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Vampire Academy.
Rose and Dimitri.
A rose for Rose 3.
I pulled out another piece of paper. It was ruined. The folded paper had ink blotches all over it.
Carefully, I unfolded it. Roza stiffened next to me, but she didn't say anything.
Only the first few lines seemed untouched by whatever had caused the ink to smear. I had become used to Rose's untidy scrawl.
I began to read.
Can I die? I want to. I really want to. It's been long since I wrote. This is probably the last one.He said he didn't love me. He doesn't love me anymore. He said that he's love has faded. I don't know what to-
It didn't end there. It was nearly impossible to read. Only a few words like somebody, hate, four and mine were visible. But I knew what this was about. The day in church. Time froze. And I realized that it had been tears which had caused the ink to smear.
Then suddenly Roza spoke, barely a whisper, "I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I can't even think properly right. Why me? Why not somebody else? Why does everyone hates me? I should be stronger, but I can't. I want to leave all this behind. I don't want to exist. It's unlike anything I have felt before. It hurts so much." Her voice trembled. I didn't want to see her expression. I didn't have to power to see her face.
"Just four words. Who would have thought that four words would have held so much meaning? Did- did he even care for me before? Did he even love from the start? Why did I have to love him? Why couldn't it have been someone else? He doesn't love me. My Dimitri, my Comrade isn't mine anymore. He isn't mine. He was never mine."
She was sobbing by now. My vision blurred. I let the paper fall to the floor. I wrapped my arms around her. I wasn't sure who needed more support. Me or her?
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In Spirit Bound after Rose and Dimitri's conversation she goes into her room and stays there until she feels that Lissa will come for her. Later when she comes back in her room, Adrian knocks on her door.
So I thought I should write about what Rose actually did while she was alone.
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AndSacraa.