... she left the school to hunt Dimitri." he was saying.

There it was again Rose and Dimitri. I waited impatiently for Christian to put down the phone. My Guardian had abandoned me.

She was supposed to protect. She was supposed to put me first then anything and everything else. How could she?

'I want to come first. I need to take care of myself for once. I'm tired of looking out for everyone else and having to put aside what I want.'

Her words rang in my mind. Then I asked myself. Since when I turned so selfish? Rose was first of all my best and only friend, then my Guardian.

What kind of best friend was I? The one who couldn't realize what she was feeling.

I closed my eyes just as tears started to fall. I turned around and went to the Church.

It was empty and I was grateful for that.

"Please, keep her safe," I said.

"I don't want to lose her. She's my best friend. Keep her safe." I buried my face in my hands.

My sobs echoed through the Church.

"Mom, Dad, Andre I know you guys are listening. I know that you know what's happening. I miss you so much. Mama, it's been so long since I called you mama, mom." I couldn't speak any longer. I cried, pouring out every feeling in me. I cried for my family, I cried for my best friend and her lover.

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