The next day, we told everyone of our soon arrival, and they were just as joyous as me.

After that we went to the doctors for a regular check up. We didn't sit in the waiting room for long, because she was expecting us. We sat in her office and she came in.

"Good Afternoon Mr. and Mrs. Zala, I'm Dr. Roberts, but you can call me May," She said.

"Nice to me you, umm am I suppose to do something?" I asked

She laughed and said "You must be nervous since it's your first baby right?"

I looked at Athrun who was trying to hold his laughter. I huffed and said "You're not helping Athrun; I thought you wanted a baby?"

He went serious after and said "Yes this is our first baby; we just want to know what to expect and have our little guy checked up."

She said "Sure, well before asking question, let's get Cagalli checked."

I laid on that bed for the patient and she examined me with a few machines and took a few blood samples and told us to wait for a few minutes. I sat and Athrun passed me a bottle of water. I drank a couple of sips from it and he said "You okay Cagalli, you seem a bit red."

"No, I'm fine, just making sure I don't need to throw up," I said

"Haven't you thrown up too much today? I mean, where all that stuff comes from?" he said.

"Well Mr. Zala, when the baby wants to throw up, it'll chuck out anything," The doctor said coming back.

"Are they okay?" Athrun asked

"They're perfectly fine, but I expect regular check ups every week you two, make it three." She said

I saw Athrun relax and I said "Umm, when does the morning sickness end."

"Well Cagalli you are in your first month and you told me you started recently, so in about ten weeks they should end," she said

"Ten week," I said moaning.

"Well Cagalli, can you come back later on in the week, so I can take another blood test, this one is fine, it's just regular test." She said

"Sure we'll come by," Athrun said.

"One question, you are a coordinator right?" She said

"Yes why?" Athrun asked

"Oh nothing, it's just I need to know these things, a baby of a Natural and a Coordinator have chances of certain complications…but, so far I haven't seen any in Cagalli, so there isn't anything to worry about." She said and left.

I stood a bit shocked, regaining my mind, I saw Athrun a bit tensed at what the doctor said. I went up to him and said "Hey, don't worry our baby will make it through, after all whose the mother."

He embraced me and said "Yes but…"

"No buts, come one we're hungry," I said interrupting him ( you wonder why Cagalli prevented him from saying those words, well you'll see soon)

I saw Athrun smile and we after asking some questions to the doctor about my diet and a book to keep up informed on each stage on the pregnancy.

We went home and prepared lunch together and had some bonding, until Athrun told me he had to go to meeting about the creation of a new law and a peace treaty renewal with Scandinavia. I asked if I could come, but he insisted that I rested today, to which I agreed. He asked me if I wanted to be dropped at anyone's home and I said the orphanage, because Kira and Lacus were going to be there. I wore a stylish white silver sequin twist detail top and military style adjustable length Capri. Placing white sneakers on me, I went to a patient Athrun, sitting in the car and tapping on his stirring wheel.

He drove me to the orphanage and I was feeling a bit moody at the moment and we arrived. I gave Athrun a kiss goodbye and he left reluctantly.

I walked up and was surrounded by children in a instant. It had been a while since I visited and I felt a bit guilty. Lacus moved the children away and I noticed her grown belly. I walked up to her and gave her a hug. She left the children with Kira as we sat down to talk.

"So how're you feeling?" I asked

"A bit bloated, but I am so excited about her coming," she said

"I bet you are," I said

"How's the little one in you," She asked

"Active, but it lets me sleep at night," I said laughing

"I bet it is," She said

"I think I need to throw up," I said running to the washroom.

Athrun came back after hours and stayed with us for the evening, and we left after eating dinner. I asked Athrun at home what he had to do throughout the week.

"I have a few meetings with you with the Scandinavian people and I unfortunately have to go to conference on the day you have to give your blood test." He said

"Is there a problem with me going instead of you," I asked

"Cagalli, I don't want you to do any stressful work, so be happy I am even letting you go to some of the meeting, and besides, our baby is going to die of boredom in a room full of politicians," he said hugging me from behind and touching my belly as if asking our guy.

"You're right, but try to come home early so we can spend time together," I said leaning back onto his chest.

"Do you think you can go your own on Friday?" he asked

"Yes, don't worry; it's just blood test and a report. How hard can it be?" I said and I saw Athrun kneeling in front and admire my little bump after lifting my shirt.

"Our baby is going to be perfect," he said touching it gently.

I softened at his affection for the little guy even now. We spent the evening and early night star gazing and I eventually feel asleep, and Athrun lifted us into our room and placed us on the bed, sleeping beside until the sun woke us up, or in my case, our baby.

It was Friday and Athrun and I were still sleeping, but our little guy was wide awake and was churning my stomach, telling me I should puke. I opened my eyes and moved to notice Athrun's arms wrapped tightly around my waist. I tugged on them, but they didn't shift.

"Athrun!" I said

He moved holding on tighter.

"Get off me now," I screamed.

He didn't sense any problem and most likely forgot the morning sickness I had to not budge, I grew furious and yelled "If you don't move right move, I swear I am going to throw up right here, right now on you!"

His eyes opened and he quickly let go as I sprinted into the washroom and threw up all of everything I ate last night. I felt Athrun rub my back to soothe me down, and it worked much to my relief.

"I'm so sorry Cagalli, I totally forgot about the morning stuff," I said looking a bit guilty

"I know, and its okay I'm sort of used to it by now," I said

He took out a breath and said "I fell so bad that you have to go through all this."

"Hey, don't worry it'll all be worth it in the end for us, and as long as your by my side like now, I don't regret a thing I have to go through," I said

I brushed my teeth and showered waking up. There was now a clear unnoticeable little bump on my stomach, proving to me, that something was living inside. Athrun had noticed it too and couldn't be happier. I changed into some casual clothing, while Athrun put on his uniform for the conference today. The past week we renewed our treaty with Scandinavia and accomplished a few other projects like the destruction of extended laboratories, and the liberation of children residing in those institutes.

I saw Athrun trying to find a tie, which I saw beside me. I took it and walked up to him. I placed around his neck and did it for him, surprising him. Fixing his collar I pecked him on the jaw and turned to walk until, he grabbed and kissed me on the lips and going to my neck, enjoying the soft skin, before leaving. I gladly gave him the time.

I waved good bye as he left from his car. I felt as if my life was perfect at that moment.

I drank a milkshake and left toward the doctor's clinic. Reaching there I went and greeted the secretary who told me to wait in a room. I sat on one of the chairs and read a magazine until she came. When she did, she took a routine check-up and a couple sample of blood.

"Well Cagalli, I'll be back in a while, but so far you both are doing great I am going to see something," I heard her say, but her voice sounded off, as if she was hiding something.

I sat in the chair a bit apprehensive; I could feel that something was wrong. I shook my head and remembered to think on the positive side to the moment. I was married to Athrun and I was soon going to become parents and I was just excited for our future together. The most important fact was our children weren't ever going to live in a war circumstanced environment. Even thought we lost a lot of precious lives, we were alive and together. I remembered the first time I met Athrun the little island. There were so many fond memories held there and I sometimes wondered whatever happened to that place.

I smiled a little to myself and May came back with a frown. I knew something was wrong.

"Cagalli, could you sit down for a second please?" She said exhaling a breath.

"Is there a problem May?" I asked

"It's…there is problem," she said sadly

I felt my world fall down and crush me.

"You have…" She started

"Is my baby going to live," I said simply interrupting.

She paused and said "The baby is absolutely alright, it's you Cagalli there is a problem with you."

I froze, "Me!"

"Do you want to call your husband," she said picking up the phone.

I took the phone from her and put it down for her saying "No!"

She looked confused and I said "I'll tell him…later, what's wrong."

She didn't looked convinced and but let it go "You have a chronic disorder called Hypomethane Syndrome. It is a disease in the blood cell which is rare. There is no cure besides abortion, but it doesn't stay lifetime. Your next child won't create this syndrome for you. However there have been failures in the uterus and some mother become sterile, and are not able to become mothers anymore."

I felt tears sting my eyes, but I held them back as she continued

"If you leave it, you have chances of dieing, but it doesn't become fatal for you after labour. As a doctor I advice you to give up the child, no matter how much it'll hurt, you have a chance of restarting without problems." She said trying to convince me

"But this child deserves a chance to live. Athrun and I want this child. Do you have any idea how attached we are to it. Do you?" I asked

She said "I bet I do, but this is the best for you."

"To hell with this," I said screaming "I don't care about my life right now. I looked at how much Athrun really wanted this baby. He needs this, and this is the least I can do for him."

She sighed and said "I know, but have ever thought about how much it is going to hurt your husband if you go away?"

I paused and said "I know," smiling "but of all things in the world he wants this."

"Cagalli, how sure are you? Do you really want this?" She asked

"I don't know right now, but I do know I will give birth to him," I said

"Well if you are sure, I can't say no, but I will try my best to find some sort of remedy," she said

"Is there one?" I asked

"Yes but the chance of it working is only 5, and that is only used after labour," she said.

"Well then, we'll see then, but I request you to please not mention this to any soul being," I said pleadingly

"Even though I would right now love to go and tell your husband the most, no worries I won't, but I want you to really think about you for once and him, there is still time to restart," she said

I smiled and said "No, I'm sure this is what's best for all three of us and hopefully I'll make it through even if I have only 5," I said

I saw her tear and said "You take too many risks Representative Zala; hopefully you will fulfill your title as a Goddess of Victory."

I gave her a hug and said "thank you so much."

I saw her leave and I left as well.

I walked to my car and drove to the beach, a place which held sanity for me. Sitting along the deserted shoreline I broke down crying and my sobs becoming harder and harder as my breaths became ragged in desperation of the nightmare I received through the most precious child inside of me and growing as each day passed.

How could I destroy such an innocent baby, who still yet didn't have a chance to see the world?

How could I destroy Athrun's dream of becoming a father to this very child?

I knew I couldn't even think of doing something as horrible as destroying a living thing that hadn't seen his father physically. I heard my cell go off and I controlled my heaving body as best as I could before answering it.

"Hello," I said and bit shakily

"Hey Cagalli, it's me Kira. Lacus and I were wondering when Athrun was due home and we could all go out and celebrate our happiness," he suggested "Wait Cagalli is there any problem?"

"No not at all I was just at the beach and a crab scared me. Athrun and I will definitely come, but I'm not sure if we can do it today, since Athrun is coming home late. How about we go tomorrow?" I said trying to not stutter, and managed.

"Sure, I'll tell Lacus after making her spicy sundae," he said

"Spicy sundae, wow do you think she has…," I said

"No, this is actually a first I have to get this on tape, ok bye," he said

"Bye," I said flipping of the phone and breaking down once again.

I knew I should let go all my tears now, so I could hold them for the future. I stopped my tears after half an hour and I heard my phone go off once again. It was Athrun this time. I wondered how long I was going to keep this secret from him of all people hiding it. However, I was determined for him to not know and hopefully in the end, everything would turn out all right. I picked it up and said "Hey Sweetie."

"Hey, I'm on a break, so I thought I would phone you. Any problems at the doctors," he asked

I felt my tears streaming down once again, but my voice was fine, "No, everything is perfect and so is the little guy."

"And you?" he asked ignoring my last statement.

"I'm happy," I said

"Okay I'll be late tonight, so please go to bed and rest. I have to go, and I love you Cagalli," he said hanging up.

"I love you too," I said to the dead line. Standing up I went to my car and opened the door, sitting in the driver's seat. I felt rushes of the wind pass by me. I sighed and drove back home. I arrived in a matter of minutes and sat down to read and watch the news. Athrun was on at one point and I heard people ask if the news about him becoming a father was true, and he said "Yes," with a smile on. I smiled as well and kept on watching him for a few minutes, before they changed the topic. Turning the television off, I felt so depressed. My eyes gradually drooped and I fell asleep, taking all my tension away in my nap, but the nightmare remained. Later on when my eyes opened and the clock ticked eleven o'clock in the night. I realized that I had skipped dinner and my baby was crying out for food.

I lazily got up and made some dinner. Satisfying the little guy I stood up to go upstairs, when I heard a car driving into the driveway. I knew it was Athrun and I stayed on the bottom step, the railing blocking my view of him. He came in and I knew he was exhausted. I saw him place his coat on a rack and loosened his tie. Dropping his brief case he walked to the kitchen and drank a glass of water.

"Rough day?" I asked

He turned and noticed my spot. I saw him smile and he walked towards me saying "You have no idea."

He kneeled and I said "Want to sleep?"

"Yes, but didn't I ask you to go to bed without me," he said lifting me up and carrying us to our room. He placed me down and went to change. He came back and said "You seem quiet, any problem?"

I opened my mouth to reveal my secret than quickly said "Nothing, I guess I'm just tried."

"Okay, then how about we sleep?" he said

"Sure," I said falling back to sleep once again, but in my mind I was battling between telling Athrun and not. He did need to know, and this decision deserved his say. I knew I would tell him tomorrow. I kept that in my mind until; he did something to change my decision.

Knowing I was asleep he placed an arm around me and said "Thank you Cagalli, for this child. I know you'll protect it, like I am, for both of you."