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I woke to our baby and retched in the washroom yet again. I had gotten used to it by now. I saw Athrun on the bed still sleeping, and I purposely didn't bother him because I knew how hard he worked yesterday. As he snoozed he mumbled out something that had shocked me beyond my mind. He tossed around the bed saying how he didn't want me to go, and how he couldn't live without me. I was crying in my mind, hoping that it was just a dream and that; it wasn't connected to my problem. I shook him up and said "Athrun, wake up."

He stiffened and opened my eyes, relieved to see me.

"I thought you left me," he said

"Why would I go from you?" I asked feeling guilty.

"Cagalli…I just…please don't do anything that would separate us," he said

"How so?" I asked

"Nothing those complications the doctor said that could happen, were getting on my mind," he said as he lay back down on the bed.

I held a breath and said "but there's nothing wrong so far," thinking that nothing had really happen.

"But still if anything were to happen I just want you to know that even if the baby is our number one priority, don't do anything hasty…that would hurt you," he said not looking straight into my eyes.

"I won't without knowing we'll both get through it," I said

"Did something happen yesterday, you seem a bit distanced?" he questioned

"No, nothing I just gave a blood sample," I said looking down.

He held my chin so I could face him and look into his eyes, and he said "What was that?"

I knew there was no escaping he already knew there was something odd happening that he didn't know "I…"

RING

We turned and looked at the phone. I picked it up and to my relief it was May. She asked me if I could come and discuss the due date of the child. I agreed and said we'd be there shortly. I told Athrun and got up to change. I turned back and said "Nothing happened yesterday Athrun, and will happen, trust me. The little guy will be fine and I'm fine."

He seemed convinced and I went to shower saying only to myself "At least for now, I'm fine." I showered and changed, while I was showering Athrun was thinking only one thought 'There's something wrong, and trust me Cagalli I'll figure it out for all of us.'

He got up and followed me into the washroom.

We were in the car driving, and I got a call from Lacus saying how they would meet us later on. We arrived and were sent to the same room. She came in smiling and she was going to discuss the due date.

It was supposed to be born six months from now and that since it had for some reason a few more genes from Athrun; it was going to be born earlier.

"That's great, May can I have Cagalli's progress reports and the reports of the blood sample please," Athrun said to my surprise.

I was shocked, but noticed that May was calm and she looked I gave her a look saying, 'What are you doing?'

I saw Athrun look through the file and had a reassured look on his face.

"Thanks, it's just I felt that there was something Cagalli was hiding about the pregnancy, but the reports say she's fine, so I'll believe it," he said afterward.

"Oh no problem at all, Cagalli does have a knack of secrecy, but there is nothing wrong with the baby right?" May said

"Right," I said, "Anyways Athrun could please get me some water, because I feel a bit queasy."

He looked concerned and quickly got up to get me something.

"You should really tell him Cagalli," May said, "I can't hide you forever, because symptom of illness will arrive and Athrun will ask you and me, what answer are you going to give him? It's his child as well, shouldn't he know what happening because of it. I know he is going to lose something more precious than a child and that is you Cagalli. I know how much Athrun love you. You can't do this to him, knowing there is only 5 of chance coming through this and staying. If anything happen, Athrun might become a part of the walking dead. What's going to happen then?"

I looked down, "Then this baby will help him through his life in a form of me and, I know Athrun will live for the little guy."

"And for just how long, why would you force him to live when his reason for living is gone," she said

"I…"I started, but saw Athrun rushing in with some water.

"Here, we wouldn't want something bad happen to you now would we?" he said passing me the water

"No we wouldn't," I said drinking it gratefully.

"Okay, we'll be on our way May," Athrun said getting up, "Cagalli come out in five, I'll go bring the car from parking."

He left after I said "Sure."

"Don't make the same mistake I did Cagalli," she said

"This isn't a mistake, it's creating a life," I said

"Stop being stubborn, do you know how many lives you'll affect," she said

"It'll be worth it in the end, this baby will be the light at the end of the tunnel and I know that I can hope to have a future with him and most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all," I said

"Just tell me one thing Cagalli before you leave, promise me you'll tell Athrun about this," she said

"I will, I don't plan on leaving without a goodbye." I said

I went out and saw Athrun waiting.

"You sure take your time," he said

"Sorry, the elevator was taking it's time," I said and entered the car.

We drove to a restaurant where Kira and Lacus were waiting patiently. We ate out and talked about our past, and a question popped out, 'What you do if something happened to me?'

I saw Athrun gave a look and he said, "If something were to happen to Cagalli, I don't think I could go on. When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. A person who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a person who cares. That person as you know is Cagalli and really my world would fall apart and become wrecked. Now that the baby is coming, I think about that same question and even now I can't decide. I mean I love both of them more in different ways. I love Cagalli the most and our little guy is special too. I just don't know."

Kira said, "I know what you mean Athrun, once a child comes, your world really does change and you decide who you love more, but the thing is you don't have to chose, you just love."

"What would happen if you had to choose?" I said quietly

They all looked up at me. I couldn't keep it anymore. It was just too hard. I stood up and walked quickly into the ladies room, ignoring the protest everyone was giving me. Lacus came in and said "What happened?"

I said "What would you do if you had to choose?"

She looked at me and said "I honestly would not know, but I'd follow my heart."

"What would Athrun do?" I asked

"Of all people Cagalli, you know the most," she said

I swallowed the lump in my throat and said simply knowing I couldn't hide it any longer, "Lacus, I have a problem."

I saw her eyes widened and she said "What?"

"Hypomethane Syndrome and my survival if I keep the child is barely 5 percent," I said immediately crying and sitting on the floor crying on my knees. I looked up and to Lacus and saw her tearing as well she came up to me and gently hugged me, making me cry even more. I saw Kira and Athrun come in and I saw each of them take their wives and tried to calm them down.

Kira managed to get Lacus and Athrun brought me and the other two outside so we could have some privacy.

I had soaked Athrun shirt with my tears and I didn't want to face him.

"Hey, it's alright." He said

I said "I'm so sorry Athrun, I didn't know. I just wanted you to be happy, please don't tell me to give it up."

"What are you talking about?" he said

I fell to the floor, and I heard Lacus say it for me, "Athrun…this may hurt you a lot and Kira you too, but Cagalli has a problem."

That was all Athrun needed to hear, he came down to me and the first thing he said was, that shocked me, "Is Cagalli going to make it?"

Everything that May said came back, about how Athrun would feel and I fainted at that point form stress.

I was waking up, until I heard a conversation and decided to pretend to be asleep.

"How could this happen?" Kira said

"Athrun, you haven't said anything since Cagalli fainted, and when I told you about her problem, at least say something," Lacus said

"If I have to choose, I need Cagalli." He said. Kira and Lacus left to go home after that.

I opened my eyes and said "No, Athrun we are going to keep him."

He looked at me in a relived face and embraced me saying, "I can't take the chance of losing you Cagalli, I know how much we want this, but we can start over."

"No Athrun, you said yesterday that you know I will protect the child, and I am going to do exactly that. Doesn't he deserve to live," I said

"What about you? Am I supposed to just let you go? Is the baby all that matters to you? Don't you even care about what I think?" He said

I stood up and went to the wall he was leaning and facing. I took one of his arms and placed it on my womb, "Feel him Athrun? He is waiting to see his daddy for real, for you to hold him and tell him how much you love him. Can't you give that to him?" I said crying.

He looked down to where his hand was and held me and started crying along with me.

"I don't want you to go in the end. I love you Cagalli," he said sobbing

"Don't worry nothing will happen to me, I can survive through this," I said

"With what 5 out of a 100 chance," he said

"It's more than enough," I said

And for that night was spend with tears, until I spelt from exhaustion.

I woke up on the bed and I saw that Athrun was gone. I went to the washroom and took a shower, and remembered that Athrun knew what was going to happen. I rushed and changed and went to see Athrun. I found him in the study, on a table with books, files and his laptop on. I went up to him and said, "Did you get any sleep last night?"

He looked up surprised and said, "I know how stubborn you are, so I'm going to try my best to make sure you make this out alive."

"Don't you trust me?" I said

"Right now, no," he said simply

A bit disappointed I sat down on a chair behind him and watched him go through sites and archives. A few hours had passed and he had just come off the phone. He had a defeated face on and sat back down,

"Stop it for a while Athrun, at least eat something," I said

"I'm alright, why don't you go?" he said

"I won't be able to eat, unless I know you ate something, come on, he's hungry," I said

"Keep him starving, all our problems are because of him," he said

I got up abruptly and did something I had never done to Athrun. I slapped him for the first time in my life and screamed, "So this is the problem. You are going to blame it on something that isn't even alive Athrun. How could you be so cruel you bastard? How about I just kill him? Would you be happy them knowing how I …I,"

I fell to the ground and starting crying. I felt Athrun wrap his arms around me, but I tried to push him away, "I know…you love…him…don't tell me you don't want him…because your lying," I said between my sobs.

"I'm so sorry Cagalli; I just don't want to think about how you could…" he said

I shushed me before he went on and calmed my tears, saying, "I promise you Athrun, I'll try me best to make sure we all of us have a future together, but you have to promise I ever something were to happen, you'll live for him."

He nodded and we knew that whatever would happen in the end, we would never separate, because we lived in each others heart and would remain there.

2 months later…

Athrun and I had been really close for the past two months. It felt as if he was cherishing our time, just in case. Today I was going to have my very first ultrasound, and Athrun was probably most eager to see our son, even if it was though a screen. Even though Athrun had wanted me to abort the child, I knew if I did his heart would break in two more harder than if anything were to happen to me because, Athrun really cherished the child whether he knew it or not.

My niece was finally born and I was happy beyond the word of happiness for Lacus and Kira. They named here Clare and I jumped and screamed at how cute the baby was. She had Kira's hair, but Lacus's eyes and skin. Her personality was definitely from both, she was an angel.

I woke up before Athrun as usual these days, because of our active baby. I showered and stepped out of the shower with a towel. I dried myself and looked at my growing bump. It was noticeable that I was pregnant and I really was enjoying the little bump. They grow so fast.

I saw Athrun come in like every morning.

"Look who's here this morning baby," I said

"Good morning Dear, and baby," He said kissing my on the lips and my stomach.

"Good morning sweetie. Take a shower, while I go and change," I said leaving Athrun to get ready.

I changed into a Lavender purple floral print sheer top with a low rise two pocket flared jean and some causal sandals, and went downstairs to start breakfast. Athrun joined me ten minutes later and we cooked yummy food. Placing it on the table we ate and I did my regular throwing up later. I saw Athrun rush after me as usual to soothe my stomach and rubbed my back in gentle strokes to help me get away from the sea sickening feeling.

"Thank you Athrun," I said brushing my teeth.

"No need, this is going to be our baby right," he said quietly. He still hadn't gotten over my problem and was always sad underneath his façade. I gave him a hug which he returned.

We stayed like that, until I reluctantly broke to atmosphere by saying, "We should really get going."

He nodded and we went to the car. He opened mine for me, and I entered. I placed my belt on and Athrun drove at a steady pace, but I could feel Athrun's excitement. We arrived on time and went to the same room we had always been in, whenever we came here. May came inside later with a few machines which I knew was the ultrasound. I took off my shirt lay on the bed. I asked Athrun to sit beside me, which he gladly did.

"So Cagalli, I finally got a hold of the drug we are going to use during your labour. This actually has been recently created, so there is a greater chance of your survival, but I'll give you two, make that three details about it later," she said brightening me up that I glowed.

She applied some gel, on me and I said, "He's sure gotten bigger hasn't he."

"Yes, Athrun do you mind turning off the lights," she said

Athrun got up and switched off the first couple off lights and came back beside me. I held his hand as so took a rod thing and placed it on a gel. On the screen, though blurry was a picture of our son growing. It was the most remarkable thing I had ever seen in my life.

I watched Athrun look at the screen in awe. I looked at May who was looking at Athrun as well. She looked at me, and by her eyes I knew, she had realized why I decided to keep the child. She put the rod in different places and Athrun's eyes were glued to the screen as he saw our baby, as if it was physically in front of him

"Isn't he perfect Athrun?" I said

The pain became over whelming for him. I knew it. He was going to have a hard trouble accepting my decision, when he knew how deep his affection were for the baby, his heart was had always been set out for me from the start.

"Yes, he's wonderful," he said truthfully, yet it had a hint of despair.

I could see May already sprouting tears, as she finished off and took, much to Athrun's annoyance the ultrasound pictures and the screen with black.

"I'll give you to the video, before you leave," she said

I got my progress report and the video as we left. May slipped a note in my hands before leaving. I knew I would open it in private later. We went home afterwards and, Athrun told me he had a few meetings to go to unfortunately. I accepted it and waved goodbye from the door.

I took my chance at reading the note

Cagalli,

I know this may come to you as a surprise, but I would like to discuss the baby and the Syndrome with you privately, after seeing Mr. Zala, I knew telling this in front of you wouldn't be right. Please arrange a meeting as soon as possible, and make sure Athrun is not with you.

May

I knew this was serious. I called her later and arranged a meeting later on this week, but I had made sure Athrun was unaware of my plans, as I waited out the week to hear the news, that would change my life in a new direction completely.