A/N: Insert Strong Bad voice:
Like a Phoenix, from the ashes
...she rises again!
Written in the Stars
By Gilmoregirl1979 (the reigning Quote Queen)
Rating: PG-13
Hi this is your friendly disclaimer: Once again, I don't own (DAMN IT!), No Harm No Sue. WE just use the Gilmore Girls dolls during our slumber parties…. It's fun (shirtless Luke: with coffee pouring action, and the "Fry it and Buy it" Luke's Diner Play Set sold separately!)
R/R: yes please I love reviews; I wanna marry them (as previously stated, I have strange passions.)
Summary/ The Q: What if LL hooked up when they first met? A bona fied woulda What if things had moved … a touch more quickly…?
OY, WITH THE INCESSENT A/Ns ALREADY:
A/N: thank you one and all for being fans of my writing… or as I like to call it… let's see how many scenarios Debbie can come up with to get LL in bed. LOL
A/N: I recently ordered my Luke's diner tee, my dragonfly tee and my dragonfly/Luke mugs from the GG store … I'm so damn HAPPY! But they are on BACKORDER! Not so damn happy!
A/N: what else is new in my life… I got a haircut now I don't look like the bird woman from Mary Poppins….
…Oh and uhm proposed to me… LOLAnd now… Written in the Stars continues…
(Hope jeepy likes infamous openers.)
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Chapter 8:Kiss and …Tell?
This was so different for Lorelai when compared to her previous experience. Back then, she was a teenager, hiding from her parents that she fooled around with her boyfriend simply for the pleasure of pissing the "adults" off, not for any pleasure the inexperienced pair could provide each other. As a teenager, one would do what you could, however fast you could without getting caught, just for that "I know something you don't know" feeling. If said parents ever found out, surely they wouldn't approve. As was the case with Rory's conception, and Lorelai was pretty sure that little miracle was on the balcony of her bedroom, and took less than ten minutes. There wasn't even time to enjoy the experience, or process what the deed really meant, it had been done for the sake of it being forbidden and to get Emily's goat.
However, this time…with Luke, not only did they have a bed, not only did they have an entire apartment full of privacy, but there was time to explore, react, and enjoy. Not to mention that Emily still didn't know and still wouldn't approve. Luke did make her feel special and sexy and beautiful, being alone and a mom for ten years had almost made Lorelai forget she possessed those qualities.
Lorelai looked up at Luke still catching her breath, "Luke?"
"Yeah?" Luke was still recovering himself.
"This has been a really great … Second date."
In the darkness she could see him smile, "Glad we're on the same page." Luke kissed her again, and they settled in each other's arms. Lorelai's head rested on his chest, and she traced tiny circles in the hair there, circles Luke mimicked on her bare back. They just held each other in the dark, still processing how fast this was for both of them. Each afraid that the other would think it was too soon or a mistake, yet each was strangely at ease with how right they felt together.
"Luke? … Remember when I said … I don't usually do this?"
"Yeah?" Luke was afraid where that loaded question might lead.
"Well, you're… only the second guy I've been with."
He was somewhat relieved, for as beautiful as Lorelai was, Luke decided to take that as a compliment, "Yeah?"
See? What's so hard about telling the truth … "Yeah," she confirmed, "And for the record, you knew what you were doing"
Luke had to smile at that, Lorelai was blunt and honest, and Luke liked that.
"Luke?"
And inquisitive, "Yeah?"
"How many… have you been with?"
"Guys? None," he answered dryly, a very easy stat to remember.
She swatted at his chest, "Luke, you know what I mean. How many notches are in the bedpost?"
"Counting you?"
"If you like …" suddenly wishing she never asked the question.
"… Two."
"Two?" Lorelai could hardly believe it, as gorgeous as the man was. "Is that … counting me?"
"Yeah."
"Only two? …" quietly pleased that they shared that in common, and Lorelai snuggled up close again, but then she had to know, "who was she?"
Luke rolled his eyes, not wanting to talk about another woman, only wanting to focus on Lorelai, "… my high school girlfriend."
"Oh," knowing a little about high school sweethearts her self, and the geographic proximity of small towns, Lorelai had to ask, "Is she … still in town?"
"No," grinning at her impulsive jealousy, Luke explained, "she left … for good," he reassured, "…That is why we broke up a few years ago."
Together since High school, "do you … miss her?"
"I thought we weren't supposed to talk about exes."
"There are a lot of things we weren't supposed to do, now just tell me."
Luke reluctantly revealed, "We were together for a long time, but she was in and out of town a lot, and she finally left for the last time ... two years ago, for good" he reassured Lorelai. "Everyone … thought we were gonna get married. I thought we were gonna get married." Not the smartest thing to say in bed, Danes.
Woaw! "What happened?" Lorelai hoped he wasn't still hung up on what's her name.
"Well, she wanted more than this … this town, this life," he shrugged "and this … this was all I've ever wanted." Luke thought of his simple everyday, of working right where his dad did, walking the streets he father did, and seeing the festivals his parents enjoyed together, all be it from a distance now. "just a simple life…"
"Seems like a perfect fit for me, too," Preferable to high tea, coming out parities, and DAR luncheons.
Still enjoying her soft skin, he had to know as well, "What about you? Who was the guy?"
"Same. My childhood sweetheart." she thought back on those events, "kinda like you, my parents wanted me to marry him … at 16," she let slip… Crap!
"Jeez!" Thank God you didn't, "This is Connecticut, not Kentucky."
If he only knew the rest of the story, "Yeah, well, they thought it would be for the best … They had it all lined up, Christopher was going to work in my dad's office, I would no doubt be forced to join the D.A.R. with my mother and fill my days planning events that I didn't care about or want to go to. And everything would have been perfect."
"…But you didn't want that," Luke had heard it in her voice.
"I wanted to make my own decisions. I wanted a life on my own terms." It was the most honest conversation she had ever had with Luke, and she liked that feeling. After the events of the night, she wanted more than anything to let him in, to get to know all about her… and my daughter.
"Did you get it?" he asked when he started playing with her hair again. He could tell she was speaking straight from her heart. She wasn't putting on a show now, wasn't making a racy joke for the attention. She was just Lorelai … honestly telling him about her life and self.
"Yeah, I'd say I did. My parents wanted to control me, and that is the reason I'm not that close with them. They still don't get it. I only see them at holidays, if that … and they only live 20 minutes away in Hartford." She lifted her head to look at Luke, enjoying the circles he was tracing on her back with his fingers. Already crossed the parent talk line, oh well, "What about you? Are you close to your folks?"
His gentle caress stopped in the middle of her back, and Lorelai knew she said something wrong. After a moment's recovery to the question, Luke explained, "My parents are … no longer … here."
Suddenly Lorelai felt horrible, here they were having a wonderful moment and she went and ruined it by bringing up her parents, then consequently his parents. "Oh Luke," not knowing what else to say, "Oh me and my big mouth," she buried her face in his chest.
"It's okay, you didn't know", and he comforted her blunder by giving her a squeeze and resuming the motion on her back.
Suddenly the pieces fell together, "William was your dad? William's Hardware?"
"Yeah, I got the store, when he…" Luke trailed off.
"…And that is why you kept the sign up? As a tribute to him?" finding Luke even more endearing, more fascinating.
"Yeah, I guess … he and I were… really close."
"… What about your mom?"
"Well, she died when I was just a kid. I only remember bits and pieces really."
"I'm so sorry Luke." she snuggled up with him again.
Luke broke the silence this time "Lorelai?"
"Yes Luke?"
"I'm glad you came in my diner that day."
She looked up at him again, "me too." Having had a very serious conversation with Luke and learning more about him made Lorelai feel a little better about going to bed with him so quickly. He was a good man, and maybe Sookie and Mia were right… Luke was different.
As Luke held her, his mouth was teasing her earlobes; she saw the time on the clock. Rory! "Oh God! Is it really that late? … Oh, I've got to go," and she pulled away.
"What? Why?"
Unfortunately, she was tangled up in his sheets, "its late…I have to get home."
"Lorelai, you don't have to. Please … stay."
"Luke, I can't my da…" she caught herself before she said daughter, "… umm roommate is gonna worry."
Luke began to kiss her again to entice her to stay with him. "So call her … tell her you're okay … and stay."
"It's more … complicated than that …" Lorelai didn't want this to get spoiled so soon by him finding out the wrong way that she had a kid "I have work, and you have the diner and people need their pancakes in the morning …and … stuff."
"Lorelai please…"
She looked him straight in the eye, "Luke, I want to … but I can't … trust me on this, I can't …not tonight."
Reluctantly Luke loosened his hold on her, "alright." But before she disappeared again, he had to ask, "Wait, can I … see you again?"
"Don't you think you've seen enough of me?" referring to their current naked state, as she got her clothes together to get dressed.
"I want to see you again …"
His sincere request touched Lorelai, but she thought about Rory, thought of what a bad idea it would be to continue this without telling him about Rory, thought about what an incredible date this was. Thought about how wrong it would be to lead him on, she thought about her schedule, with the inn and with Rory. "How's Monday night? Does that … work for you?" Monday night… I will tell him… everything…
"I'll make it work, another perk of being your own boss." Always the concerned gentleman, "Are you sure I can't … drive you home, walk you home…" know where the hell it is you come from.
Pulling on her jacket and finding her purse, "I'll be fine, my jeep is just outside, and ... it's Stars Hollow."
"But I'd feel better..."
"Luke, please," before he could argue further, Lorelai stole another kiss from him and she hurried toward the door to go back home to her daughter, where she belonged, "I'll see you later."
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Lorelai hated herself. For about a 5-hour period she completely forgot she was a mom, forgot she had a little girl waiting for her at home.
Lorelai frantically opened the front door, "Sookie? I'm home, I'm here …"
"Hey" Sookie had a sleepy smile looking up from the couch. Sookie stretched as she put down the magazine she was "reading".
"How was she? Is she okay? Did she worry?"
"Lorelai, relax. She was asleep hours ago", Sookie knew they'd get to it eventually, but squealed, "Sooo, How was the big second date?"
Though Lorelai almost hated to admit it, "It was ... Great," Almost sad that she would have to give Luke up, especially after tonight.
"It better be more than great for 12:40 in the morning."
And guilt kicked in again, Lorelai put her head I her hands, "I know, I know, I'm sorry I just … lost track of time."
"Uh Huh." Sookie had several guesses for such tardiness.
"Was she mad?" Lorelai was till trying to get answers concerning Rory, trying to save her world's best mom title.
"She was fine!" Lorelai gave Sookie a look of 'be honest with me', "She was a little concerned around the second movie but she fell asleep and I put her in bed. So tell me," and Sookie dragged Lorelai over to the couch, "I want details."
"Can I just check on her first?" Lorelai pulling away, like a magnet was compelling her toward her daughter's room.
"Sure, sure, but remember details. I'm living vicariously through you!"
Lorelai crept into Rory's room and saw her baby girl out like a light, cuddled up with Cornel Cluckers. Lorelai felt horrible for having a social life, for sleeping with Luke, when she didn't even tell Luke she had a daughter, to at least be honest from the get go; For lying to her daughter about where she was tonight. They told each other everything, they were best friends first and mother and daughter second, and they never had secrets before. There had never been a need before. But this was different; this was a boyfriend, a boy between mother and daughter. Is Luke my boyfriend?
Lorelai shut the bedroom door, and returned to the living room, and had sadly convinced herself she needed to end things with Luke, "Oh Sookie what am I doing, I can't date."
"Seriously are we stuck in a time loop or something? Cause deja vu, we've had this conversation two times before. And I thought you said it was great… again?"
"I know, I know, …this is … just too hard… I'm lying to him; I'm lying to her… "
"Then simplify it… tell him… tell her."
"I can't. I just don't know, I mean tonight was…" She couldn't find the words for it, "There is no going back now. I don't know what the rules are… I've never dated as a mom before… I don't date because I have a kid and guys hate kids. I mean, I love being a mom you know I do, but … sometimes… a girl… wants a fella. I mean...Chris isn't an option … anything that was there pretty much died when he went to California." Lorelai began to pace and began to talk herself out of ever talking to another guy again, "And no guy would want to date a girl with a kid for fear of the instant daddy syndrome. And what if Rory gets attached to someone and then we break up…"
"Lorelai?"
"And what about his reaction to me having a kid? He'll be like 'why didn't you tell me?' and I'll be all 'well 'cause I thought you'd act like this'…"
"… Calm down," Sookie was concerned over the mile a minute pace Lorelai adopted.
"OH GOD! What if I get pregnant again?"
"Lorelai?" Sookie didn't understand where that came from for a minute.
"That would be just my luck. I can't go through that alone again? And then people will think I'm really slutty instead of just pretending to be…"
"Wait a minute … you and ... Luke."
Mortified, Lorelai only nodded.
"Tonight? Oh My God!" Sookie squealed excitedly again.
"I know. What if he bails too?" and he will as soon as he finds out I've been lying to him… and that I have a daughter.
"Lorelai, you need to come down off this ledge." Sookie pulled her friend to sit beside her, "Were you two… you know, safe."
"Yeah?"
"Okay then…"
"But I didn't think before and now all I can do is think," Replaying the hundred opportunities she could have left and ended their night early before anything happened.
"Honey," Sookie wanted her friend to focus on the good, "Did you have a good time on your date?"
"Yeah, "Lorelai said in a very small voice.
"Does Luke want to see you again?"
Lorelai took a deep breath and admitted, "Monday".
"Well okay then, one step at a time."
Lorelai honestly didn't know what to do, "But what about Rory… how do I tell her… how do I tell him? He wanted me to spend the night, but I told him 'my room mate' needed me to come home."
"Well that is true enough, though she must owe you an awful lot of rent… especially when she was in there." Sookie poked at her friend's stomach. "Lorelai finally cracked a half smile. "It will be okay." After a safe pause Sookie had to ask, "So, how was the… you know…"
"Better than I remember." Lorelai wanted some information, so she played dumb, and she casually asked Sookie, "Has he ever dated anyone? Luke?" hoping she could get the real dirt on the high school sweetheart.
Why can I never remember her name, "There was a real serious girl for a while … I could ask Patty if you like."
"NO! No one is to know of this."
"Honey, if you and Luke are…" Sookie tried to put it delicately, "…. Spending more time together, people are gonna notice, it's bound to get out."
"And then get back to Rory, and everyone knows Luke, he grew up here. I can hear the start of that rumor mill, 'that hoochie single mom is going after good old Luke, he was a good boy till he met up with that Hartford hussy.'"
"Why are you the villain?"
"I don't know … Luke seems like the small town hero. He's a gentleman … honorable… everyone says good things about him …"
"And they don't say good things about you?"
"Hello, I'm the one that came on to him, I'm the one that started the kissing on the couch, I'm the one all 'hey let's move this to the bed', I'm the one that slept with him," Lorelai reasoned completely exasperated.
"Guess what? He slept with you too."
"I know, I know, it's just …"
"Lorelai everyone in town loves you… and Rory, they will be happy that you are… taken care of…"
"Hey don't put too much on tonight, and it was … just sex… it was … too fast … But …"
"But?" Sookie encouraged.
"There was something… I don't know… a feeling, an intuition."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah" Lorelai confirmed, loving the feeling of her new infatuation.
"You really like him."
"Yeah. And my God the man can cook, he made me dinner tonight. How perfect is that, I can eat and eat, he makes the best coffee … we fight but in a fun way…" she smiled again.
"What did he make…?" True to form, Sookie then became more interested in the food than the quality of the man courting her friend.
"Stuff lamb chops…" Lorelai knew exactly where this conversation was going.
"Were they better than mine…?"
Yes. "Aww Sookie, yours are way better," though I can't remember the last time I had em… "It was just you know … really romantic that he made dinner for me, you know… to impress me…"
"Okay," Sookie seemed pleased with that answer; I mean he runs a diner for Pete's sake, slowly recalling the tidbits Lorelai frantically divulged during her freak out, Sookie had to know… "So… you came on to him?"
Lorelai was quick to defend herself, "Well …he was …being too much of a gentleman; I mean a girl likes to know she has the man's interest."
"I see," looking at her watch, Sookie realized the time, "Ooooo Look I gotta go, I'm on the 1st shift for breakfast."
"Oh Hon I'm so, so sorry I got in so late. Tell Rafael it's my fault."
"Lorelai, you are starting something new … with Luke. I'm just so happy for you. Just … don't freak out and ruin it." Sookie warned.
Not freaking out… that's the hard part.
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A/N: okay now what… I know I know… TELL LUKE TELL RORY… I'm getting there…
My FF is like an onion… it has layers… and kinda stinks? umm no wait.. My fan fiction… is like … a parfait everybody Loves parfaits… lol I'm in a kids movie mode…(must be my nephews.) the other day I was quoting finding Nemo…
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"That was all God given talent..." why thank you Luke!
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R/R: PLEASE, I like to better myself. To quote The Princess Bride,
"...Remember this is for posterity, ... so be honest."
Please be specific with R/R; name one (or as many as you can think of or want to mention..…) At least specific thing you liked
Please! It makes me feel good...inside (Dirty!)
Hence the Rant option below.
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A/N: if not completely satisfied with this chapter, please return unused portion for a full refund …