Vampire Academy

Rose Hathaway

Chance

For the millionth time, I wish I could turn back time. I wanted to go back to when I'd never fallen in love. No. I wish I could go back in time and not hold myself back from loving him.

Each day I woke up telling myself that I would be stronger than before. Not just physically, but mentally too. I was tired of answering the same questions every day from different people.

Was I doing Ok?

I always had the same answer. For everyone, I was fine.

I was always fine.

But a part of me wanted to scream at them, to lash out. Did they think anyone would ever be fine after travelling half the world to kill the man they loved and come back with a fantasy that there might be a chance to save his soul?

Then again, it wasn't their job to care about how I felt. Truthfully, it wasn't anyone's job other than mine to care about how I felt. The one who did care about me was, well, was now hunting me down.

No, don't think like that, Rose. Don't fall into your old habits again.

It had taken me a lot of time and a completely different continent to realize that I had people who loved me back. Liss my best friend, Christian even and Adrian, no matter his intentions, my mother, I had finally started to see my mother in a different light and another person now. My father, Abe had decided to come after his rogue daughter when she'd gone on a suicide mission.

I had my parents now.

A part of me, a very hurt part of me, was still angry at them for showing up now. Better late than never, right? Thirteen year old me would have probably thrown a tantrum. Hell, had it been six months ago, I would have thrown a tantrum, made it so much worse than hell for my parents.

But now when I'd already lost Dimitri to the undead, I had a different perspective. I wanted to stay close to the people who I loved and who loved me back.

Still, I thought, your heart still aches for Dimitri.

What would he have said about my personality change? He would have agreed to keep my loved ones close too. In a world where we dhampirs never knew when we'd die or worse, we could not afford to hold grudges and eventually regret.

I missed him so much. Every day, every minute.

My old Dimitri and the Strigoi Dimitri often seemed to blur together. I had to remind myself every day that it was my Dimitri who I missed. The Dimitri was full of life and warmth and love. Not the Strigoi who has killed innocents and was hungry for power.

I groaned.

All the thoughts only succeeded in one thing.

Making my heart and mind ache more.

I wanted to walk away from these thoughts. I wanted to focus on the small hope that Mark and Oksana had given in. But in the darkness of my room, it became harder and harder not to surrender to the pain that constantly clawed at my heart.

The spirit infused ring had changed Dimitri, even if for a moment. It increased my hopes that there must be something that could bring him back. A spirit user, Robert Doru, who had supposedly changed a Strigoi back held my sole interest now.

The emptiness in my heart seemed to fill up a little.

Yes, there had to be a chance for Dimitri to come back. Even if it was the tiniest of chances, I was willing to risk my everything for that chance.

Hi.

Wow.

I'm reading the series again after years. YEARS.

Anyway, I still love the series. Maybe not as much as I had five years ago but still LOVE it.

I was itching to write something and also found out several of the unfinished stories that I wrote. Gotta finish those and upload.

And um, I was going through what I've already posted and dear god the grammar and the punctuation and all the ranting! What was wrong with me? Not to mention the whole economics thing? I'm in college right now. Just half a semester away from graduation and also still holding on the economics.

THE POINT is

Thank you so much for all the love you have given to these one-shots.

They were a huge part of my teen years. And now in my twenties, they are a beautiful memory and I wish to create more of these memories.

Lots of love,

Sacraa.